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Made this account to vent and be unfiltered. Would prefer you only follow me if you know me and want your feed filled with me being crass, gross, or upset
Started watching chainsaw man today. It's wild how overtly sexual the show is, but I kinda love it. It feels refreshingly honest and real. Like, teens DO think about sex, especially teen boys. If your main character is a lonely teen boy who never had any chance at love, he's gonna wanna touch a boob
October 9, 2026 at 7:06 AM
Started watching chainsaw man today. It's wild how overtly sexual the show is, but I kinda love it. It feels refreshingly honest and real. Like, teens DO think about sex, especially teen boys. If your main character is a lonely teen boy who never had any chance at love, he's gonna wanna touch a boob
Haven't slept. Have stared at the ceiling and cried multiple times. My eyes feel so dry. I wish I could just fall asleep already
October 8, 2026 at 12:06 PM
Haven't slept. Have stared at the ceiling and cried multiple times. My eyes feel so dry. I wish I could just fall asleep already
I wish that I had a female role model while growing up who was supportive and could help me figure all this shit out. Unfortunately my mom and grandma have been shitty and emotionally abusive and I never really wanna talk to them. I was supposed to have an older sister but she died before I was born
October 8, 2026 at 10:02 AM
I wish that I had a female role model while growing up who was supportive and could help me figure all this shit out. Unfortunately my mom and grandma have been shitty and emotionally abusive and I never really wanna talk to them. I was supposed to have an older sister but she died before I was born
Weird and fucked up that my brain misses somebody who doesn't even exist. There's just this sense of yearning connected to literally nobody. An empty space with a tangible mass. Something to hold and to be held by, but has no qualities beyond that. A caring and comfortable void
October 8, 2026 at 6:11 AM
Weird and fucked up that my brain misses somebody who doesn't even exist. There's just this sense of yearning connected to literally nobody. An empty space with a tangible mass. Something to hold and to be held by, but has no qualities beyond that. A caring and comfortable void
I want bottom surgery. The more I think about it, the more it feels like the right decision. I would be so much happier
October 4, 2026 at 8:14 AM
I want bottom surgery. The more I think about it, the more it feels like the right decision. I would be so much happier
I didn't know Culver's did buy one get one free on their pints of custard... This is dangerous knowledge
October 4, 2026 at 2:56 AM
I didn't know Culver's did buy one get one free on their pints of custard... This is dangerous knowledge
I wanna get pegged again...
October 3, 2026 at 8:31 AM
I wanna get pegged again...
I think that hitting the gym again is feeding my masochistic side a little bit. My pecs and shoulders are super sore from lifting yesterday, but I really like how it feels. It feels like a deep bruise
October 2, 2026 at 5:18 AM
I think that hitting the gym again is feeding my masochistic side a little bit. My pecs and shoulders are super sore from lifting yesterday, but I really like how it feels. It feels like a deep bruise
The gym always feels like a scam right up until the moment I'm working out. Like, what do you mean moving my body is fun and good for me? What do you mean I am tangibly improving every time I go? What do you mean I can deadlift 170 pounds without training? 170. That's the weight of an average woman
October 1, 2026 at 8:00 AM
The gym always feels like a scam right up until the moment I'm working out. Like, what do you mean moving my body is fun and good for me? What do you mean I am tangibly improving every time I go? What do you mean I can deadlift 170 pounds without training? 170. That's the weight of an average woman
Do they do temporary lobotomies? I think I'd like to stop feeling things for a little bit
September 30, 2026 at 6:27 AM
Do they do temporary lobotomies? I think I'd like to stop feeling things for a little bit
Does anyone know how to fix a self that is fundamentally broken?
September 30, 2026 at 6:20 AM
Does anyone know how to fix a self that is fundamentally broken?
