I miss everyone I’ve ever known.

I don’t have any “I miss you” messages left to send.

… I already know what I expect to find on the other side: silence.

It's been absolutely difficult starting over from scratch, and I've got few allies and friends who are distant and literally no one in my vicinity. For a place with over 1 million people I've never felt so isolated and alone and ultimately lonely

I'm sorry I've been away, my mental illness took over and I didn't think that I'd make it

I had my 2nd therapy appt after almost 3 years (not including rehab); as my therapist pointed out today EMDR is great if you've had a healthy childhood and some acute trauma suddenly happens; what you've had is a lifetime of trauma 🥺😢😭💔💔 and oh Goddess (I weep). 1/3

bad

July 12th is the only birthday that I celebrate, that's worth celebrating

I've been doom scrolling in near total dissociation for almost 48 hours..
Everything is a blur..

Yes, I know how to drive while scream crying in a near to total meltdown and I have an asthma attack and use my inhaler all at once

I discovered a new thing..
People have core memories
I have core sadness

today my heart hurts 💔 and I feel sad 🥺😢😭