LIKE i can give myself little tasks to fill the void but said health issues won't let me loolllll pleasseeee give me a job please please please it's only been 3 days but i cannot do this anymore huuuuuuuu T___T

also tbh it was time for me to leave. there were a lot of factors but ultimately my boss couldn’t accommodate me with a reduced schedule because of my recent medical conditions that cause me to not function

i’m going to make a zine about this tbh

im not gonna post what health things im going through right now but girl. girl. come the fuck on.

idk i’m just thinking about how every other sunday night she texts me about her “nausea, vomitting, dizziness” and expects me to tell her to stay home monday. and when i offer her help or advice she stops responding or says “do you think boss will
be mad if i call out tomorrow” lol. lol

“boss said i can only take half days for doctor appts and i can’t schedule time off for the next 3 months” ok i went through that too, then she says “but what if i want to take a me day or go see a concert” GIRL! If you want to keep your big girl job you’re gonna have to make some sacrifices!

like she has become way too comfortable with me and it’s fucking weird! we’re very clearly on two different maturity levels and it’s hard to relate to her problems. she complained to me when she was on probation for her repeated absences, and said

she’s in the cone for her own good but boy does she hate it hahah

It’s a weird feeling! but still.. i’m very grateful for the opportunity and im going to make good use of that time and tell him how appreciative i, and the rest of the bettelion are of him and his company

i feel like it should have gone to someone more deserving? idk i can’t catch his streams, i don’t superchat anymore, i do still buy his merch but.
i’m not sure what would make someone more “deserving”. idk what that would look like. maybe i’m deserving in my own way, but not more than someone else.