Dodger Kirkland
@dodgernco.bsky.social
Disabled queer theatre professional/teacher/comedian/partner/student. Service dog handler. Into social equity, mountains, and sustainable farming practices. He/they. 🏳️⚧️🌄🎭🏕️
Several months ago I unwittingly blew up my support system. I am struggling very much to figure out a new one. God damn could I use some friends that check on me the way I check on them… This doesn’t have a good ending, I’m just screaming into the void. Maybe that’s helpful? idk. anyway that’s all
September 12, 2026 at 3:21 PM
Several months ago I unwittingly blew up my support system. I am struggling very much to figure out a new one. God damn could I use some friends that check on me the way I check on them… This doesn’t have a good ending, I’m just screaming into the void. Maybe that’s helpful? idk. anyway that’s all
Grief is a strange beast. Divorce grief is a tricky one. I’m reading a book right now that my spouse would really love, and I want so badly to tell them about it. I miss when we were friends the most.
July 26, 2026 at 1:19 AM
Grief is a strange beast. Divorce grief is a tricky one. I’m reading a book right now that my spouse would really love, and I want so badly to tell them about it. I miss when we were friends the most.
Happy Gotcha Day to the boy who gave me my life back. Gonzo has been a blessing in my life in so many ways, and I’m grateful that I bit the bullet three years ago and brought him home.
July 21, 2026 at 8:09 PM
Happy Gotcha Day to the boy who gave me my life back. Gonzo has been a blessing in my life in so many ways, and I’m grateful that I bit the bullet three years ago and brought him home.
“I can’t live in my body all the time.
It feels too much.
So if I ever feel far away, know that I’m not gone.
I’m just underneath my grief,
Adjusting the dial on my radio face so I can take this life,
With all of its love and all of its loss.”
I think about this line by Andrea Gibson daily.
It feels too much.
So if I ever feel far away, know that I’m not gone.
I’m just underneath my grief,
Adjusting the dial on my radio face so I can take this life,
With all of its love and all of its loss.”
I think about this line by Andrea Gibson daily.
July 21, 2026 at 5:00 PM
“I can’t live in my body all the time.
It feels too much.
So if I ever feel far away, know that I’m not gone.
I’m just underneath my grief,
Adjusting the dial on my radio face so I can take this life,
With all of its love and all of its loss.”
I think about this line by Andrea Gibson daily.
It feels too much.
So if I ever feel far away, know that I’m not gone.
I’m just underneath my grief,
Adjusting the dial on my radio face so I can take this life,
With all of its love and all of its loss.”
I think about this line by Andrea Gibson daily.
My mom turned 29 in 2004. And again in 2005… and again and again until 2023, when she celebrated her “29th” birthday for the last time. She died the next spring.
On Saturday, I turned 29. Not sure how to feel about that yet, but I sure do feel some kind of way. Missing my mama today.
On Saturday, I turned 29. Not sure how to feel about that yet, but I sure do feel some kind of way. Missing my mama today.
July 21, 2026 at 1:36 AM
My mom turned 29 in 2004. And again in 2005… and again and again until 2023, when she celebrated her “29th” birthday for the last time. She died the next spring.
On Saturday, I turned 29. Not sure how to feel about that yet, but I sure do feel some kind of way. Missing my mama today.
On Saturday, I turned 29. Not sure how to feel about that yet, but I sure do feel some kind of way. Missing my mama today.
Turned 29 yesterday and celebrated with a bunch of people who love me. Life is so much different now than it was a year ago, and sometimes that loss of familiar makes me sad, but mostly I’m just grateful. Grateful to be here. Grateful to be loved. Grateful to be celebrated.
July 19, 2026 at 3:44 PM
Turned 29 yesterday and celebrated with a bunch of people who love me. Life is so much different now than it was a year ago, and sometimes that loss of familiar makes me sad, but mostly I’m just grateful. Grateful to be here. Grateful to be loved. Grateful to be celebrated.
Every day, I wake up without my wedding band. It feels like freedom. But it also feels like there’s something missing. I don’t miss my marriage, but I do miss being someone’s husband. I miss having a reason to wear a band. But I also breathe a sigh of relief every time I notice it’s gone.
