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✱ 𝕾he`s awake in her room with an empty tub of ice cream .. groggy.

"mmn.... oh dear.. did I black out? .."

✱ Whatever happened last night felt like a 𝙗𝙖𝙙 dream ..
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September 17, 2026 at 1:54 AM
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✱ 𝕳er arms limp ﹑head sinks into his shoulder ﹑she doesn't fight his choice nor has the energy to get to retaliate.

✱ Dry streaks drew along her cheeks ﹑connected to her eyes ﹑foused solely on her breathing and the sound of two heartbeats.
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" I'm not letting you go. "

He whispers, tightening his embrace just that little bit more. He refused to hesitate, to leave even a single moment of doubt. Even without saying it in full.
September 16, 2026 at 7:25 PM
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hibiscus

This poor woman needs a quick pick me up before she goes ballistic ..
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September 16, 2026 at 7:13 PM
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You can't еscape this loneliness / It'll prey, it'll press / How could anybody ever love you?
September 12, 2026 at 6:27 PM
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"Then why..."

✱ 𝖂as all she could muster up before hiding again .. she couldn't bring herself to say more.

✱ Relying on the strength in her arms to hold and embrace him ﹑praying that this god awful feeling goes away.
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" You put so much effort and care into anything. You've always been so headstrong... Always stayed true to who you are. That's never compromised. "

" ...Good enough? You're wonderful. "

" It's why... "

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" ...It's not your fault. "
September 16, 2026 at 7:04 PM
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"It is.... it always is.."

✱ 𝕿he moon above is shrouded in clouds ﹑her shadow merging with the earth below.

".. I`m.. not good enough﹑am I 𖤠"
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" It's not... You know it's not. "

They were one and the same in many regards. Feeling that guilt wash over, those emotions crashing like a tidal wave. He understood well.

" You can't keep blaming yourself. You know you can't... "

Keeping her still...
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✱ 𝕸uffled chokes .. trembling shoulders .. she gets like this every now and then .. it`s a bad wave of emotions ..

"It`s all my fault.. It`s all... my fault.."
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September 16, 2026 at 6:40 PM
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✱ 𝕸uffled chokes .. trembling shoulders .. she gets like this every now and then .. it`s a bad wave of emotions ..

"It`s all my fault.. It`s all... my fault.."
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There were no words at first. Shoulders relaxing when she embraces him, and he returns it in full. Wanting to provide simple comfort first and foremost.

Holding still...

" Don't listen to them... "

" It's okay. "

Words barely above a whisper.
Staying as long as she needs.
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✱ 𝕳is voice reached .. turning to see him ﹑clear crystal eyes ﹑small trembling smile ..

✱ Embracing him then and there ﹑silent in her admission.
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September 16, 2026 at 6:23 PM
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✱ 𝕳is voice reached .. turning to see him ﹑clear crystal eyes ﹑small trembling smile ..

✱ Embracing him then and there ﹑silent in her admission.
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" 𝙈𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙖. "

It's firm, calling out her name.
Bordering on cold, yet warm and filled with nothing but worry. A hand placed on her shoulder, hoping to, praying to ground her.

" Don't. Listen. "
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✱ Uh oh. That stance of hers isn`t right ..

"I don`t have to and I dont`t 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 to."

"I don't want to... I don't need to. I don't have to... I dont.."
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September 16, 2026 at 6:14 PM
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✲ 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘢𝘵𝘩 ..

....

✱ 𝕬ny rage has been contained ﹑ leaving melancholy instead ..

".. better tend to my garden ﹑this is unhealthy"
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✱ Uh oh. That stance of hers isn`t right ..

"I don`t have to and I dont`t 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 to."

"I don't want to... I don't need to. I don't have to... I dont.."
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"Not this again .. I refuse to think about this right now .."

✲ 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵`𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 ... 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩 𖤠

"mm ..."

✲ 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘪𝘳𝘳~

✱ Holding her head ﹑baring teeth ..

"shut up .."
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September 16, 2026 at 6:10 PM
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✱ Uh oh. That stance of hers isn`t right ..

"I don`t have to and I dont`t 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 to."

"I don't want to... I don't need to. I don't have to... I dont.."
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"Not this again .. I refuse to think about this right now .."

✲ 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵`𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 ... 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩 𖤠

"mm ..."

✲ 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘪𝘳𝘳~

✱ Holding her head ﹑baring teeth ..

"shut up .."
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September 16, 2026 at 5:58 PM
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hibiscus

Understood
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evie♡

That's pretty much it! She's just super insecure about her looks/sickness.
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hibiscus

Ahhh. I see now ﹑thank you for pointing that out. Are there any other triggers she should avoid 𖤠
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September 16, 2026 at 5:53 PM
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✱ 𝕿hat. Was unexpected ﹑but something that has perked her interest tremendously. Taking his card with much needed enthusiasm.

