⋆.Amaltheae๋ ࣭ ⭑𓆝
@edessialt.bsky.social
𓆈⋆.he/they/it - 23 - part of system 𓍢ִ໋ 𓆝
edbsky, I will block minors and hide ageless accs.
I'm aware of my disorder and do want to heal but I'm currently too deep in the relapse to not breakdown at the idea. In sh recovery tho.
I am NOT pro disorder.
edbsky, I will block minors and hide ageless accs.
I'm aware of my disorder and do want to heal but I'm currently too deep in the relapse to not breakdown at the idea. In sh recovery tho.
I am NOT pro disorder.
Pinned
Hi, we're a system but this is mainly my account.
I'm Theae, transmasc, dealing with c-ptsd, dissociation and all that ensues from it. Here until I move out.
Different forms of €d depending on alter, mine is restrictive ana. I talk numbers lots, don't hesitate to block me if needed.
stats below:
I'm Theae, transmasc, dealing with c-ptsd, dissociation and all that ensues from it. Here until I move out.
Different forms of €d depending on alter, mine is restrictive ana. I talk numbers lots, don't hesitate to block me if needed.
stats below:
I never want to eat again, I never want to have to go out ever again
I'll just stay inside and sleep the time away until I'm forced to do stuff on monday
I'll just stay inside and sleep the time away until I'm forced to do stuff on monday
October 15, 2026 at 3:45 PM
I never want to eat again, I never want to have to go out ever again
I'll just stay inside and sleep the time away until I'm forced to do stuff on monday
I'll just stay inside and sleep the time away until I'm forced to do stuff on monday
binged...over 1200ca which is admittedly still under what I should be eating according to health recommandations I know that
but in comparison to what my body got used to, this is a lot, I am seriously unwell
but in comparison to what my body got used to, this is a lot, I am seriously unwell
October 15, 2026 at 3:38 PM
binged...over 1200ca which is admittedly still under what I should be eating according to health recommandations I know that
but in comparison to what my body got used to, this is a lot, I am seriously unwell
but in comparison to what my body got used to, this is a lot, I am seriously unwell
Mom noticed the weight loss...mortified (I don't live here anymore)
October 15, 2026 at 12:27 PM
Mom noticed the weight loss...mortified (I don't live here anymore)
just under 500 for today
I felt like shit after eating 300 at once for lunch...need to go back to doing 100-200 at a time, my body is not appreciating more
only a hard boiled egg and some coffee tonight, I gained back because of yesterday and ik it's not gonna stay but I hate it, too dysphoric today
I felt like shit after eating 300 at once for lunch...need to go back to doing 100-200 at a time, my body is not appreciating more
only a hard boiled egg and some coffee tonight, I gained back because of yesterday and ik it's not gonna stay but I hate it, too dysphoric today
October 14, 2026 at 4:30 PM
just under 500 for today
I felt like shit after eating 300 at once for lunch...need to go back to doing 100-200 at a time, my body is not appreciating more
only a hard boiled egg and some coffee tonight, I gained back because of yesterday and ik it's not gonna stay but I hate it, too dysphoric today
I felt like shit after eating 300 at once for lunch...need to go back to doing 100-200 at a time, my body is not appreciating more
only a hard boiled egg and some coffee tonight, I gained back because of yesterday and ik it's not gonna stay but I hate it, too dysphoric today
Not my ex posting sh again on a normie account
In France we're having live proof of police brutality atm, towards minors, and this guy is a police fanatic so I'm sure he's living it well /s
No but fr he told me to go back to hurting myself because I lashed out after being cheated on then does this
In France we're having live proof of police brutality atm, towards minors, and this guy is a police fanatic so I'm sure he's living it well /s
No but fr he told me to go back to hurting myself because I lashed out after being cheated on then does this
October 14, 2026 at 9:54 AM
Not my ex posting sh again on a normie account
In France we're having live proof of police brutality atm, towards minors, and this guy is a police fanatic so I'm sure he's living it well /s
No but fr he told me to go back to hurting myself because I lashed out after being cheated on then does this
In France we're having live proof of police brutality atm, towards minors, and this guy is a police fanatic so I'm sure he's living it well /s
No but fr he told me to go back to hurting myself because I lashed out after being cheated on then does this
My ideal body is the description of Wendy in the The girl in my backyard creepy pasta trilogy
But atm I look like a depressed 20 something man, because I am, apparently, despite how I perceive myself in my head
But atm I look like a depressed 20 something man, because I am, apparently, despite how I perceive myself in my head
October 14, 2026 at 9:21 AM
My ideal body is the description of Wendy in the The girl in my backyard creepy pasta trilogy
But atm I look like a depressed 20 something man, because I am, apparently, despite how I perceive myself in my head
But atm I look like a depressed 20 something man, because I am, apparently, despite how I perceive myself in my head
If we ever try to go down pass the current ugw know it's my fault, I'm the part who wants to look like a bony eldritch horror
October 14, 2026 at 9:15 AM
