It will be a birthday to remember, that's for goddamn sure...

Depressing if true... I am going to bed. I had a bad day and I am going to salvage my night the best I can...but if that girl does somehow get here next weekend. (Cause she knows how I feel; but we both know it would be an insanely ugly murder/suicide if we tried to make a relationship of it.)

Literally no one else. None of my ex's, or the girl with the other half of my heart can evoke such, emotion. And it confuses me; because if I don't feel that way around anyone but her, what does that say about every romantic relationship I've had?
Did I truly love anyone else in the last 13 years?

(Sigh) That was two months ago; first time I'd seen her in three years. And I want to go back, that weekend was so... goddammit I was so happy.

Us trying to find my car at 3am and literally skipping down the sidewalk is the exact kind of whimsy that...I don't feel that with anyone else...

"In this moment, till the end of my world, the kisses we share will never be enough for me.
I am betrothed to our ruin.
For as long as I have words to carve your beauty into my soul."

Fucks sake....I don't know how she does this to me. That girl killed a two year writing block in one weekend.