"Oh cool ! I admire your profession a lot"

✱ Which would also explain his 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙣 he carries .. but that is for another time.
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"just a private investigator ... looking for work and drifting through life in a drunken haze." he handed her his business card. "I'm taking on anything these days, from finding lost cats to catching cheating spouses."
September 16, 2026 at 5:52 PM
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hibiscus

Ahhh. I see now ﹑thank you for pointing that out. Are there any other triggers she should avoid 𖤠
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September 16, 2026 at 5:45 PM
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✱ 𝕮onsider her absolutely lost on this one. She doesn`t understand what she has done here ﹑but she won`t turn away just yet.

"Hey.."

✱ Her expression shifts ..

"I`m really sorry ﹑I was— geniunely just concerned about you. If you don`t want that then I won`t ask again .."
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꒰ She uh. She was crying.

Maybe it was a push of boundaries... putting it very lightly.

She will not continue this discussion any further. ꒱

࿐ "𝘐—𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘵! 𝘐 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴! 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘨𝘰 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘴𝘬 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘺!"
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✱ 𝕾ince when that was— nevermind ﹑she won`t press more buttons ﹑raising both hands .. white flag.

"I.. think we got on the wrong foot here ﹑my apologies ﹑no more questions .."

✱ Easy there ﹑she is giving space between them.
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September 16, 2026 at 5:44 PM
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✲. 𝘚𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘭𝘺 .. 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𖤠 𝘐`𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 ..
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September 16, 2026 at 5:37 PM
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✱ 𝕾ince when that was— nevermind ﹑she won`t press more buttons ﹑raising both hands .. white flag.

"I.. think we got on the wrong foot here ﹑my apologies ﹑no more questions .."

✱ Easy there ﹑she is giving space between them.
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࿐ "𝘋𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘣𝘭𝘺 𝘪—... 𝘪𝘯... 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘪𝘴!? 𝘐 𝘥𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶! 𝘚𝘵𝘰𝘱!"

꒰ Maybe not the nicest thing to press?
A frustrated fist had already formed and she was trembling something fierce. ꒱
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"I wasn`t"

✱ Firmly stating.

"Am I missing something here 𖤠 Or have I misred the situation 𖤠"

✱ Is she or is she not ill 𖤠 Her eyes are staring intensely at this knight bee.

"Are you healthy 𖤠"
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September 16, 2026 at 5:34 PM
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"I am going to lose it early today﹑ aren`t I 𖤠"

"Aha.. haha.. ha."

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September 16, 2026 at 5:31 PM
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"uh ... you doing alright 𖤠 You`re not looking too hot .."

✱ 𝕾light concern.
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࿐ "𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘍𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘒𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘥𝘰𝘮.

𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘐 𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘍𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘺."

꒰ Goodness, even when sick she seemed to take her job VERY seriously... going from a stammering mess to a stoic woman ready to don armour. ꒱
September 16, 2026 at 5:21 PM
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⁕ While you resumed your freak out session ﹑ the woman seemingly was busy examining you from head to toe.

⁕ Her silence explained by how fasnicated she is by your box shaped head and towering frame ﹑she has never seen something like you before.
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September 16, 2026 at 5:15 PM
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"Not this again .. I refuse to think about this right now .."

✲ 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵`𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 ... 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘩 𖤠

"mm ..."

✲ 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘕𝘰𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘪𝘳𝘳~

✱ Holding her head ﹑baring teeth ..

"shut up .."
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September 16, 2026 at 4:53 PM
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"𝐈 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 !"

✱ 𝕿hat came out stronger than she meant. Looking away with her fist clenched against her dress.

"I know already.."

"But I can`t lie to myself.. it`s getting harder and harder to wait.. and I just—"
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He understands the desire to fill the gap.
Everyone feels it, at least he believes so.

" But you already know better than anybody, it just takes time. If you tried to rush it... Force it. Maybe things just won't work out. "
September 16, 2026 at 4:49 PM
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✱ 𝕳onest people are terrible liars ﹑so it fits .. her hand twirls a piece of lock ﹑half a blush on her face .. unsure of how to start or end such topic ..

"I don`t know﹑Alpha .. It`s just a waiting game for me"

"I`m unsure when that gap will fill for me"

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Tilting his head to the side.
He doesn't really hide the somewhat concerned expression on his face.

" You don't really do a good job at hiding it... At least not from me. "

A fist on his hip, sighing softly.

" ...It's not nothing, you know it isn't. "
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"Huh 𖤠"

✱ 𝕮aught off guard ﹑dismissing it.

"Me 𖤠 Staring 𖤠 No no I wasn`t—"

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"Well I was but .."

"Y`know... it`s nothing ﹑really"
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September 16, 2026 at 4:24 PM
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"Huh 𖤠"

✱ 𝕮aught off guard ﹑dismissing it.

"Me 𖤠 Staring 𖤠 No no I wasn`t—"

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"Well I was but .."

"Y`know... it`s nothing ﹑really"
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" . . . "

" Maria... You know, you're staring again. "
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✱ 𝕾taring into the 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 at married couples .. hand on her cheek ..

( * sigh .. )
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September 16, 2026 at 3:59 PM
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✱ 𝕾taring into the 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 at married couples .. hand on her cheek ..

( * sigh .. )
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September 16, 2026 at 3:40 PM