Everytime I pic up a paintbrush now its a losing battle. I feel like every time Ive wanted to create anything since the end of September its a lost cause. There's no joy in anything.i5 doesn't matter if I stay here or not. I feel robbed

This has become my reddit alternative. I dont want to thoughtbdump on a platform where people know us. Do you have any idea how this has affected me? I hate that you could someone like this.

Im soul tired. I was so in love with you. Now, im empty. You took all of the light I had and left me the way I found you

What a wild time to be alive.
A little back story.
After a really bad break up (and I mean, heart break like ive never felt) someone from a Spyware company reached out to me and told me that my ex had installed myspy on my device that day. *more in comments*