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Willard
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Disabled artist & noise maker. End stage kidney disease. Obsessed with puppetry.
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Musique concrète, noise music, drone, sound collage. Artist (43 years). Defeatist.

https://urkopfs-puppets.neocities.org

https://spukkopf.bandcamp.com
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I don’t get in here as much as I used to.

How is everyone?

#everyone
September 18, 2026 at 10:34 PM
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Newest album.
Bandcamp codes on my tumblr & Instagram.

#musiqueconcrete #noisemusic #soundcollage
Cursed Abundance, by Spukkopf
4 track album
spukkopf.bandcamp.com
August 31, 2026 at 3:30 AM
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“All of the myths of mankind are nothing but show business.”

~Thomas Ligotti, Teatro Grottesco

#pessimism #horror #thomasligotti #philosophicalpessimism #horrorliterature
July 2, 2026 at 6:32 AM
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"The Philosopher" (Ver 3)
(Ink on paper, 2026, 6 inches by 6 inches)

#art #inkdrawing #graphicart #traditionart #artonbsky #bskyartist #artistonbsky #drawing #artist #artwork #philosophy
Black and white drawing, titled "The Philosopher". A figure stands in the center of the picture. His head goes and neck burrows down into his body. He stares wildly out at the viewer. He stands on a hill with a city on the horizon. A few scattered cloud in the sky. And a cloud covered moon sits in the background. Almost all upper space is covered in black stars.
June 30, 2026 at 7:16 PM
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"Objection to scientific knowledge: this world doesn't deserve to be known."

~Emil Cioran

#philosophicalpessimism #pessimism #philosophy
June 30, 2026 at 3:04 AM
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"The shit you're in is deeper than you can imagine."

~from the movie, "They Will Kill You"

#quotes #pessimism #moviequotes
June 30, 2026 at 2:09 AM
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New Spukkopf track on this compilation...

#drone #dronemusic #musiqueconcrete #Musiqueconcrète #experimentalmusic
If We Could Not Dream, by Spukkopf
from the album CANTICLES FOR THE BLACKSMITH SAINTS ༺♰༻
echoveil-records.bandcamp.com
June 15, 2026 at 11:26 PM
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I’m a dancing marionette being tortured by the puppet-master.

One of the worst things about having my disease is that it causes seriously insane restless legs at night. I can’t sleep with my legs moving constantly. WTH

#puppet #restlesslegs #bodyhorror
June 10, 2026 at 8:49 AM
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There’s a world I have to build in order that I may breath.

#breathing #worldbuilding #wakingsleep #sleep
June 10, 2026 at 1:33 AM
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~Thomas Ligotti

(Screenshot quote from The Conspiracy Against the Human Race. See ALT text to copy quote.)

#thomasligotti #pessimism #philosophicalpessimism #puppets #puppettheater #ArthurSchopenhauer #schopenhauer
“Schopenhauer’s is a great pessimism, not least because it reveals a signature motif of the pessimistic imagination. As indicated, Schopenhauer’s insights are yoked to a philosophical superstructure centered on the Will, or the Will-to-live—a blind, deaf, and dumb force that rouses human beings to their detriment. While Schopenhauer’s system of thought is as impossible to swallow as that of any other systematic philosopher, no intelligent person can fail to see that every living thing behaves exactly in conformity with his philosophy in its liberal articulation. Wound up like toys by some force—call it Will, élan vital, anima mundi, physiological or psychological processes, nature, or whatever—organisms go on running as they are bidden until they run down. In pessimistic philosophies only the force is real, not the things activated by it. They are only puppets, and if they have consciousness may mistakenly believe they are self-winding persons who are making a go of it on their own.” ~Thomas Ligotti, TCATHR (Screenshot of a quote from The Conspiracy Against the Human Race with a section high lighted, "In pessimistic philosophies only the force is real, not the things activated by it.")
June 9, 2026 at 8:52 PM
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Sometimes I just don't know about the fedi-verse. How long will an instance stay afloat? It depends only on one person. Sometimes, my profile just isn't available.

#fediverse #nervous
June 9, 2026 at 8:01 PM
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Monsters and a finger plane...
Practice page.

#art #drawing #ink #cartooning #monsters #puppets
Black and white ink drawing. Three large figures at the top of drawing. Middle figure looks very worried. All drawing looks cartoony. The rest of the faces and figures look monstrous with sharp teeth. One figure is eating another. Bottom right is a puppet demon and to its right is a airplane that looks like a finger, above a city. Every empty space between the figures is covered with black stars.
June 8, 2026 at 10:07 PM
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I think I found a way to sleep while awake.

#wakingsleep #sleeping
June 8, 2026 at 8:55 PM
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Working on music every night I have insomnia. The results are strange. The music is very hypnotic, sleep inducing.

Working on an album of these sounds.

#sleep #music #experimentalmusic #dronemusic
June 8, 2026 at 8:52 PM
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No hope. Zero sleep. Took me years to abandon my hope last night.

#nohope #imissyousleep
June 8, 2026 at 3:26 PM
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Sleep is the best hope for Homo sapiens.

#sleep #hope
June 8, 2026 at 6:44 AM
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“We are not nihilistic towards life - it is life that is nihilistic towards us. It is life that denies us, expels us, and kills us. Do we not want to live intensely and forever? Are we the ones denying life? Is it not life that denies us day by day?”

~Julio Cabrera

#philosophy #pessimism
June 4, 2026 at 6:19 PM
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Just being dragged along in this nightmare world. Hoping to find rest. I’m just a puppet of this hateful body.

#nightmare #bodyhorror
June 2, 2026 at 7:09 PM
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Some practice time.
#artisttools #inkdrawing #drawing #monsters #artiststudio #sketchbook
A photo of my desk in my studio. My sketchbook at the bottom with my ink well and pen at top. The drawing on the sketchbook is of a monster with many sharp teeth and disease splotches. He holds the cloud covered moon and stars in his mouth. There is a figure on each side of Mr. Headcase. Page is cut off by photo. Synthesizer at top of photo.
May 29, 2026 at 6:39 PM
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Panpsychosism - Now I Am Become Chair

My most recent album released.
#dronemusic #musiqueconcrète #soundcollage
"Now I am become Chair...", by Panpsychosism
5 track album
spukkopf.bandcamp.com
May 26, 2026 at 5:52 PM
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I am so tired. Sleep, where are you?
May 26, 2026 at 1:19 AM
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Spukkopf is resurrected. First track in six months, since I started dialysis.

#soundcollage #microsound #dronemusic #noisemusic #musiqueconcrète #noise
I Can Still Hear It Sometimes, by Spukkopf
from the album Be Quick... or Remain Silent!
gohrecordings.bandcamp.com
May 20, 2026 at 4:56 PM
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Urkopf Practice page.
#monsters #art #monsterart #traditionalart #cartooning #urkopf #traditionalart #sketchbook #sketch
Black and white ink drawing. One large monster with a group of other figures below. The giant monster is called Urkopf. Its body is just a large head with four arms sprouting from its mouth, and with a long tube like a coiled intestine and sixteen eyes all over its body from arms to face and body. The Watcher is in the lower left corner. It has two enormous empty black holes for eyes and no hands. I am no good at alt text. My apologies. Stars fill every empty space between figures.
May 19, 2026 at 7:44 PM
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Existence is such a hopeless pile.
May 16, 2026 at 7:15 AM
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Another day of sadness.
May 15, 2026 at 8:46 PM