✱ 𝕾he`s awake in her room with an empty tub of ice cream .. groggy.
"mmn.... oh dear.. did I black out? .."
✱ Whatever happened last night felt like a 𝙗𝙖𝙙 dream ..
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✱ 𝕾he`s awake in her room with an empty tub of ice cream .. groggy.
"mmn.... oh dear.. did I black out? .."
✱ Whatever happened last night felt like a 𝙗𝙖𝙙 dream ..
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✱ 𝕳er arms limp ﹑head sinks into his shoulder ﹑she doesn't fight his choice nor has the energy to get to retaliate.
✱ Dry streaks drew along her cheeks ﹑connected to her eyes ﹑foused solely on her breathing and the sound of two heartbeats.
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...
" I'm not letting you go. "
He whispers, tightening his embrace just that little bit more. He refused to hesitate, to leave even a single moment of doubt. Even without saying it in full.
✱ 𝕳er arms limp ﹑head sinks into his shoulder ﹑she doesn't fight his choice nor has the energy to get to retaliate.
✱ Dry streaks drew along her cheeks ﹑connected to her eyes ﹑foused solely on her breathing and the sound of two heartbeats.
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...
"Then why..."
✱ 𝖂as all she could muster up before hiding again .. she couldn't bring herself to say more.
✱ Relying on the strength in her arms to hold and embrace him ﹑praying that this god awful feeling goes away.
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" You put so much effort and care into anything. You've always been so headstrong... Always stayed true to who you are. That's never compromised. "
" ...Good enough? You're wonderful. "
" It's why... "
...
" ...It's not your fault. "
...
"Then why..."
✱ 𝖂as all she could muster up before hiding again .. she couldn't bring herself to say more.
✱ Relying on the strength in her arms to hold and embrace him ﹑praying that this god awful feeling goes away.
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"It is.... it always is.."
✱ 𝕿he moon above is shrouded in clouds ﹑her shadow merging with the earth below.
".. I`m.. not good enough﹑am I 𖤠"
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" It's not... You know it's not. "
They were one and the same in many regards. Feeling that guilt wash over, those emotions crashing like a tidal wave. He understood well.
" You can't keep blaming yourself. You know you can't... "
Keeping her still...
✱ 𝕸uffled chokes .. trembling shoulders .. she gets like this every now and then .. it`s a bad wave of emotions ..
"It`s all my fault.. It`s all... my fault.."
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"It is.... it always is.."
✱ 𝕿he moon above is shrouded in clouds ﹑her shadow merging with the earth below.
".. I`m.. not good enough﹑am I 𖤠"
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✱ 𝕸uffled chokes .. trembling shoulders .. she gets like this every now and then .. it`s a bad wave of emotions ..
"It`s all my fault.. It`s all... my fault.."
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There were no words at first. Shoulders relaxing when she embraces him, and he returns it in full. Wanting to provide simple comfort first and foremost.
Holding still...
" Don't listen to them... "
" It's okay. "
Words barely above a whisper.
Staying as long as she needs.
✱ 𝕳is voice reached .. turning to see him ﹑clear crystal eyes ﹑small trembling smile ..
✱ Embracing him then and there ﹑silent in her admission.
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✱ 𝕸uffled chokes .. trembling shoulders .. she gets like this every now and then .. it`s a bad wave of emotions ..
"It`s all my fault.. It`s all... my fault.."
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✱ 𝕳is voice reached .. turning to see him ﹑clear crystal eyes ﹑small trembling smile ..
✱ Embracing him then and there ﹑silent in her admission.
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" 𝙈𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙖. "
It's firm, calling out her name.
Bordering on cold, yet warm and filled with nothing but worry. A hand placed on her shoulder, hoping to, praying to ground her.
" Don't. Listen. "
✱ Uh oh. That stance of hers isn`t right ..
"I don`t have to and I dont`t 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 to."
"I don't want to... I don't need to. I don't have to... I dont.."
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✱ 𝕳is voice reached .. turning to see him ﹑clear crystal eyes ﹑small trembling smile ..
✱ Embracing him then and there ﹑silent in her admission.
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✲ 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘢𝘵𝘩 ..
