You’re wrong. I see everything my homies post.

Also happy to see you active again, Emmie. Missed the fuck outta you.

It looks great on you, hun❤️

Maybe with how I am now, I don’t deserve love because I have all this negativity buried in me.

It eats away at me day by day and I feel hollow and bitter.

I don’t want to die one day and no one will notice or care. I want to feel like I’ve left my mark on people and I’ll be in their hearts.

Was it because I was also in it that bothered people? Or maybe if it’s not shoved in their face then it will go unseen?

I’m probably overthinking things again…

God, I hate myself at times! I want to believe that my friends love me for me, but my heart aches from nagging doubt.

But then I post that art in the discord server dedicated to all the fanart for them, and the one person that I wanted to see it… seemingly skips over it like it wasn’t there.

Yet she saw and acknowledged every other fanart piece that was posted.

Like, I pay for fanart with a friend for their anniversary as a streamer and gift tons of subs and bits. I mask a post about it on twitter while tagging them. They see it and thank me for it.

Hell, I even congratulated them on their kudoboard.

Here’s view of his rings💍