I’m so fricking tired. Long distance is going to eat me alive.

I’m just so helpless. I feel like my world will just keep slowly collapsing in on itself more and more and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. I just need to keep waiting until she gets a job and hope it magically fixes everything. I mean I do think it will fix almost everything for her to be here

I just feel so lost. I'm so scared that thinking about calling me causes anxiety attacks for her, and i just don't know what I can do. i feel so useless and so helpless and like i'm just not enough ever

I don’t know why I feel so alone right now. I have people. I just feel far away from even the ones I’m closest to. I feel a little bit like a ghost with a real human body but a mind that’s incorporeal

it’s a cry myself to sleep night if I’ve ever seen one

should i repost this on my main account i know its a terrible idea but i kinda want to anyway

girl who is empty

this is for sure the sick anxiety talking, but I wish I could feel okay in my daily life. it just feels like there’s always another problem with my brain

I don’t know what’s compelling me here right now, but I actually feel like things are going to be okay. I think it’s still going to suck sometimes for the next couple months. But I think it’s going to be okay.

Maybe even good.

I feel so far away from everything. I feel like nobody exists around me. It feels like I’m trapped in a locked greenhouse in the middle of a field, and all the people I know are on the far edges of the field

i’m so fricking fragile. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it

this is dangerously close to hating myself aaa

I’m doing that thing where I eat less again. I justify it in various ways but I mean of course I know it’s really a very mild form of self harm. The only reason I’m okay with that is because that’s much better than other self harm but like. God my brain just sucks sometimes

I want to put out a cry for help but if I put it here nobody will see it and if I put it anywhere else too many people will see it

I knew this would be really difficult but I just feel miserable right now and I don’t know how to fix it.

I don’t know where to put this but here - I hate having so much trauma. I hate what it puts me through so many years later, so frequently. I hate that it affects my girlfriend, and that my best attempts to stop it aren’t good enough. I hate being broken.

i wish i was real

god what I wouldn’t do for a brain with less trauma in it

today suuuuuuuuuuucks

god I am such a ball of anxiety I need to stop existing for a bit I think

it feels like I split 70% of my time between being anxious and being lonely and I don’t know how to fix that