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@batdeersad.bsky.social
You get what you looked for
noone from my family really calls me. i try to stay in touch and call often, but its hard not to feel like an afterthought. with everything going on with me lately, i guess i just thought more people would check in on me. it hurts to feel forgotten.
October 12, 2026 at 12:48 AM
noone from my family really calls me. i try to stay in touch and call often, but its hard not to feel like an afterthought. with everything going on with me lately, i guess i just thought more people would check in on me. it hurts to feel forgotten.
happy that things are working out for you. just wish i wasnt only a friend to consider when shit was going awful for you.
October 8, 2026 at 2:19 AM
happy that things are working out for you. just wish i wasnt only a friend to consider when shit was going awful for you.
This is why I'm going back to suppressing my fucking emotions. Nobody wants to be around me when I'm emotional and open. Noone wants the ugly truth if wanting to kill yourself every single fucking day. So fuck it. Have your comfort back.
October 7, 2026 at 12:25 PM
This is why I'm going back to suppressing my fucking emotions. Nobody wants to be around me when I'm emotional and open. Noone wants the ugly truth if wanting to kill yourself every single fucking day. So fuck it. Have your comfort back.
I have no idea how to navigate the name and pronoun stuff. I keep saying "after this trip" but when am I going to actually take a stand for myself
October 6, 2026 at 2:51 AM
I have no idea how to navigate the name and pronoun stuff. I keep saying "after this trip" but when am I going to actually take a stand for myself
Noone uses my name or pronouns here no one respects me and I'm too much of a fucking coward to correct anybody. Weekend of suffering
October 2, 2026 at 9:51 PM
Noone uses my name or pronouns here no one respects me and I'm too much of a fucking coward to correct anybody. Weekend of suffering
I knew this trip was a fucking mistake
October 2, 2026 at 9:45 PM
I knew this trip was a fucking mistake
Love getting stared at when I walk out of the bathroom at work. Gawk at the tranny is a sacred past time I guess .
Oh and then the moment I'm getting food on the way home and the person handing me the food calls me miss but then when I thank her she switched to sir.
I'm so tired of being a freak
Oh and then the moment I'm getting food on the way home and the person handing me the food calls me miss but then when I thank her she switched to sir.
I'm so tired of being a freak
September 29, 2026 at 1:27 AM
Love getting stared at when I walk out of the bathroom at work. Gawk at the tranny is a sacred past time I guess .
Oh and then the moment I'm getting food on the way home and the person handing me the food calls me miss but then when I thank her she switched to sir.
I'm so tired of being a freak
Oh and then the moment I'm getting food on the way home and the person handing me the food calls me miss but then when I thank her she switched to sir.
I'm so tired of being a freak
STOP FORGETTING THINGS. GODDAMNIT. ITS SO EASY TO JUST REMEMBER BUT ONE LITTLE ERRANT THOUGHT DERAILS EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO DO. i hate my useless fucking brain cause now im gonna be sitting here all night thinking and TRYING to remember what i forgot cause i swear to god it was IMPORTANT
September 29, 2026 at 1:03 AM
STOP FORGETTING THINGS. GODDAMNIT. ITS SO EASY TO JUST REMEMBER BUT ONE LITTLE ERRANT THOUGHT DERAILS EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO DO. i hate my useless fucking brain cause now im gonna be sitting here all night thinking and TRYING to remember what i forgot cause i swear to god it was IMPORTANT
why am i even gonna waste my time with therapy. im just gonna kill myself eventually.
September 28, 2026 at 11:07 PM
why am i even gonna waste my time with therapy. im just gonna kill myself eventually.
Maybe I'm just. Not fun to be around
September 28, 2026 at 10:49 PM
Maybe I'm just. Not fun to be around
Hard to not feel like people only keep me around when they're feeling bad. I've gotten better about reaching out and trying to keep friendships but fuck me dude I feel like such a goddamn afterthought of a person
September 28, 2026 at 10:49 PM
Hard to not feel like people only keep me around when they're feeling bad. I've gotten better about reaching out and trying to keep friendships but fuck me dude I feel like such a goddamn afterthought of a person
Mm yes dysphoric as hell on my 10 hour shift the day before therapy cool cool cool cool cool
September 28, 2026 at 3:36 PM
Mm yes dysphoric as hell on my 10 hour shift the day before therapy cool cool cool cool cool
I wish I wasn't ugly
September 24, 2026 at 2:06 AM
I wish I wasn't ugly
I'm going in the same circle over and over and I'm just stuck. What the fuck is wrong with me.
September 23, 2026 at 12:40 AM
I'm going in the same circle over and over and I'm just stuck. What the fuck is wrong with me.
Something broke last month and I don't know what it was or how to fix it
September 23, 2026 at 12:35 AM
Something broke last month and I don't know what it was or how to fix it
I'll never be happy again will I. I finally. Had a chance at it and it's gone. I felt good for the first time and it's gone and I don't know how to get it back and I'm just spiraling all the time I want to go back I want to go back I wanna go back
September 23, 2026 at 12:30 AM
I'll never be happy again will I. I finally. Had a chance at it and it's gone. I felt good for the first time and it's gone and I don't know how to get it back and I'm just spiraling all the time I want to go back I want to go back I wanna go back
I just don't feel good anymore. What's the point. Just making everyone around me worse off
September 23, 2026 at 12:23 AM
I just don't feel good anymore. What's the point. Just making everyone around me worse off
Today was a good day too and all it took was one phone call to ruin it. Why am I such a fucking coward.
September 22, 2026 at 1:36 AM
Today was a good day too and all it took was one phone call to ruin it. Why am I such a fucking coward.
when did i become such a burden to the people who care for me
September 22, 2026 at 1:22 AM
when did i become such a burden to the people who care for me
i wish i could have had a normal childhood. every good memory i unlock gets marred with a sad one.
September 20, 2026 at 7:20 PM
i wish i could have had a normal childhood. every good memory i unlock gets marred with a sad one.
I'm half a person. The other half a freakish amalgam of other people's personalities.
September 18, 2026 at 2:55 PM
I'm half a person. The other half a freakish amalgam of other people's personalities.
I've let people lie to me for three and a half years saying I look better. I'm goddamn hideous
September 16, 2026 at 7:52 PM
I've let people lie to me for three and a half years saying I look better. I'm goddamn hideous
What's the point of piloting a body I don't even like?
September 16, 2026 at 7:36 PM
What's the point of piloting a body I don't even like?
I don't think anyone would really be worse for wear if I was gone
September 16, 2026 at 7:31 PM
I don't think anyone would really be worse for wear if I was gone
Having the words for things is great until you can finally identify how often you feel something and know that it's bad and wrong and sucks. I'm so much more hyper aware of when I dissociate now and I hate it
September 16, 2026 at 7:21 PM
Having the words for things is great until you can finally identify how often you feel something and know that it's bad and wrong and sucks. I'm so much more hyper aware of when I dissociate now and I hate it