derealization and decentralized pain and blackouts and "seizures" and a random metallic taste in my sinuses and an inexplicable sense of doom that comes and goes randomly and migraines with auras and vertigo and perpetually numb hands and the same incredibly specific and weird dream and-

if I say I am at a seven and still complete the task, people remember "completed the task" and forget "at a seven"

realizing i NEED to sexualize my dissociative amnesia

I may be a bad person to ask because I fumbled my way into the relationship that would become my marriage at 16. we split for a bit in college but I overcame my feelings of boy/man failure by realizing my cis gay best friend felt like I did and he was hot as hell to me. that fixed something in me.

they sure do make em different out here in the northeast 🫐🦞🌲