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how can i vocalize my upset about this situation without feeling entitled:
July 26, 2026 at 2:22 PM
how can i vocalize my upset about this situation without feeling entitled:
i feel so hopeless i could die right now
June 1, 2026 at 9:49 PM
i feel so hopeless i could die right now
i miss her sm today
April 1, 2026 at 5:51 PM
i miss her sm today
you would never catch me admitting this on main but im currently craving a man to worship me like a pregnant lady is craving nutella pickles. i might be ovulating
March 22, 2026 at 8:49 PM
you would never catch me admitting this on main but im currently craving a man to worship me like a pregnant lady is craving nutella pickles. i might be ovulating
strting to lose the meaning of life again
March 13, 2026 at 2:48 PM
strting to lose the meaning of life again
im not ehen gonna lie depression is beating my ass
March 10, 2026 at 6:47 PM
im not ehen gonna lie depression is beating my ass
today was not a good day :(
March 5, 2026 at 8:05 PM
today was not a good day :(
am i..... psychic? i just got mine last night
i havent had my period since i stopped taking the pill like at the beginning of january so. while im like yay yippe no bleeding im also a little bit put off bc thats exactly how my health problems with my adrenal gland started last time :ponder:
March 3, 2026 at 1:28 PM
am i..... psychic? i just got mine last night
i havent had my period since i stopped taking the pill like at the beginning of january so. while im like yay yippe no bleeding im also a little bit put off bc thats exactly how my health problems with my adrenal gland started last time :ponder:
March 1, 2026 at 1:32 PM
i havent had my period since i stopped taking the pill like at the beginning of january so. while im like yay yippe no bleeding im also a little bit put off bc thats exactly how my health problems with my adrenal gland started last time :ponder:
im in a period where i dont wake up to a message from my artists every day and i feel so empty without updates. SHOW ME HER
February 23, 2026 at 8:31 PM
im in a period where i dont wake up to a message from my artists every day and i feel so empty without updates. SHOW ME HER
my bad yall i forgot to check in on here
February 23, 2026 at 1:23 PM
my bad yall i forgot to check in on here
if it wasnt for this cat id have killed myself today
January 14, 2026 at 11:31 PM
if it wasnt for this cat id have killed myself today
im in such a bad mood and im so sad all the time and i hate my life so fucking much and nothing is fun anymore and i just want to fucking die man
January 4, 2026 at 9:25 PM
im in such a bad mood and im so sad all the time and i hate my life so fucking much and nothing is fun anymore and i just want to fucking die man
when i remember that i wont turn 27
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December 24, 2025 at 11:50 PM
when i remember that i wont turn 27
whatever i hope i never wake up again merry christmas or whatever
December 24, 2025 at 11:19 PM
whatever i hope i never wake up again merry christmas or whatever
i should genuinel kill myself i ruin everything i touch i should never get anything that makes me happy becasze i will break it
December 24, 2025 at 11:15 PM
i should genuinel kill myself i ruin everything i touch i should never get anything that makes me happy becasze i will break it
checking in on tjis tl, are we still alive
December 23, 2025 at 3:42 PM
checking in on tjis tl, are we still alive
genuinely tweaking out over my pedicurist getting me a christmas present like genuinely im so moved that someone random likes me enough to do that. i always feel like i can never open up to strangers because of my insane walls so for someone to like me regardless :(( enough to do this. im emo
December 15, 2025 at 9:19 PM
genuinely tweaking out over my pedicurist getting me a christmas present like genuinely im so moved that someone random likes me enough to do that. i always feel like i can never open up to strangers because of my insane walls so for someone to like me regardless :(( enough to do this. im emo
people gotta stop headcanoning shit onto me LMAO it gets to a point. i cannot be experiencing the mischaracterization of fandom as a real person (this isnt abt my vt*ber persona this is about me like me the person me the oomf you all know)
December 14, 2025 at 4:26 PM
people gotta stop headcanoning shit onto me LMAO it gets to a point. i cannot be experiencing the mischaracterization of fandom as a real person (this isnt abt my vt*ber persona this is about me like me the person me the oomf you all know)
crying over feeling lonely okok nini
December 13, 2025 at 12:46 AM
crying over feeling lonely okok nini
I MIGHTVE JUST SAVED MY ASS OH I AM SO LUCKY
December 4, 2025 at 11:47 PM
I MIGHTVE JUST SAVED MY ASS OH I AM SO LUCKY
every time i start to feel bad that im spendinh so much money on vtubing life throws an insane curveball on me and makes me want to kill myswlf so hard that im like i might aswell blow all my money on this cos ill be gone by the time the consequences catch up to me
December 4, 2025 at 9:08 PM
every time i start to feel bad that im spendinh so much money on vtubing life throws an insane curveball on me and makes me want to kill myswlf so hard that im like i might aswell blow all my money on this cos ill be gone by the time the consequences catch up to me
today wasnt a good stream day
December 2, 2025 at 7:15 PM
today wasnt a good stream day
pls dont say damn if i have a burnout meltdown soon ok
November 27, 2025 at 3:11 PM
pls dont say damn if i have a burnout meltdown soon ok