July 13, 2026 at 4:34 PM
Every day, I wake up without my wedding band. It feels like freedom. But it also feels like there’s something missing. I don’t miss my marriage, but I do miss being someone’s husband. I miss having a reason to wear a band. But I also breathe a sigh of relief every time I notice it’s gone.
Recently rewatched Ted Lasso and cannot stop thinking about the way that Jamie says “Poopy”
July 6, 2026 at 4:53 PM
Recently rewatched Ted Lasso and cannot stop thinking about the way that Jamie says “Poopy”
Oh by the way, I finished my first semester back in school, and I absolutely kicked its ass.
May 17, 2026 at 2:14 AM
Oh by the way, I finished my first semester back in school, and I absolutely kicked its ass.
“Too many eyeballs, not enough pussy.”- @birdhoneycutt.bsky.social
March 16, 2026 at 7:40 PM
“Too many eyeballs, not enough pussy.”- @birdhoneycutt.bsky.social
Reposted by Dodger Kirkland
Last night I went to an excellent party where I was surrounded by my queer community. This morning, looking through the photos we all sent to the group chat, it felt like I was looking at an in memoriam or a documentary of when we were all free. So that’s where my head is. This is a dark timeline.
March 15, 2026 at 1:22 PM
Last night I went to an excellent party where I was surrounded by my queer community. This morning, looking through the photos we all sent to the group chat, it felt like I was looking at an in memoriam or a documentary of when we were all free. So that’s where my head is. This is a dark timeline.
There’s something so bizarre about experiencing the end of a relationship that has taken all you can give (and then some) for so long, while also having the world-shattering experience of finding your soul mate and falling in love at the same time that you’re falling out of it.
March 7, 2026 at 10:05 PM
There’s something so bizarre about experiencing the end of a relationship that has taken all you can give (and then some) for so long, while also having the world-shattering experience of finding your soul mate and falling in love at the same time that you’re falling out of it.
cw// suicide mention
Ten years ago tonight, I had a plan to end my life. As a last hoorah, I went out with a friend to a bar. I was in a great mood. I knew nothing mattered anymore. I was relieved.
I didn’t do it. I changed my mind, in part due to the fun I had that night.
I am so grateful.
Ten years ago tonight, I had a plan to end my life. As a last hoorah, I went out with a friend to a bar. I was in a great mood. I knew nothing mattered anymore. I was relieved.
I didn’t do it. I changed my mind, in part due to the fun I had that night.
I am so grateful.
February 19, 2026 at 8:16 PM
cw// suicide mention
Ten years ago tonight, I had a plan to end my life. As a last hoorah, I went out with a friend to a bar. I was in a great mood. I knew nothing mattered anymore. I was relieved.
I didn’t do it. I changed my mind, in part due to the fun I had that night.
I am so grateful.
Ten years ago tonight, I had a plan to end my life. As a last hoorah, I went out with a friend to a bar. I was in a great mood. I knew nothing mattered anymore. I was relieved.
I didn’t do it. I changed my mind, in part due to the fun I had that night.
I am so grateful.
Loving them is the easiest thing I’ve ever done. Grateful to spend our first Valentine’s Day together, and looking forward to many, many more of them. @birdhoneycutt.bsky.social is the love of my life. And what a life we are living.
February 16, 2026 at 3:27 AM
Loving them is the easiest thing I’ve ever done. Grateful to spend our first Valentine’s Day together, and looking forward to many, many more of them. @birdhoneycutt.bsky.social is the love of my life. And what a life we are living.
Reposted by Dodger Kirkland
Finally, a book that gaslights me less than my doctor.
February 12, 2026 at 5:15 PM
Finally, a book that gaslights me less than my doctor.
Being intentional with my time lately, or trying to anyway.
Today I woke up in a bad panic attack. I was doing pretty bad all day.
This afternoon, I am going shopping for valentine’s day as a special treat.
I hope you’re making a little space in the chaos for yourself today.
Today I woke up in a bad panic attack. I was doing pretty bad all day.
This afternoon, I am going shopping for valentine’s day as a special treat.
I hope you’re making a little space in the chaos for yourself today.
February 6, 2026 at 9:32 PM
Being intentional with my time lately, or trying to anyway.
Today I woke up in a bad panic attack. I was doing pretty bad all day.