If we ever try to go down pass the current ugw know it's my fault, I'm the part who wants to look like a bony eldritch horror
full meltdown from everything happening, involuntary regression and all with it
I just want out, I just want to be done with this place and close to my partner and friends
I just want out, I just want to be done with this place and close to my partner and friends
October 13, 2026 at 8:39 PM
full meltdown from everything happening, involuntary regression and all with it
I just want out, I just want to be done with this place and close to my partner and friends
I just want out, I just want to be done with this place and close to my partner and friends
I felt happy about seeing my hipbones and thigh tendons well when showering, but when I'm standing up they do not show at all and I feel fat af...I hate how much I have around my upper thigh and mons, even when I'm getting thinner in other areas
October 13, 2026 at 4:19 PM
I felt happy about seeing my hipbones and thigh tendons well when showering, but when I'm standing up they do not show at all and I feel fat af...I hate how much I have around my upper thigh and mons, even when I'm getting thinner in other areas
not doing good at all, stress ate, now over 1000ca
The urge to barricade myself in my room and never come out is strong
The urge to barricade myself in my room and never come out is strong
October 13, 2026 at 4:13 PM
not doing good at all, stress ate, now over 1000ca
The urge to barricade myself in my room and never come out is strong
The urge to barricade myself in my room and never come out is strong
I feel gross
The fact I know I'm targeted makes me feel so unsafe, I didn't process it immediately
Between my dad showing up anytime I go somewhere he knows about and likes, and now my ex or someone linked to him intent on breaking my car
I don't want to go out ever again but I have to
I'm rotting
The fact I know I'm targeted makes me feel so unsafe, I didn't process it immediately
Between my dad showing up anytime I go somewhere he knows about and likes, and now my ex or someone linked to him intent on breaking my car
I don't want to go out ever again but I have to
I'm rotting
October 12, 2026 at 4:35 PM
I feel gross
The fact I know I'm targeted makes me feel so unsafe, I didn't process it immediately
Between my dad showing up anytime I go somewhere he knows about and likes, and now my ex or someone linked to him intent on breaking my car
I don't want to go out ever again but I have to
I'm rotting
The fact I know I'm targeted makes me feel so unsafe, I didn't process it immediately
Between my dad showing up anytime I go somewhere he knows about and likes, and now my ex or someone linked to him intent on breaking my car
I don't want to go out ever again but I have to
I'm rotting
ending at 400ca today unless I snack later...but won't go too far over 500 that's for sure
October 12, 2026 at 4:10 PM
ending at 400ca today unless I snack later...but won't go too far over 500 that's for sure
i like baguette and crêpes too much for my own good
trying hard to not eat all of it
trying hard to not eat all of it
October 12, 2026 at 3:06 PM
i like baguette and crêpes too much for my own good
trying hard to not eat all of it
trying hard to not eat all of it
need more diet pills
I only have konjac supplements left (helps you feel full when eating smaller amounts)
I only have konjac supplements left (helps you feel full when eating smaller amounts)
October 12, 2026 at 9:30 AM
need more diet pills
I only have konjac supplements left (helps you feel full when eating smaller amounts)
I only have konjac supplements left (helps you feel full when eating smaller amounts)
at 55.6 this morning, if I don't gain back I officially lost 10kg since my hw
October 12, 2026 at 9:28 AM
at 55.6 this morning, if I don't gain back I officially lost 10kg since my hw
ending the day at around 300ca
gave in and ate some chocolate and three biscuits,,, but I think it's okay, still a very low ca count and my macros of the weeks are really really good, they're almost perfectly balanced
gave in and ate some chocolate and three biscuits,,, but I think it's okay, still a very low ca count and my macros of the weeks are really really good, they're almost perfectly balanced
October 11, 2026 at 8:55 PM
ending the day at around 300ca
gave in and ate some chocolate and three biscuits,,, but I think it's okay, still a very low ca count and my macros of the weeks are really really good, they're almost perfectly balanced
gave in and ate some chocolate and three biscuits,,, but I think it's okay, still a very low ca count and my macros of the weeks are really really good, they're almost perfectly balanced
today's diet is strawberry dreams drink and the pink paci
need comfort and no food
need comfort and no food
October 11, 2026 at 1:05 PM
today's diet is strawberry dreams drink and the pink paci
need comfort and no food
need comfort and no food
Hi, we're a system but this is mainly my account.
I'm Theae, transmasc, dealing with c-ptsd, dissociation and all that ensues from it. Here until I move out.
Different forms of €d depending on alter, mine is restrictive ana. I talk numbers lots, don't hesitate to block me if needed.
stats below:
I'm Theae, transmasc, dealing with c-ptsd, dissociation and all that ensues from it. Here until I move out.
Different forms of €d depending on alter, mine is restrictive ana. I talk numbers lots, don't hesitate to block me if needed.
stats below:
October 11, 2026 at 11:14 AM
Hi, we're a system but this is mainly my account.
