So people like to think because I’m a #BreakerTuber that I can only grow. Well… remember that I have a shrinking/deflation kink. The opposite is true too.

And of course, I break by more than just size manipulation. My power can achieve these means to an end. I am a toon, after all!

Despite YouTube being cruel to me. You are allowed to post videos in my community.

My mom is about to lose one of her jobs, so she fears. This is to be determined by this Friday.

I can’t catch a break. I owe even more bad karma.

I told mom to go on FlesxJobs to look for now two jobs, since she is already subscribed there.

Should she be let go… good luck with bills for me.

In a solid week, I return to streaming. So Next Monday. Thank you all for your patience.

The more I end up in different communities the more I realize I'm into MANY MANY more things that I didn't think I would be. Kinks are wild and I love them!

I think it's especially difficult for me to be seen as cruel or immature, because I put a lot of effort into growth and understanding.

I spend a lot of time worrying I am not being understanding or patient enough, and I make a lot of effort to try to be.

I am genuinely a little insecure about it!

<a href="https://ko-fi.com/13character5" class="hover:underline text-blue-600 dark:text-sky-400 no-card-link" target="_blank" rel="noopener" data-link="bsky">https://ko-fi.com/13character5 just blocked someone on discord after they tried sending me $300 for my quest 2 using "business" accounts across cashapp & paypal instead of sending me the money like a normal person, anyone willing to donate $50 to make up for the "fee"?

So because I gave my ID to ROBLOX just to gain Voice Chat access, apparently I now have Plus features? Obviously not the monthly ROBUX. But most everything else.

I'm confused. But I'll take it!

Me: *Furiously taps button on a Discord Mod UI panel to do something. Nothing is happening.*

Discord: *Flashes confirmation, dismisses confirmation, does nothing.*

So my profile picture on Twitch changed, figured a change of pace was in order. I still have the original image by NSB124 as needed.

You ever get like

Afraid to reach out, because you don't want somebody's most common experience with you to be you being sad?

This is basically me, all things considered. Because… I can! #BreakerTuber

A massive reality-warping god of merriment and elation who does whatever they please... albeit with no moral compass comparable to humans.
Carving their name in a mountain? It's just for fun.
Turning the castle into their desk toy? It's just for fun.
Taking a bite out of the moon? It's just for fun.

It's okay to not be okay. Things may feel off despite healing. You might think that healing cures all wounds-- but some linger for a very long time.

*sigh*

I might mess things up all over again, huh?

So my mom almost died vomiting.

Today is absolute garbage. Reddit post by elitism in WoW, three fights, and now this.

Not even five days into the month and I'm given absolute hell. Can I stop paying bad karma dues now? Can I finally heal?

I got everything set up on @altstream.online , stream key, panels within reason, the works.

I'm thinking of doing a three way stream (two if I need to re-register to be a Streamer on RPlay) when I come back on the 12th. But not starting all at once, just in case.

This is your reminder to never put commission info in notes that payment processors may have access to.

They will take away service for anything as long as they even remotely think you might be queer.

Yes, even that totally benign, SFW art you wanted.

Keep your artists safe.

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. The October of Oblivion/Obliteration is wracking my mind still.

I just want to be left alone by those particular parts my brain. I want to heal.

How can I, when there’s the possibility of more fighting? More ugliness?

Through a mixture of happenstances and kinship, I have coined a term. #BreakerTuber .

A BreakerTuber is a Breaker, but as a VTuber/VR Creator/Streamer. Breakers are deities who are capable not just warping reality with shapeshifting or magic… but break everything and every known concept doing so.

It appears @altstream.online went down from a surge of popularity, considering they are anti-AI and pro-NSFW, you bet I'd make an account there.

I survived a lot. Like… a lot. So this is gonna be a doozy of a thread, because obviously character limit.

The odds of my conception were extremely low. There were interactions between my biological parents that, when they happened, could have resulted in different timelines than they did.

Hey. It's gonna be okay today. You're doing your best.

Reminder of my beliefs for new followers:
ACAB, no exception.
Black lives always matter, not when it's just in fashion.
Billionaires imprisoned, wealth distributed to infrastructure, healthcare, education, etc.
Golf courses dismantled, replaced with wildlife preserves.
Trans rights.
Fuck GenAI.

The thing that kills me with vibecoded recomps/decomps is that it's gotta feel awful releasing real shit you worked on rn, dropping something you're real proud of and at best it gets slopvestigated into some fanfare before getting drowned out by everyone going back to lamenting the state of things

To my knowledge regarding the situation regarding elitism in WoW's hate raid on me. Blizzard "intervened".

Meaning, people on the side of sanity were banned and elitism is unfettered. The Code of Conduct is a suggestion to the bad guys, basically.

The security level has been raised as a result.