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CeciHoshi
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Hello, world! I'm depressed as fuck, but I'll do my best for you! || 🎨🖌️ || 🎭📚 || 💬🇹🇼 Taiwanese. ENG is okay. Feel free in here!
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Because of political reasons, I may not be able to like League that deeply anymore... And Tahm Kench

I might post Tahm's fanart less often in the future, but I won't refuse requests or commissions about TK!

I still love him! I genuinely hope everyone who loves him can be happy
Although it's not cancer (I went to the hospital for this) but I'm bleeding again... It WAS getting better but now it's bleeding again!

Thank you! I've been doing nothing but lying on bed in these days! When I finally get a shower in days this morning I fucking feel like I was about to pass out!
October 8, 2026 at 12:02 AM
實際上特別喜歡伊格尼斯的時間好像只有一個月,剩下的時間都在喜歡皮埃爾

被朋友抓去看 Jojo 以後被波魯納雷夫可愛到完全忘記 🧭 是甚麼狗屎

……應該說可喜可賀嗎,太好了,不用坐牢了
September 10, 2026 at 6:53 PM
It's not cancer!!!... Yayyy!!!!!!!!!!! 💥💐🎉✨🎂

Yeah well although despite that I'm still having Major Depressive Disorder and suicidal so umm uh... 💀🥀

But at least now I know god didn't forbid me to get KFC for the rest of my shitty life!!
September 2, 2026 at 8:06 AM
Surely it's not cancer, right?... For god's sake if it's really cancer I'm going to get KFC

yeah I know doc told me that I shouldn't but fuck it annnnnnd if it's not cancer then it's good (I guess)
August 31, 2026 at 9:16 PM
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still got slots open, as well as donation links...you'd be helping me afford a vet visit for Freyja who's currently not doing very well, she's stopped eating and has a bad case of alopecia 🙏

of you have no money I'd still appreciate a share, I'm so sorry I keep just basically begging these days...
August 26, 2026 at 1:37 PM
It's alright now... Suddenly it's all alright for me now. I think I should start to make plans for things and for my own death

I don't have much desire in many things. My dream was to make people smile or saving someone with my art... And I pretty sure I fulfilled that dream already, in years ago
August 24, 2026 at 6:53 PM
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‼️🇺🇦🇲🇩 In the Odesa region, Tabaki checkpoint was damaged as a result of an enemy attack. Currently, the passage of people and vehicles is not carried out.

😡 Russia also struck Sumy with jet drones, causing a fire in a two-story residential building, injuring two people.
August 21, 2026 at 6:27 AM
果然還是不要深坑 Compass 比較好,這是最明智的決定……況且那對我想走的道路一點幫助也沒有,我對成為被綁住的沒辦法畫自己真正喜歡和符合自己信念的東西的畫圖人的這種事,一點興趣也沒有

而且我果然還是很在乎政治

我比較想做我自己真正想做跟喜歡做的事情,也多虧了這段分心的機會,這一年下來我終於想明白了

果然,人還是閃閃發光地活著好啊……在有限的痛苦的人生裡,我想要喜歡一些有更健康更友善的官方和社群的作品

只是單方面的讓人開心之類的也很可悲,自己也得樂在其中才行……如果不那麼快樂的話,那麼就應該放棄,因為肯定是在哪裡的根本上出了差錯
August 19, 2026 at 7:27 PM
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❗️Russia struck the central market of Zaporizhzhia.

🙏 In the morning, the enemy attacked the city with KABs, a private yard was destroyed - people may be under the rubble.

💔 Two people were killed and 10 injured.
August 19, 2026 at 7:40 AM
喜歡溫馨的內容,喜歡喜劇和歡樂的東西,喜歡看別人開心的樣子……因為我需要這種東西才能暫時讓自己感覺好一點,我需要一直一直都有歡樂的東西可以食用才能從憂鬱症的絕望中麻痺自己

我基本上就是 reverse 版本的 Tahm Kench 啊……
August 18, 2026 at 11:31 PM
好了沒事了晚點再死吧,為了同擔的笑容我還想活久一點(闔眼)

話說回來,聊一聊之後開始覺得我是甚麼熱血笨蛋嗎……也是啦如果不是笨蛋的話從一開始就不會有勇氣在不會講日文又沒有混圈的情況下在日本的活動會場外面搭訕自己的同擔吧

……但真的真的覺得有那麼做太好了!!看到他開心我也好開心!!!!TT
August 18, 2026 at 4:59 AM
好希望檢查出來我真的有癌症,或我自己買條繩子回來上吊好了

如果可以的話想吊在樹上,但不知道要吊在哪裡

笑死,要去附近的大公園爬山然後吊在那邊嗎
August 17, 2026 at 9:30 AM
身體真的好不舒服,真的是笑死了,會不會是癌症啊……應該不是吧……只是如果是的話感覺會很好笑

越來越虛弱然後胃口也越來越不好了
August 13, 2026 at 6:53 PM
要是沒有喜歡過伊格尼斯就好了

雖然一開始只是想拿他引開自己的注意力而已,而且就算變得在意以後也一直在煞車(因為喜歡 Compass 真的對我的人生一點幫助也不會有……)所以也不算喜歡到哪裡去

也會擔心太喜歡的話就沒辦法普通地給同擔產糧了之類的……不過,該怎麼講,可能確實就是不是很適合吧

也不像是有很多人會想看到我畫的垃圾就是了,真的超可悲的,好好笑,我自己都覺得好好笑

我也沒辦法理解正常人應該要有甚麼感受比較好,憂鬱症太嚴重了,我大部分的東西都感覺不太到
August 13, 2026 at 6:31 PM
……有去看醫生,但太累了,我要去睡了

醒來再吃藥吧
August 12, 2026 at 12:01 PM
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💔 In July, at least 634 civilians were killed in Russia’s war in Ukraine, a record for the past 2.5 years, - Conflict Intelligence Team

At least 4,590 more people were injured of varying severity.

