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@b1tethehand.bsky.social
char/nat, 23, she he they
only for oomfs, ill block everyone else
no tw vent and stuff
only for oomfs, ill block everyone else
no tw vent and stuff
ykw if god wants to give me a hypomanic episode… so be it… as long as itd mild and i know i wont crash afterwards bc i’m on antidepressants… whatever ig
September 17, 2026 at 2:24 AM
ykw if god wants to give me a hypomanic episode… so be it… as long as itd mild and i know i wont crash afterwards bc i’m on antidepressants… whatever ig
my dads alr micromanaging everything in our flat god give me strength
September 16, 2026 at 5:51 PM
my dads alr micromanaging everything in our flat god give me strength
ive been feeling really frustrated ab being pretty much stripped of my usual libido and sexual desire by antidepressants. it sounds so silly like oh u jack off less often who gaf but its the feelings behind it that matters, it feels like i lost some part of me and some feeling that was always there
September 15, 2026 at 9:41 PM
ive been feeling really frustrated ab being pretty much stripped of my usual libido and sexual desire by antidepressants. it sounds so silly like oh u jack off less often who gaf but its the feelings behind it that matters, it feels like i lost some part of me and some feeling that was always there
feeling anxious like there must be something Wrong. and ik it’s not rational it’s because my brain is looking for something to worry ab bc i’ve been feeling good and feeling Bad is what i’m used to but aghhhhh
September 14, 2026 at 11:59 PM
feeling anxious like there must be something Wrong. and ik it’s not rational it’s because my brain is looking for something to worry ab bc i’ve been feeling good and feeling Bad is what i’m used to but aghhhhh
i was fine the ahole day and suddenly i got hit with the worst nausea migraine and full body weakness Cool
September 14, 2026 at 4:45 PM
i was fine the ahole day and suddenly i got hit with the worst nausea migraine and full body weakness Cool
took max dose of sleep meds and i keep waking up and i feel like i can’t fucking stay in place it’s like actually torturous
September 13, 2026 at 12:34 AM
took max dose of sleep meds and i keep waking up and i feel like i can’t fucking stay in place it’s like actually torturous
hey guys did u know its a bad idea to destroy ur sleeping schedule when ur bipolar? 🤗
September 12, 2026 at 12:12 PM
hey guys did u know its a bad idea to destroy ur sleeping schedule when ur bipolar? 🤗
i feel so fucking nauseous i need to eat something but i think ill throw up if i even try to put anything in my mouth
September 10, 2026 at 6:14 PM
i feel so fucking nauseous i need to eat something but i think ill throw up if i even try to put anything in my mouth
had a sex dream and i woke up so horny i just keep thinking about it 😭😭
September 10, 2026 at 11:07 AM
had a sex dream and i woke up so horny i just keep thinking about it 😭😭
i’ve been getting tarot readings on my fyp a lot again recently even though i skip them bc i’m not allowed to watch them… perhaps a sign of some sort
September 9, 2026 at 12:25 AM
i’ve been getting tarot readings on my fyp a lot again recently even though i skip them bc i’m not allowed to watch them… perhaps a sign of some sort
i don’t wanna talk about spending money and staying up late i’m choosing peace
September 7, 2026 at 11:30 PM
i don’t wanna talk about spending money and staying up late i’m choosing peace
i was reading my old journal as one does and i’m realising i don’t actually remember that much of the time dave was the host… like yeah i remember the general vibe but a lot of memories from when i was at uni are so blurry or i’m literally finding out about them As i’m reading my diary
September 7, 2026 at 12:49 AM
i was reading my old journal as one does and i’m realising i don’t actually remember that much of the time dave was the host… like yeah i remember the general vibe but a lot of memories from when i was at uni are so blurry or i’m literally finding out about them As i’m reading my diary
i’m so excited for uni but also Very scared i won’t be able to do it as well as i want to
September 2, 2026 at 2:37 PM
i’m so excited for uni but also Very scared i won’t be able to do it as well as i want to
feeling like shit and i know Why but it doesnt rly help me feel better ughhh
August 31, 2026 at 7:54 PM
feeling like shit and i know Why but it doesnt rly help me feel better ughhh
i feel baaaad i feel shiiiit i wish something could just fix this and take it away immediately bc i HATE feeling this way and its like. oh okay its just inescapable and inevitable that ill feel like this every now and then and i only have control over How i deal with it
August 30, 2026 at 10:21 PM
i feel baaaad i feel shiiiit i wish something could just fix this and take it away immediately bc i HATE feeling this way and its like. oh okay its just inescapable and inevitable that ill feel like this every now and then and i only have control over How i deal with it
what if im not actually bipolar and i was making it up
August 30, 2026 at 12:09 PM
what if im not actually bipolar and i was making it up
it’s so stupid that meds don’t fix you and i still feel depressed sometimes and it’s my job to go against my instincts and get up and do things instead of rotting in bed and wallowing in sadness
August 30, 2026 at 9:53 AM
it’s so stupid that meds don’t fix you and i still feel depressed sometimes and it’s my job to go against my instincts and get up and do things instead of rotting in bed and wallowing in sadness
ohhhh i’m really not having a good day today
August 29, 2026 at 5:34 PM
ohhhh i’m really not having a good day today
i’ve been free from self harm for about a month now which isn’t a lot but it’s more than its been in a while:)
August 29, 2026 at 3:00 PM
i’ve been free from self harm for about a month now which isn’t a lot but it’s more than its been in a while:)
woke up so achy my whole body is uncomfortable ew
August 29, 2026 at 8:07 AM
woke up so achy my whole body is uncomfortable ew
okay tomorrow i have to bedrot a bit less bc this isnt good for my brain
August 28, 2026 at 11:33 PM
okay tomorrow i have to bedrot a bit less bc this isnt good for my brain
my grandma came over with my cousin for a tea and she hered me the whole time what’s she cooking
August 28, 2026 at 11:37 AM
my grandma came over with my cousin for a tea and she hered me the whole time what’s she cooking
i kinda miss my face on T…
August 27, 2026 at 10:26 PM
i kinda miss my face on T…
very worried and anxious about everything especially going back to uni and figuring out how to do all that again but ik its prob fine its just a bad day to think about Stuff bc im sad ab my bf leaving and exhausted after holiday and all
August 27, 2026 at 2:14 PM
very worried and anxious about everything especially going back to uni and figuring out how to do all that again but ik its prob fine its just a bad day to think about Stuff bc im sad ab my bf leaving and exhausted after holiday and all
im so saaaaad usually i have to do more travelling after parting ways so i dont get too much time to be sad and by the time im home im kinda normaled up but i got home in half an hour and im just sat here like :(
August 27, 2026 at 11:47 AM
im so saaaaad usually i have to do more travelling after parting ways so i dont get too much time to be sad and by the time im home im kinda normaled up but i got home in half an hour and im just sat here like :(