God.. It really would just fix everything if there were a second me. I could take care of her and she could take care of me. We could help keep each other accountable and on task with responsibilities. Neither of us would have to feel as alone. It'd solve so much
September 30, 2026 at 5:38 AM
God.. It really would just fix everything if there were a second me. I could take care of her and she could take care of me. We could help keep each other accountable and on task with responsibilities. Neither of us would have to feel as alone. It'd solve so much
Ugh... I hate that I'm 5'11" and 250+ pounds, cause I want nothing more than someone bigger than me to top me. Turning me over into different positions and lifting me up like I'm nothing. What a dream come true
September 29, 2026 at 1:13 AM
Ugh... I hate that I'm 5'11" and 250+ pounds, cause I want nothing more than someone bigger than me to top me. Turning me over into different positions and lifting me up like I'm nothing. What a dream come true
Been researching beetle anatomy while redesigning one of my OCs and it's been really fun. I am always so fascinated by how insects are put together, especially mandibles. The structures are so complex and interesting. It makes me wish that I had 3d models of them to move around and take apart
September 25, 2026 at 7:24 AM
Been researching beetle anatomy while redesigning one of my OCs and it's been really fun. I am always so fascinated by how insects are put together, especially mandibles. The structures are so complex and interesting. It makes me wish that I had 3d models of them to move around and take apart
I think it's healthy not only to see, but also to seek out and interact with kinks you aren't into. It helps you reaffirm what you're into while gaining understanding of others so you can be less judgemental, and you also might find you actually like something you'd never thought of before
September 24, 2026 at 7:54 AM
I think it's healthy not only to see, but also to seek out and interact with kinks you aren't into. It helps you reaffirm what you're into while gaining understanding of others so you can be less judgemental, and you also might find you actually like something you'd never thought of before
I really wish my HRT would have effects other than giving me fat thighs and puffy tits. I'd love for my hairline to grow back even a little bit or for my body hair to thin out. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for the thighs and tits, I just want a little variety from month to month
September 24, 2026 at 7:36 AM
I really wish my HRT would have effects other than giving me fat thighs and puffy tits. I'd love for my hairline to grow back even a little bit or for my body hair to thin out. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for the thighs and tits, I just want a little variety from month to month
I'm like two levels of mania away from posting hole
September 23, 2026 at 3:30 PM
I'm like two levels of mania away from posting hole
Idk. I was feelin some kinda way
September 23, 2026 at 7:52 AM
Idk. I was feelin some kinda way
Bisexuality is so fun and weird. I definitely have a general preference towards women and more femme presenting people, but every once in a while the pendulum swings the other direction super hard and I just find myself thinking about big, fat, burly, hairy man-titties constantly 🥴🥴🥴
September 23, 2026 at 1:20 AM
Bisexuality is so fun and weird. I definitely have a general preference towards women and more femme presenting people, but every once in a while the pendulum swings the other direction super hard and I just find myself thinking about big, fat, burly, hairy man-titties constantly 🥴🥴🥴
Every year my work makes me do cyber security training, and every year I am using a computer to complete my job the same amount as I was the previous year. Zero percent. It's purely a waste of time to do this training
September 23, 2026 at 12:22 AM
Every year my work makes me do cyber security training, and every year I am using a computer to complete my job the same amount as I was the previous year. Zero percent. It's purely a waste of time to do this training
I find non-con/"forced" sexual fantasies/kinks to be incredibly fascinating, cause below the surface they're just real desires. Force-fem as a kink among trans women is often wish fulfillment. Someone else supporting your journey to womanhood so intently that they handle every aspect of it for you
September 22, 2026 at 6:05 PM
I find non-con/"forced" sexual fantasies/kinks to be incredibly fascinating, cause below the surface they're just real desires. Force-fem as a kink among trans women is often wish fulfillment. Someone else supporting your journey to womanhood so intently that they handle every aspect of it for you
I need to remember to ask friends to take pictures of me when I dress up all nice. I am bad at selfies and I so rarely wear cute outfits that I really need them recorded for posterity. I low-key looked kinda awesome today and I only have a handful of crappy car selfies
September 21, 2026 at 7:32 AM
I need to remember to ask friends to take pictures of me when I dress up all nice. I am bad at selfies and I so rarely wear cute outfits that I really need them recorded for posterity. I low-key looked kinda awesome today and I only have a handful of crappy car selfies
Really weird thing I've come to realize about myself, I almost universally enjoy anal sex acts the most. I think it's in part cause I'm bi and everyone has an ass, but I think there's also something about the trust. It requires following your partner's pace and that's something I really enjoy
September 20, 2026 at 7:17 AM
Really weird thing I've come to realize about myself, I almost universally enjoy anal sex acts the most. I think it's in part cause I'm bi and everyone has an ass, but I think there's also something about the trust. It requires following your partner's pace and that's something I really enjoy
We got one (1) extra crew member starting tonight and it's already made work that much more bearable
September 18, 2026 at 4:40 AM
We got one (1) extra crew member starting tonight and it's already made work that much more bearable
Yeag...
Being touch starved is so embarrassing. "Like hi, yeah, sorry for being sad lately. I haven't hugged another person in a few weeks so my body feels like it's being dragged into a black hole"
September 17, 2026 at 7:06 PM
Yeag...