In the first 7 months of 2026, at least 2,491 civilians were killed as a result of mutual shelling.
August 12, 2026 at 11:11 AM
總是買外帶回家吃也是很悶,今天吃飯的時候內用一下來改變心情吧?……然後,吃完飯後去公園散散步,偷偷玩一下盪鞦韆吧……如果可以玩的話

坐在長椅上畫樹好像也不錯……話說好久沒有做樹拓了

我知道這樣聽起來很奇怪,但我好想抱著樹然後哭……有 Sadida 的角色的朋友之前說我一直都在講樹,根本才是那個像 Sadida 的人……難道我真的是 Sadida 嗎
August 11, 2026 at 3:06 AM
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A 7.4 magnitude earthquake struck western Colombia on Monday, killing more than 100 people and damaging more than 1,500 residential buildings, according to Colombia’s president, Abelardo De La Espriella. nyti.ms/4qaoeIF
August 11, 2026 at 2:40 AM
我這種無知又無能的人,在戰爭中到底能為別人做甚麼……

不過就算是這樣還是要想該怎麼辦,總而言之,目前的我能做的事情應該就是不要忘記俄羅斯跟烏克蘭還在戰爭中吧,有能力幫忙的話就盡力,沒能力的話就至少表現得像個人或試著變得有能力一點

要逼自己去多關心世界上和自己國家發生的事情,不然未來自己跟盟友是怎麼死的都不知道……然後時不時跟身邊的人談談政治吧,就算自己沒有力氣,或許傳播資訊能夠讓有力氣的其他人多關心一點

雖然大部分的人可能都累得要死而沒有餘力去顧這種事情就是了……但是正是因為大家都想要好好活著,所以才不可以放棄未來啊,他媽的
August 11, 2026 at 12:45 AM
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🕯 Five people died, 20 more were injured: unfortunately, the number of victims as a result of the enemy attack on Zaporizhzhia is increasing…
August 10, 2026 at 11:19 PM
明天努力點吧,看能不能去醫院看醫生……如果可以的話,用爬的也要爬過去……我又看到血了,拜託不要再來了,如果再來的話會變成這兩個月裡的第五次誒

兩個洞都會流血,真的快起笑了,衛生紙上是血,馬桶裡也都是血

我也沒甚麼食慾,老實講我只想喝飲料或湯,但還是得硬塞點甚麼東西吃才行,不然會沒有力氣,那情況只會更糟,然後我又會倒在外面的路上或垮在浴室裡

應該是不至於死,但如果醫藥費很貴怎麼辦?付完醫藥費再看有沒有餘力捐款給熊本吧……
August 11, 2026 at 12:06 AM
就算這個身體破到快病死也再掙扎一下吧,人生就只有一次而已……

滿好笑的,想自殺的時候明明就會覺得死了才輕鬆,但身體破成這樣卻還是有答應要做卻沒做完的事情的時候才會覺得就這麼死了的話好傷感

真的要死的話我想看到更多人開心的樣子再死

真的被貪啃奇的同擔的大家弄壞了,超好笑……如果我沒有喜歡上貪啃奇的話,如果我當初沒有鼓起勇氣進入英語社群的話,今天的我大概就是完全不一樣的人了吧

但是能夠遇見他們真的是我這輩子最開心的事情
August 10, 2026 at 10:31 AM
看到身邊的人難過就忍不住想做點甚麼,就算自己已經快垮掉,這到底是甚麼世紀大爛毛病

理性上來說我完全理解應該是沒有一個正常人會喜歡別人過度的一廂情願的犧牲而造就出來的禮物,我對這點深有體悟……如果對方完全就是很縱容你這麼做的話那那個人實際上挺爛的;況且實際上犧牲自己那自己最後也不會幸福啊,你又不是甚麼很賤的人

但我也曾經有過因為自己也很累所以想多休息一下而永遠錯過在朋友離世以前拉對方一把的機會……所以這個問題對我來說一直滿複雜的

不過無論如何,我現在這個半死不活的樣子是做不了任何事情的……多休息一下然後再盡量幹點人幹的事吧
August 7, 2026 at 10:39 PM
皮埃爾的粉絲但因為身體虛弱跟疲勞好幾天沒好好吃飯而餓到肚子瘦了一圈之類的……努力把自己挖起來去買晚餐但吃了一小份烤肉飯後肚子就整個脹到鼓起來然後很想吐……醒來以後也在烙賽跟噁心之類的……

是不是皮埃爾推之恥啊……

現在好想要皮埃爾安慰我……如果他可以把一億美金放進我的戶頭裡就好了……希望他能順便給我一套北部市區的房子……
August 7, 2026 at 10:28 PM
好吧,我醒悟了!!如果人生非得是這種狗樣,如果我跟我的同擔共有這種覺得角色不會愛自己的痛苦並且會在這狗屎一樣的作品的粉絲圈裡餓死的話,我就讓他們吃點好的吧!!?

然後未來大家一起多吃一點更好的東西,一起變成更好的人然後打造更好的世界跟社群吧!!
August 7, 2026 at 1:43 AM