I'm Theae, transmasc, dealing with c-ptsd, dissociation and all that ensues from it. Here until I move out.
Different forms of €d depending on alter, mine is restrictive ana. I talk numbers lots, don't hesitate to block me if needed.
stats below:
I'm Theae, transmasc, dealing with c-ptsd, dissociation and all that ensues from it. Here until I move out.
Different forms of €d depending on alter, mine is restrictive ana. I talk numbers lots, don't hesitate to block me if needed.
stats below:
anyways,,, ig the only positive is the pure despair fuels the not wanting to eat
skinny from stalking and targeting, sick
I'll redo my pinned
skinny from stalking and targeting, sick
I'll redo my pinned
October 11, 2026 at 11:01 AM
anyways,,, ig the only positive is the pure despair fuels the not wanting to eat
skinny from stalking and targeting, sick
I'll redo my pinned
skinny from stalking and targeting, sick
I'll redo my pinned
I'm so upset, I don't even have the strenght anymore to go ask his ass about that I'm just,,, accepting this is gonna suck until I can resell the car, if I ever can, I might just give it and tell the next person to get rid of all identification on it so they don't get targeted as well
i need to move
i need to move
October 11, 2026 at 11:00 AM
I'm so upset, I don't even have the strenght anymore to go ask his ass about that I'm just,,, accepting this is gonna suck until I can resell the car, if I ever can, I might just give it and tell the next person to get rid of all identification on it so they don't get targeted as well
i need to move
i need to move
and my car got broken again
mirror ripped clean off and never to be seen again
love knowing I'm being targeted, again. probs by my ex or someone he likes (or pissed off idk)
and ik it's not an accident, because it's the second time it happened since september and weirdly no other car is ever broken
mirror ripped clean off and never to be seen again
love knowing I'm being targeted, again. probs by my ex or someone he likes (or pissed off idk)
and ik it's not an accident, because it's the second time it happened since september and weirdly no other car is ever broken
October 11, 2026 at 10:58 AM
and my car got broken again
mirror ripped clean off and never to be seen again
love knowing I'm being targeted, again. probs by my ex or someone he likes (or pissed off idk)
and ik it's not an accident, because it's the second time it happened since september and weirdly no other car is ever broken
mirror ripped clean off and never to be seen again
love knowing I'm being targeted, again. probs by my ex or someone he likes (or pissed off idk)
and ik it's not an accident, because it's the second time it happened since september and weirdly no other car is ever broken
Ik I said less fast but...it just feels safer fasting
Are around 700 yesterday and it feels too much, esp so close to my original goal (officially a few hundred grams aways from having lost 10kg since may)
New goal is lower but....still feels exciting
I have to update my pinned I think tho
Are around 700 yesterday and it feels too much, esp so close to my original goal (officially a few hundred grams aways from having lost 10kg since may)
New goal is lower but....still feels exciting
I have to update my pinned I think tho
October 11, 2026 at 4:54 AM
Ik I said less fast but...it just feels safer fasting
Are around 700 yesterday and it feels too much, esp so close to my original goal (officially a few hundred grams aways from having lost 10kg since may)
New goal is lower but....still feels exciting
I have to update my pinned I think tho
Are around 700 yesterday and it feels too much, esp so close to my original goal (officially a few hundred grams aways from having lost 10kg since may)
New goal is lower but....still feels exciting
I have to update my pinned I think tho
they left no space for my shoes :(( I know I make myself invisible but,,,I still exist. I don't like how they just, cast my stuff aside. My shoe space (and i only have one pair), my dishes (they get broken or thrown wherever), my food (things piled on top)
that and how they laugh when I come down
that and how they laugh when I come down
October 9, 2026 at 7:33 PM
they left no space for my shoes :(( I know I make myself invisible but,,,I still exist. I don't like how they just, cast my stuff aside. My shoe space (and i only have one pair), my dishes (they get broken or thrown wherever), my food (things piled on top)
that and how they laugh when I come down
that and how they laugh when I come down
600 today,,, w3ight going back down, very slowly but surely. I'm thinking of doing less fasting and just, as little c4ls as possible per day,,,going from 600-900 to 300-600
October 9, 2026 at 2:53 PM
600 today,,, w3ight going back down, very slowly but surely. I'm thinking of doing less fasting and just, as little c4ls as possible per day,,,going from 600-900 to 300-600
the roommate I dislike has his second partner over for two weeks,,,it's gonna be hell. It's also hell to explain the context but basically: roommates are a couple letting me live here for free (one of them is a friend) so i'm not homeless
and one of them happens to be a shit person and -
and one of them happens to be a shit person and -
October 9, 2026 at 4:57 AM
the roommate I dislike has his second partner over for two weeks,,,it's gonna be hell. It's also hell to explain the context but basically: roommates are a couple letting me live here for free (one of them is a friend) so i'm not homeless
and one of them happens to be a shit person and -
and one of them happens to be a shit person and -