Roe Vent
@ateneta.bsky.social
This is just my public vent account.
This place is gonna be pretty negative, I just put my bad thoughts here so it feels like they're not bouncing about in my head. Tbh not much reason to follow here unless you feel parasocial.
This place is gonna be pretty negative, I just put my bad thoughts here so it feels like they're not bouncing about in my head. Tbh not much reason to follow here unless you feel parasocial.
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My shortcomings and how I'm trying to be better
Since I’ve seen it being brought up I’ll include a section in this document where I hold myself accountable for things I have done in the past and my current flaws I still have that has contributed ei...
docs.google.com
This last year my life has been deeply difficult for me. For a lot of what I've gone through I've been totally powerless. So I felt compelled to make this because something I can make better, is myself. And I think making and having this up helps. docs.google.com/document/d/1...
It's still hard to believe she's really gone. Like, I say the words in my head and it just feels unreal. I know it is and it's not unexpected or unbelievable but it's reality.
October 7, 2026 at 2:03 PM
It's still hard to believe she's really gone. Like, I say the words in my head and it just feels unreal. I know it is and it's not unexpected or unbelievable but it's reality.
This last year my life has been deeply difficult for me. For a lot of what I've gone through I've been totally powerless. So I felt compelled to make this because something I can make better, is myself. And I think making and having this up helps. docs.google.com/document/d/1...
My shortcomings and how I'm trying to be better
Since I’ve seen it being brought up I’ll include a section in this document where I hold myself accountable for things I have done in the past and my current flaws I still have that has contributed ei...
docs.google.com
October 3, 2026 at 10:04 PM
This last year my life has been deeply difficult for me. For a lot of what I've gone through I've been totally powerless. So I felt compelled to make this because something I can make better, is myself. And I think making and having this up helps. docs.google.com/document/d/1...
incidentally, being called a creep by someone who used to "encourage" you to send pics and tell you repeatedly how cute you are and how much they love you. It's uh, it's poison. It left a very deep impression for sure.
September 29, 2026 at 12:22 AM
incidentally, being called a creep by someone who used to "encourage" you to send pics and tell you repeatedly how cute you are and how much they love you. It's uh, it's poison. It left a very deep impression for sure.
It's a shame but I don't know if I can bury my feelings of the people I had to deal with recently anytime soon. Tbh it's mostly just one person I had issues with for the better part of spring/summer and it was mostly interpersonal/ behind the scenes.
September 28, 2026 at 4:49 PM
It's a shame but I don't know if I can bury my feelings of the people I had to deal with recently anytime soon. Tbh it's mostly just one person I had issues with for the better part of spring/summer and it was mostly interpersonal/ behind the scenes.
I'm glad a friend of mine asked me not to self harm again. It's been a really bad habit I picked up a month or 2 ago and tbh not wanting them to be worried is the only thing that's kept me committed to not doing it.
September 27, 2026 at 7:00 PM
I'm glad a friend of mine asked me not to self harm again. It's been a really bad habit I picked up a month or 2 ago and tbh not wanting them to be worried is the only thing that's kept me committed to not doing it.
I don't believe its going to get better. I don't think life ever will get better.
September 27, 2026 at 1:57 PM
I don't believe its going to get better. I don't think life ever will get better.
I just cried in the shower. Think the realisation that I'm going to lose someone else soon just overwhelmed me.
September 26, 2026 at 11:13 PM
I just cried in the shower. Think the realisation that I'm going to lose someone else soon just overwhelmed me.
Also I sometimes just expect to be let down in the same ways or worse again in the future. Like I don't think people get what it feels like to see people you used to like and respect and spend so much time with just be like "yeah fuck it lets lean into lying about her being a pedo".
September 26, 2026 at 7:40 PM
Also I sometimes just expect to be let down in the same ways or worse again in the future. Like I don't think people get what it feels like to see people you used to like and respect and spend so much time with just be like "yeah fuck it lets lean into lying about her being a pedo".
Spent the afternoon with my mum. Constant talks of cancer and death and it's just. She broke down and cried and I dunno what to do even. It's so selfish but yeah todays one of those "I wish I wasn't alive for this" days. I just wish I didn't have to go through this stuff and witness it repeatedly.
September 26, 2026 at 6:06 PM
Spent the afternoon with my mum. Constant talks of cancer and death and it's just. She broke down and cried and I dunno what to do even. It's so selfish but yeah todays one of those "I wish I wasn't alive for this" days. I just wish I didn't have to go through this stuff and witness it repeatedly.
bsky.app/profile/roep... I ended up making a dedicated acc for my cute pics so this can just be a full on journaling acc so if you were here for that go over there :>
Some recent bodysuit stuff because I just really like how it like, contours my body but also the idea of ever actually wearing it out is terrifying hahahaha >>;;;
September 21, 2026 at 1:33 AM
bsky.app/profile/roep... I ended up making a dedicated acc for my cute pics so this can just be a full on journaling acc so if you were here for that go over there :>
I just don't want to trust anyone anymore.
September 19, 2026 at 11:55 PM
I just don't want to trust anyone anymore.
