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@emptydeathmask.bsky.social
· May 6
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Its just impossible to believe at this point that anyone gives a fuck about me.
October 10, 2026 at 7:45 AM
Its just impossible to believe at this point that anyone gives a fuck about me.
I don't think ive been this mad at someone in my personal life in a long time. At least i finally got some fucking honesty out of her. Only took a year.
October 9, 2026 at 6:41 AM
I don't think ive been this mad at someone in my personal life in a long time. At least i finally got some fucking honesty out of her. Only took a year.
Good to know I continue to fuck everything up without stopping. Literally incapable of doing anything better than awful.
Ive gone months without doing it but tonight I think I need to. One more doesn't matter anyways when my arms already look how they do, so fuck it.
Ive gone months without doing it but tonight I think I need to. One more doesn't matter anyways when my arms already look how they do, so fuck it.
October 7, 2026 at 4:28 AM
Good to know I continue to fuck everything up without stopping. Literally incapable of doing anything better than awful.
Ive gone months without doing it but tonight I think I need to. One more doesn't matter anyways when my arms already look how they do, so fuck it.
Ive gone months without doing it but tonight I think I need to. One more doesn't matter anyways when my arms already look how they do, so fuck it.
Love that going to therapy makes me want to self harm. Its been months since my last scar. But god everything sucks lately and I need some release.
September 29, 2026 at 5:48 PM
Love that going to therapy makes me want to self harm. Its been months since my last scar. But god everything sucks lately and I need some release.
My trick is to post something I enjoy on my main then come here and post what I'm actually listening to and what's actually on my mind.
"Clinging to the past, like it does my any good.
Avoiding the red flags like a good devotee should."
God this song just cuts into me. 💜
youtu.be/QCdiTj_4WfI?si
"Clinging to the past, like it does my any good.
Avoiding the red flags like a good devotee should."
God this song just cuts into me. 💜
youtu.be/QCdiTj_4WfI?si
CENTIPEDE LEGS - LuLuYam Official Song and Visualizer
YouTube video by LuLuYam
youtu.be
September 28, 2026 at 9:12 AM
My trick is to post something I enjoy on my main then come here and post what I'm actually listening to and what's actually on my mind.
"Clinging to the past, like it does my any good.
Avoiding the red flags like a good devotee should."
God this song just cuts into me. 💜
youtu.be/QCdiTj_4WfI?si
"Clinging to the past, like it does my any good.
Avoiding the red flags like a good devotee should."
God this song just cuts into me. 💜
youtu.be/QCdiTj_4WfI?si
Guess I'm finally gonna just ask her flat out "what the fuck was that???" today. Wish me luck I guess.
September 21, 2026 at 11:56 PM
Guess I'm finally gonna just ask her flat out "what the fuck was that???" today. Wish me luck I guess.
Trying so hard not to crash out at work. I just want to scream.
September 21, 2026 at 7:26 PM
Trying so hard not to crash out at work. I just want to scream.
Its been a few months since I last hurt myself in any significant way. Not that the desire is gone or that I'm happier. Cuz holy shit thr temptation is strong tonight. Idk why even. Nothing even happened.
September 21, 2026 at 8:04 AM
Its been a few months since I last hurt myself in any significant way. Not that the desire is gone or that I'm happier. Cuz holy shit thr temptation is strong tonight. Idk why even. Nothing even happened.
I really wish I could just leave everything behind. I feel so many horrible things I don't want to be true. But its all I can really do.
August 18, 2026 at 8:40 AM
I really wish I could just leave everything behind. I feel so many horrible things I don't want to be true. But its all I can really do.
My depression posts already seem like they're just circular. I can't even be depressed in an interesting way. No wonder everyone treats me like barely a doormat. I should just fucking do it.
July 26, 2026 at 6:52 AM
My depression posts already seem like they're just circular. I can't even be depressed in an interesting way. No wonder everyone treats me like barely a doormat. I should just fucking do it.
Living every day on the edge of throwing myself off is clearly doing great things for my mental health.
July 26, 2026 at 6:45 AM
Living every day on the edge of throwing myself off is clearly doing great things for my mental health.
Sometimes I think I'd be more likable as a person if I didnt anticipate "disappearing" before 30 and then finding a shred of will to live now having me in limbo like "the fuck do i do now?"
Though that single shred is fading fast lately.
Though that single shred is fading fast lately.
July 26, 2026 at 6:24 AM
Sometimes I think I'd be more likable as a person if I didnt anticipate "disappearing" before 30 and then finding a shred of will to live now having me in limbo like "the fuck do i do now?"
Though that single shred is fading fast lately.
Though that single shred is fading fast lately.
Its cool being so depressed I get nauseous
July 26, 2026 at 6:04 AM
Its cool being so depressed I get nauseous
Good to see I'm back to staying up all night to uncontrollably sob about my fucking ex. Part of me thinks I should skip her birthday. But she's also like 60% of my friends in this shit hole city and all but one of the others I only know through her. I can't go back to being that alone.