This afternoon, I am going shopping for valentine’s day as a special treat.
I hope you’re making a little space in the chaos for yourself today.
Today I woke up in a bad panic attack. I was doing pretty bad all day.
This afternoon, I am going shopping for valentine’s day as a special treat.
I hope you’re making a little space in the chaos for yourself today.
There’s a certain cognitive dissonance that comes from being secure and happy in your life and your choices while also finding that the life and choices you’d made for yourself previously were precarious at best.
February 2, 2026 at 4:51 PM
There’s a certain cognitive dissonance that comes from being secure and happy in your life and your choices while also finding that the life and choices you’d made for yourself previously were precarious at best.
A decade ago, after a pretty traumatic freshman year, I dropped out of college. Yesterday, I finished my first week of my sophomore year. I am so grateful, I am so proud, and I am so in love with my life. I’m supported. I’m happy. I’m gonna do this.
January 31, 2026 at 9:53 PM
A decade ago, after a pretty traumatic freshman year, I dropped out of college. Yesterday, I finished my first week of my sophomore year. I am so grateful, I am so proud, and I am so in love with my life. I’m supported. I’m happy. I’m gonna do this.
Reposted by Dodger Kirkland
Healing sure is a bitch. Recognizing your triggers and self-regulating so that you don’t fall back on old behaviors is exhausting, and it’s outward. Like yeah, you HAVE to do it, right? But sometimes I would maybe like a little crash-out as a treat.
January 16, 2026 at 5:55 PM
Healing sure is a bitch. Recognizing your triggers and self-regulating so that you don’t fall back on old behaviors is exhausting, and it’s outward. Like yeah, you HAVE to do it, right? But sometimes I would maybe like a little crash-out as a treat.
You know how shrimp can see colors we can’t, and as hard as you try, you can’t begin to dream of what those colors might look like?
Yeah. This love I am in is like that. I couldn’t even begin to dream of it.
Yeah. This love I am in is like that. I couldn’t even begin to dream of it.
January 10, 2026 at 5:45 PM
You know how shrimp can see colors we can’t, and as hard as you try, you can’t begin to dream of what those colors might look like?
Yeah. This love I am in is like that. I couldn’t even begin to dream of it.
Yeah. This love I am in is like that. I couldn’t even begin to dream of it.
The back end of 2025 was absolutely unhinged, and I’m going into 2026 a whole new guy. God I love being alive- Life changes so fast sometimes, and while often that change is hard, sometimes it is better than you ever could have imagined.
Anyway I’m in love and I’m happy and I hope you are, too.
Anyway I’m in love and I’m happy and I hope you are, too.
January 8, 2026 at 12:01 AM
The back end of 2025 was absolutely unhinged, and I’m going into 2026 a whole new guy. God I love being alive- Life changes so fast sometimes, and while often that change is hard, sometimes it is better than you ever could have imagined.
Anyway I’m in love and I’m happy and I hope you are, too.
Anyway I’m in love and I’m happy and I hope you are, too.
If you’re gonna get married, you should marry someone that, when you get a couple drinks in you, you can’t stop proposing to.
November 20, 2025 at 3:49 AM
If you’re gonna get married, you should marry someone that, when you get a couple drinks in you, you can’t stop proposing to.
Finding gratitude in the mundane:
What an honor to clean my home, listening to a playlist made by someone who loves me, and to fuss at my dogs for tracking through the dirt, and to fuss at the cat for bothering the cut flowers in the kitchen. What a blessing. Grateful.
What an honor to clean my home, listening to a playlist made by someone who loves me, and to fuss at my dogs for tracking through the dirt, and to fuss at the cat for bothering the cut flowers in the kitchen. What a blessing. Grateful.
November 17, 2025 at 5:20 PM
Finding gratitude in the mundane:
What an honor to clean my home, listening to a playlist made by someone who loves me, and to fuss at my dogs for tracking through the dirt, and to fuss at the cat for bothering the cut flowers in the kitchen. What a blessing. Grateful.
What an honor to clean my home, listening to a playlist made by someone who loves me, and to fuss at my dogs for tracking through the dirt, and to fuss at the cat for bothering the cut flowers in the kitchen. What a blessing. Grateful.