I think if you're a grown adult and you only use apologies as a way to save your ass while not actually doing anything that's something you should feel embarassed about.
September 19, 2026 at 12:06 PM
I think if you're a grown adult and you only use apologies as a way to save your ass while not actually doing anything that's something you should feel embarassed about.
After everything I've been through and the sheer amount of resentment I've accumulated and bottled up I do feel like just purging every last person associated with the people that hurt me. Just a bunch of sideline sitting cowards with no backbone, not worth investing anything into.
September 19, 2026 at 2:41 AM
After everything I've been through and the sheer amount of resentment I've accumulated and bottled up I do feel like just purging every last person associated with the people that hurt me. Just a bunch of sideline sitting cowards with no backbone, not worth investing anything into.
Sometimes I do have dreams where me and the people at odds with me sit down together and see each other as people and just resolve our differences, or at least reach a peaceful conclusions where all parties are treated with dignity and fairness but I know it's asking a lot.
September 16, 2026 at 3:03 PM
Sometimes I do have dreams where me and the people at odds with me sit down together and see each other as people and just resolve our differences, or at least reach a peaceful conclusions where all parties are treated with dignity and fairness but I know it's asking a lot.
Rice and lentils with curry and a bit of double cream hit so good I had to doodle myself after lol.
September 15, 2026 at 1:52 AM
Rice and lentils with curry and a bit of double cream hit so good I had to doodle myself after lol.
Go work on your comic ; )
September 14, 2026 at 10:27 PM
Go work on your comic ; )
If I ever have nice enough boobs and we're still allowed to post tiddies online I might make an account for it seperate from this bc there's too many people here that aren't here for that lol.
September 14, 2026 at 7:58 PM
If I ever have nice enough boobs and we're still allowed to post tiddies online I might make an account for it seperate from this bc there's too many people here that aren't here for that lol.
I think I'd appreciate if someone has an issue with me they just talk to me about it directly instead of doing some stupid game where they vaguepost about me non-stop because they can't be bothered to focus on their own life instead of trying to scry into mine.
September 14, 2026 at 3:25 PM
I think I'd appreciate if someone has an issue with me they just talk to me about it directly instead of doing some stupid game where they vaguepost about me non-stop because they can't be bothered to focus on their own life instead of trying to scry into mine.
I find I repeat myself a dozen different ways because I feel like people don't understand or fully grasp what I'm like, trying to express sometimes?. And this happens a lot and people end up getting annoyed when I do. Idk how to really like fix that?
September 14, 2026 at 3:11 PM
I find I repeat myself a dozen different ways because I feel like people don't understand or fully grasp what I'm like, trying to express sometimes?. And this happens a lot and people end up getting annoyed when I do. Idk how to really like fix that?
I think smth cute about me is that my blood type is O with the Rh mutation so that means I have the RhO (Roe) blood type lol.
September 14, 2026 at 2:56 AM
I think smth cute about me is that my blood type is O with the Rh mutation so that means I have the RhO (Roe) blood type lol.
Is it bad that I like using this acc as a kinda public-ish journal? I realise I've definitely engaged in poor internet hygiene on here and more often than not for not the best reasons.
September 14, 2026 at 2:30 AM
Is it bad that I like using this acc as a kinda public-ish journal? I realise I've definitely engaged in poor internet hygiene on here and more often than not for not the best reasons.
Eh just removing my thread I posted a bit ago - I don't really feel like it's worth dealing with anyone snooping and using it as ammunition and if they're gonna dig through my replies to find something that's just on them.
September 13, 2026 at 9:57 PM
Eh just removing my thread I posted a bit ago - I don't really feel like it's worth dealing with anyone snooping and using it as ammunition and if they're gonna dig through my replies to find something that's just on them.
I've been in a funk for the last week I wanna say? More or less? I think I've just been really struggling to digest like, how people are. Like, I just lost the impulse for better or worse to try and apologise to people and make amends after the fact.
September 13, 2026 at 3:12 PM
I've been in a funk for the last week I wanna say? More or less? I think I've just been really struggling to digest like, how people are. Like, I just lost the impulse for better or worse to try and apologise to people and make amends after the fact.
Kinda sad that the thing that brought me to tears after everything these last days was seeing someone say offhandedly to someone else somewhere Im barely active that I'm one of their favourite artists. Like idk, sometimes I do feel a bit like I don't really achieve anything so it was nice to see.
September 12, 2026 at 8:06 PM
Kinda sad that the thing that brought me to tears after everything these last days was seeing someone say offhandedly to someone else somewhere Im barely active that I'm one of their favourite artists. Like idk, sometimes I do feel a bit like I don't really achieve anything so it was nice to see.
I tried taking some selfies earlier but tbh I didn't feel the best about how I looked in them. I posted them to a place I'm in but idk bleh just feelin a bit off with myself.
September 12, 2026 at 6:36 PM
I tried taking some selfies earlier but tbh I didn't feel the best about how I looked in them. I posted them to a place I'm in but idk bleh just feelin a bit off with myself.