....
✱ 𝕬ny rage has been contained ﹑ leaving melancholy instead ..
".. better tend to my garden ﹑this is unhealthy"
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✱ Uh oh. That stance of hers isn`t right ..
"I don`t have to and I dont`t 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 to."
"I don't want to... I don't need to. I don't have to... I dont.."
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"Not this again .. I refuse to think about this right now .."
✲ 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵`𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 ... 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩 𖤠
"mm ..."
✲ 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘪𝘳𝘳~
✱ Holding her head ﹑baring teeth ..
"shut up .."
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✲ 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘢𝘵𝘩 ..
....
✱ 𝕬ny rage has been contained ﹑ leaving melancholy instead ..
".. better tend to my garden ﹑this is unhealthy"
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✱ Uh oh. That stance of hers isn`t right ..
"I don`t have to and I dont`t 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 to."
"I don't want to... I don't need to. I don't have to... I dont.."
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"Not this again .. I refuse to think about this right now .."
✲ 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵`𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 ... 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩 𖤠
"mm ..."
✲ 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘪𝘳𝘳~
✱ Holding her head ﹑baring teeth ..
"shut up .."
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✱ Uh oh. That stance of hers isn`t right ..
"I don`t have to and I dont`t 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 to."
"I don't want to... I don't need to. I don't have to... I dont.."
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——— 𐔌 🦢
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Ahhh. I see now ﹑thank you for pointing that out. Are there any other triggers she should avoid 𖤠
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✱ 𝕿hat. Was unexpected ﹑but something that has perked her interest tremendously. Taking his card with much needed enthusiasm.
"Oh cool ! I admire your profession a lot"
✱ Which would also explain his 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙣 he carries .. but that is for another time.
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"just a private investigator ... looking for work and drifting through life in a drunken haze." he handed her his business card. "I'm taking on anything these days, from finding lost cats to catching cheating spouses."
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✱ 𝕿hat. Was unexpected ﹑but something that has perked her interest tremendously. Taking his card with much needed enthusiasm.
"Oh cool ! I admire your profession a lot"
✱ Which would also explain his 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙣 he carries .. but that is for another time.
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✱ 𝕮onsider her absolutely lost on this one. She doesn`t understand what she has done here ﹑but she won`t turn away just yet.
"Hey.."
✱ Her expression shifts ..
"I`m really sorry ﹑I was— geniunely just concerned about you. If you don`t want that then I won`t ask again .."
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Maybe it was a push of boundaries... putting it very lightly.
She will not continue this discussion any further. ꒱
࿐ "𝘐—𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘵! 𝘐 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴! 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘰 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘴𝘬 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘺!"
✱ 𝕾ince when that was— nevermind ﹑she won`t press more buttons ﹑raising both hands .. white flag.
"I.. think we got on the wrong foot here ﹑my apologies ﹑no more questions .."
✱ Easy there ﹑she is giving space between them.
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✱ 𝕮onsider her absolutely lost on this one. She doesn`t understand what she has done here ﹑but she won`t turn away just yet.
"Hey.."
✱ Her expression shifts ..
"I`m really sorry ﹑I was— geniunely just concerned about you. If you don`t want that then I won`t ask again .."
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✲. 𝘚𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘭𝘺 .. 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𖤠 𝘐`𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 ..
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✲. 𝘚𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘭𝘺 .. 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𖤠 𝘐`𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 ..
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✱ 𝕾ince when that was— nevermind ﹑she won`t press more buttons ﹑raising both hands .. white flag.
"I.. think we got on the wrong foot here ﹑my apologies ﹑no more questions .."
✱ Easy there ﹑she is giving space between them.
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꒰ Maybe not the nicest thing to press?
A frustrated fist had already formed and she was trembling something fierce. ꒱
"I wasn`t"
✱ Firmly stating.
"Am I missing something here 𖤠 Or have I misred the situation 𖤠"
✱ Is she or is she not ill 𖤠 Her eyes are staring intensely at this knight bee.
"Are you healthy 𖤠"
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✱ 𝕾ince when that was— nevermind ﹑she won`t press more buttons ﹑raising both hands .. white flag.