July 21, 2026 at 9:22 AM
Good to see I'm back to staying up all night to uncontrollably sob about my fucking ex. Part of me thinks I should skip her birthday. But she's also like 60% of my friends in this shit hole city and all but one of the others I only know through her. I can't go back to being that alone.
Aw hell yeah, birthday starting strong remembering how almost exactly a year ago my ex broke up with me. And were gonna be hanging out later today. I probably shoulda tried to spend this time someone else to be honest. But she's still my best friend. Just, a lot of hard feelings.
July 2, 2026 at 2:45 PM
Aw hell yeah, birthday starting strong remembering how almost exactly a year ago my ex broke up with me. And were gonna be hanging out later today. I probably shoulda tried to spend this time someone else to be honest. But she's still my best friend. Just, a lot of hard feelings.
Everything pissing me off today and all I want is to fucking go home. Work uniform is frustratingly itchy, traffic was a fucking nightmare for miles not even for an accident, got ripped off at the drive thru by getting half the food I actually paid for, no fucking sleep. I'm so fucking done today.
June 18, 2026 at 4:12 PM
Everything pissing me off today and all I want is to fucking go home. Work uniform is frustratingly itchy, traffic was a fucking nightmare for miles not even for an accident, got ripped off at the drive thru by getting half the food I actually paid for, no fucking sleep. I'm so fucking done today.
BPD makes sense honestly. Just, a lot to process. Ugh.
June 10, 2026 at 12:14 AM
BPD makes sense honestly. Just, a lot to process. Ugh.
Think I missed my shot last week which is why I'm so overwhelmingly depressed right now. Which like, okay after work I can go home and do my shot. Hopefully feel better tomorrow. But holy shit the oncoming traffic looks so appealing and I just can't stand these feelings even being in the background.
June 8, 2026 at 8:11 PM
Think I missed my shot last week which is why I'm so overwhelmingly depressed right now. Which like, okay after work I can go home and do my shot. Hopefully feel better tomorrow. But holy shit the oncoming traffic looks so appealing and I just can't stand these feelings even being in the background.
Like maybe I'd ever fucking believed they cared about me if they ever made even a single effort they make for everyone else in their life. But no I get to just fuck off and be happy with being the last person anyone wants to he around.
May 31, 2026 at 8:06 AM
Like maybe I'd ever fucking believed they cared about me if they ever made even a single effort they make for everyone else in their life. But no I get to just fuck off and be happy with being the last person anyone wants to he around.
I really should just fucking disappear forever. I've got absolutely nothing going for me.
May 31, 2026 at 8:02 AM
I really should just fucking disappear forever. I've got absolutely nothing going for me.
I should crush my skull to let all the bad thoughts out :)
May 31, 2026 at 12:44 AM
I should crush my skull to let all the bad thoughts out :)
Thinking about it and being brutally, horrifically honest with myself, I think one of my main barriers to getting better is that my original plan of "retiring" by 30 is almost 2 years past its expiration date, but I still only see it as my only option for some vague future time in my life.
May 28, 2026 at 8:47 AM
Thinking about it and being brutally, horrifically honest with myself, I think one of my main barriers to getting better is that my original plan of "retiring" by 30 is almost 2 years past its expiration date, but I still only see it as my only option for some vague future time in my life.
Screw just listening to my main major depression band, I'm making a new playlist of all of them and getting all the new albums ive missed.
Gonna tear it up - sad style 😎
Gonna tear it up - sad style 😎
May 28, 2026 at 8:30 AM
Screw just listening to my main major depression band, I'm making a new playlist of all of them and getting all the new albums ive missed.
Gonna tear it up - sad style 😎
Gonna tear it up - sad style 😎
Fuck I don't have time for this fucking shit. I need to sleep so I can go to my shitty job that doesnt pay enough and is way too far away.
Guess I'll dissociate til Sunday. I'm supposed to be doing that less but its either that or keep crashing out and hurting myself.
Guess I'll dissociate til Sunday. I'm supposed to be doing that less but its either that or keep crashing out and hurting myself.
May 23, 2026 at 7:15 AM
Fuck I don't have time for this fucking shit. I need to sleep so I can go to my shitty job that doesnt pay enough and is way too far away.
Guess I'll dissociate til Sunday. I'm supposed to be doing that less but its either that or keep crashing out and hurting myself.
Guess I'll dissociate til Sunday. I'm supposed to be doing that less but its either that or keep crashing out and hurting myself.
Its really funny how I think I'm doing better and just like bam, a single very minor thing happens and now I'm up 2 hours later than i wanted to be crashing out and wishing I didnt let my friend take my knives in my safety plan when she asked. I'm grateful she cares but I need to get a new knife.
May 23, 2026 at 7:07 AM
Its really funny how I think I'm doing better and just like bam, a single very minor thing happens and now I'm up 2 hours later than i wanted to be crashing out and wishing I didnt let my friend take my knives in my safety plan when she asked. I'm grateful she cares but I need to get a new knife.