Loving father
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👧 A journal for my little girl to see how things played out when she was young. My difficult journey being a dad. https://diaryformybeloved.wordpress.com
It breaks my heart that we never get to say goodbye normally. But the true ray of sunshine was you making your feelings known and saying you wanted a proper goodbye.
Finding sunshine on a rainy weekend together
I'm looking forward to cosy days at home, but being out and about is fun too.
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September 20, 2026 at 6:17 PM
It breaks my heart that we never get to say goodbye normally. But the true ray of sunshine was you making your feelings known and saying you wanted a proper goodbye.
It's hard for us to truly connect through a phone screen. I'm doing everything possible to make our weekly catch ups feel special.
Our video call with Angus
Our video calls help us keep a little bit of connection. I'm trying to make them more theatrical for you.
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September 15, 2026 at 5:26 PM
It's hard for us to truly connect through a phone screen. I'm doing everything possible to make our weekly catch ups feel special.
Love to all parents
September 13, 2026 at 12:21 PM
Love to all parents
Swaying with you in my arms to the music until you completely relaxed was a beautiful, comforting moment that made me dream of dancing together as you grow.
Our first every other weekend
An idyllic and calm weekend, but with a frustrating ending.
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September 6, 2026 at 5:53 PM
Swaying with you in my arms to the music until you completely relaxed was a beautiful, comforting moment that made me dream of dancing together as you grow.
It will be 3 weeks until I can give you a cuddle again. I wanted to make the absolute most of our special weekend together before your upcoming birthday.
Your birthday weekend plus family news
It was the weekend before your birthday and I had planned time with loved ones. Plus, some family news.
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August 16, 2026 at 6:33 PM
It will be 3 weeks until I can give you a cuddle again. I wanted to make the absolute most of our special weekend together before your upcoming birthday.
Sitting in the sunshine together, eating ice cream, was pure heaven. I looked at your happy face and thought about how absolutely nothing could beat this feeling.
Heatwave on our last River Town only day
We had a dream sunny day together, but what happened during our last seconds together was really stressful.
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August 9, 2026 at 5:57 PM
Sitting in the sunshine together, eating ice cream, was pure heaven. I looked at your happy face and thought about how absolutely nothing could beat this feeling.
I look forward to the day our time isn't cut short. I want us to stay outside playing in the sun and just do whatever makes us happy together.
Our last Big City only day
So much has happened in the last few years, with some routines continuing and some ending.
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August 2, 2026 at 6:14 PM
I look forward to the day our time isn't cut short. I want us to stay outside playing in the sun and just do whatever makes us happy together.
Leaving you after such a delightful weekend breaks my heart and returning to an empty home knowing I will not hold you for weeks is pure torture.
Our summer drinks, a concert and beach!
It was an incredibly fun weekend. I'll remember this one for a long time. I hope you do too!
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July 19, 2026 at 5:57 PM
Leaving you after such a delightful weekend breaks my heart and returning to an empty home knowing I will not hold you for weeks is pure torture.
I feel completely stuck in an impossible position right now. When you're unwell, I know my affection will help.
Finals Sunday cancelled wishing I could give you a cuggle
So much excitement in the air but I couldn't share it with you.
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July 12, 2026 at 7:41 PM
I feel completely stuck in an impossible position right now. When you're unwell, I know my affection will help.
I love watching you turn our kitchen utensils into toys. I always remind you that this is your home. You belong here and you can play however you want.
A lovely quiet day at our home and neighbourhood
We needed to shelter at home from the rain today, but it was lovely and relaxing to be together.
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July 5, 2026 at 4:51 PM
I love watching you turn our kitchen utensils into toys. I always remind you that this is your home. You belong here and you can play however you want.
Watching you run around without a care in the world brings me pure joy. Seeing you grow braver and more confident every single day makes me the absolute proudest father.
Our fun packed weekend with family and friends
We saw family, we cooled down at the fountains, we played with friends. This is everything a weekend should be.
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June 28, 2026 at 5:31 PM
Watching you run around without a care in the world brings me pure joy. Seeing you grow braver and more confident every single day makes me the absolute proudest father.
Seeing happy families together makes my heart ache for the simple routine we deserve but I am patiently putting in the work to build that beautiful life for us.
Father’s Day cut short
Making the most of our time together even during summer showers.
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June 14, 2026 at 3:42 PM
Seeing happy families together makes my heart ache for the simple routine we deserve but I am patiently putting in the work to build that beautiful life for us.
Sharing lunch with you at a food market I have loved for years felt like a beautiful new chapter in our story as a father and daughter.
Finding our rhythm on a rainy visit into town
Trying to make the most of the current arrangements. How this year ties back to last year is an odd feeling.