"I.. think we got on the wrong foot here ﹑my apologies ﹑no more questions .."
✱ Easy there ﹑she is giving space between them.
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"I am going to lose it early today﹑ aren`t I 𖤠"
"Aha.. haha.. ha."
...
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"I am going to lose it early today﹑ aren`t I 𖤠"
"Aha.. haha.. ha."
...
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"uh ... you doing alright 𖤠 You`re not looking too hot .."
✱ 𝕾light concern.
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𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘐 𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘍𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘺."
꒰ Goodness, even when sick she seemed to take her job VERY seriously... going from a stammering mess to a stoic woman ready to don armour. ꒱
"uh ... you doing alright 𖤠 You`re not looking too hot .."
✱ 𝕾light concern.
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⁕ While you resumed your freak out session ﹑ the woman seemingly was busy examining you from head to toe.
⁕ Her silence explained by how fasnicated she is by your box shaped head and towering frame ﹑she has never seen something like you before.
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⁕ While you resumed your freak out session ﹑ the woman seemingly was busy examining you from head to toe.
⁕ Her silence explained by how fasnicated she is by your box shaped head and towering frame ﹑she has never seen something like you before.
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"Not this again .. I refuse to think about this right now .."
✲ 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵`𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 ... 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩 𖤠
"mm ..."
✲ 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘪𝘳𝘳~
✱ Holding her head ﹑baring teeth ..
"shut up .."
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"Not this again .. I refuse to think about this right now .."
✲ 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵`𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 ... 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩 𖤠
"mm ..."
✲ 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘪𝘳𝘳~
✱ Holding her head ﹑baring teeth ..
"shut up .."
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"𝐈 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 !"
✱ 𝕿hat came out stronger than she meant. Looking away with her fist clenched against her dress.
"I know already.."
"But I can`t lie to myself.. it`s getting harder and harder to wait.. and I just—"
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He understands the desire to fill the gap.
Everyone feels it, at least he believes so.
" But you already know better than anybody, it just takes time. If you tried to rush it... Force it. Maybe things just won't work out. "
"𝐈 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 !"
✱ 𝕿hat came out stronger than she meant. Looking away with her fist clenched against her dress.
"I know already.."
"But I can`t lie to myself.. it`s getting harder and harder to wait.. and I just—"
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✱ 𝕳onest people are terrible liars ﹑so it fits .. her hand twirls a piece of lock ﹑half a blush on her face .. unsure of how to start or end such topic ..
"I don`t know﹑Alpha .. It`s just a waiting game for me"
"I`m unsure when that gap will fill for me"
...
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Tilting his head to the side.
He doesn't really hide the somewhat concerned expression on his face.
" You don't really do a good job at hiding it... At least not from me. "
A fist on his hip, sighing softly.
" ...It's not nothing, you know it isn't. "
"Huh 𖤠"
✱ 𝕮aught off guard ﹑dismissing it.
"Me 𖤠 Staring 𖤠 No no I wasn`t—"
...
"Well I was but .."
"Y`know... it`s nothing ﹑really"
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✱ 𝕳onest people are terrible liars ﹑so it fits .. her hand twirls a piece of lock ﹑half a blush on her face .. unsure of how to start or end such topic ..
"I don`t know﹑Alpha .. It`s just a waiting game for me"
"I`m unsure when that gap will fill for me"
...
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"Huh 𖤠"
✱ 𝕮aught off guard ﹑dismissing it.
"Me 𖤠 Staring 𖤠 No no I wasn`t—"
...
"Well I was but .."
"Y`know... it`s nothing ﹑really"
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" . . . "
" Maria... You know, you're staring again. "
✱ 𝕾taring into the 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 at married couples .. hand on her cheek ..
( * sigh .. )
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"Huh 𖤠"
✱ 𝕮aught off guard ﹑dismissing it.
"Me 𖤠 Staring 𖤠 No no I wasn`t—"
...
"Well I was but .."
"Y`know... it`s nothing ﹑really"
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✱ 𝕾taring into the 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 at married couples .. hand on her cheek ..
( * sigh .. )
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✱ 𝕾taring into the 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 at married couples .. hand on her cheek ..
( * sigh .. )
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