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June 7, 2026 at 4:48 PM
Sharing lunch with you at a food market I have loved for years felt like a beautiful new chapter in our story as a father and daughter.
Hearing you call for your daddy in the morning makes my heart warm and it makes me want to seize every second of the day we have together.
Life is great when we’re together
Our connection is growing stronger and stronger. Days like these give me hope for our future.
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May 24, 2026 at 6:11 PM
Hearing you call for your daddy in the morning makes my heart warm and it makes me want to seize every second of the day we have together.
As soon as I saw your beautiful face I made big waving gestures. My heart melted when you smiled back and told me so sweetly that I am your friend.
Warmth in temperature and in our love
It was a beautiful, warm day, together with good moods and quality time. I dream of a million more like this.
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May 17, 2026 at 6:12 PM
As soon as I saw your beautiful face I made big waving gestures. My heart melted when you smiled back and told me so sweetly that I am your friend.
The sun is shining and the park is calling but I am left staring at a silent phone.
It’s really hard writing these posts
Another difficult weekend with our time cancelled and your mum's hostility at me asking how you are.
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May 12, 2026 at 7:31 PM
The sun is shining and the park is calling but I am left staring at a silent phone.
I count down every second until our video call only to have our precious connection cut short by hands that want to keep us apart and silent.
Not even a proper video call together
It's hard to be optimistic when you're abroad and I can't even get a few minutes to tell you I love you.
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May 5, 2026 at 6:33 PM
I count down every second until our video call only to have our precious connection cut short by hands that want to keep us apart and silent.
I breathed in the scent of your head when you woke up and felt so accomplished because another night of restful sleep meant we were ready for a fun day.
More treasured time together at home overnight
Sharing our Sunnyland lunch felt like a beautiful glimpse into a normal life where we can just be a family.
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April 26, 2026 at 5:33 PM
I breathed in the scent of your head when you woke up and felt so accomplished because another night of restful sleep meant we were ready for a fun day.
I counted down the minutes until our extra time together but watching those hours get cut away feels like your childhood is slipping right through my fingers.
Another chilly day in River Town
This was meant to be a longer day for us, but your mum cut it back. Still, we had some lovely moments together.
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April 19, 2026 at 6:11 PM
I counted down the minutes until our extra time together but watching those hours get cut away feels like your childhood is slipping right through my fingers.
I watched you playing and remembered feeling so lost 2 years ago but seeing the confident and beautiful girl you're becoming fills me with such incredible pride.
Spring in our step on Sunday
The sun has been shining and we had more time to enjoy it together today.
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April 12, 2026 at 6:34 PM
I watched you playing and remembered feeling so lost 2 years ago but seeing the confident and beautiful girl you're becoming fills me with such incredible pride.
My heart breaks every time I have to watch you walk away. Seeing our lives torn in half is the hardest part of being the parent who has to say goodbye.
Finding our groove on your second overnight stay and celebrating Easter
It was a hoppy weekend with family, and more lovely memories are being created.
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March 29, 2026 at 6:05 PM
My heart breaks every time I have to watch you walk away. Seeing our lives torn in half is the hardest part of being the parent who has to say goodbye.
You captured our first daddy daughter photo together today and I know it is a memory that I am going to treasure for the rest of my life.
You’re my favourite lunch date
The horrid winter days are almost past, but your mum’s persistent hostilities won’t rest.
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March 22, 2026 at 6:32 PM
You captured our first daddy daughter photo together today and I know it is a memory that I am going to treasure for the rest of my life.
I’m documenting every chapter so she never has to wonder how much she is loved. Life is just a series of Sunday afternoons and small adventures, and I’m just lucky enough to be her sidekick in the story.
March 19, 2026 at 10:03 PM
I’m documenting every chapter so she never has to wonder how much she is loved. Life is just a series of Sunday afternoons and small adventures, and I’m just lucky enough to be her sidekick in the story.
I'm trapped in a nightmare where I cannot win no matter what I do. If I push I am harassing her but if I don't do anything I might look like I'm not interested.
Kept away, more cancellations
I had everything planned and ready, but you are the main thing missing today.
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March 15, 2026 at 1:03 PM
I'm trapped in a nightmare where I cannot win no matter what I do. If I push I am harassing her but if I don't do anything I might look like I'm not interested.
An unforgettable weekend, our first overnight
Our first proper weekend together was a perfect success. It has brought me new energy and hope for our future.
Our first proper weekend together was a perfect success. It has brought me new energy and hope for our future.
March 2, 2026 at 9:41 PM
An unforgettable weekend, our first overnight
Our first proper weekend together was a perfect success. It has brought me new energy and hope for our future.
Our first proper weekend together was a perfect success. It has brought me new energy and hope for our future.