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I'm mostly worried about my dad

He almost passed out last time he got covid

He has breathing problems on a good day

I'm just hoping he'll be okay. We'll do what we can, if he needs the ER we will bring him. But maybe he won't get it as hard or he'll be asymptomatic this time. I don't know
January 7, 2026 at 5:02 AM
I was having spots in my eyes, very sudden and major, I was afraid I was going blind

It stopped, came back, stopped again

I think I was experiencing migraine auras. I got a headache after it started

Everybody in my house has covid, maybe related

I've been feeling shitty but don't have flu
January 7, 2026 at 4:11 AM
I am so tired oh my God

I feel a little better today but it's a slow transition back into normalcy
December 30, 2025 at 9:25 PM
I'm feeling kind of dead inside, smeanoker dying was all a lot

Actually the dying brought me some relief, her suffering prior was the worst

Like she was just bleeding to death. She was pale and uncomfortable. I thought she was going to die a lot faster than she did. And I accidentally prolonged
December 29, 2025 at 7:30 AM
Sometimes death isn't pleasant.

Sometimes it's long and slow and painful.

But it's comforting to know that nothing is constant. Everything, including suffering, eventually comes to an end. It's just a matter of bearing it until it's over.

We have defenses, physical and psychological, that help.
December 29, 2025 at 1:11 AM
Woke up today and smea noker was doing bad

All puffed up and weak

I figured she was going to die within a few hours. She didn't seem to be in distress or in agony so I figured I'd just let her die at home peacefully

It's been many hours and she still hadn't died and I feel like fucking shit
December 28, 2025 at 6:33 AM
Meeh smea noker is bleeding from her genital area

It doesn't seem to be in her urine, she peed on me and it was clear

Which is actually not a good sign. A UTI is preferable compared to the alternative which is likely a uterine tumor.

Apparently female rats with mammary tumors end up with
December 26, 2025 at 7:39 PM
I was very honest with my bf about the dissociation and how it was hard to talk to him in that state and I feel bad

My therapist recommended talking to him about it and so I did and it's like yeah it's the truth and i was honest but now I feel bad

I miss how I was when we first met
December 17, 2025 at 2:23 AM
I dissociated while with my boyfriend, it was awkward

I don't have DID straight up because I don't lose time the way I've read people with DID do. Like I don't experience amnesia. I do have a terrible memory but it's not amnesia bad. I don't suddenly appear in a different room and don't know
December 12, 2025 at 10:55 PM
She was fine the next day, which is baffling to me. I wasn't sure she'd last the night. It's possible the fluid in her ear drained? That's the only thing I can imagine happened. I'm relieved, though.

And she made it to 2 years old! Happy Birthday to the baby.
So it seems Smeanoker has an ear infection, they're apparently common after/during upper respiratory infections

She's disoriented and off balance, and tilting and shaking her head

Also very lethargic

They can be painful and dangerous and require a different kind of antibiotic than the
December 4, 2025 at 12:47 AM
Fathers are so pleasant when they come home screaming at everything because they exist
December 3, 2025 at 3:42 AM
So it seems Smeanoker has an ear infection, they're apparently common after/during upper respiratory infections

She's disoriented and off balance, and tilting and shaking her head

Also very lethargic

They can be painful and dangerous and require a different kind of antibiotic than the
November 30, 2025 at 4:34 AM
I'll be okay, it helps me to be surrounded by this sort of thing so I can develop better defenses, it's just a part of life that I have to get used to.

At the end of the day, it's temporary -- the suffering. it doesn't last forever. That's a comforting thought. Even if someone were to die in the
November 6, 2025 at 9:38 AM
Smeanoker is doing shitty

Like worse than ever

She's on antibiotics, this shouldn't be happening

I can't afford more shit

I'm honestly probably not getting any more rats after these last two babies

If I can't afford to get them proper treatment then I shouldn't have them

In my defense,
November 6, 2025 at 1:23 AM
My sister and room mate got mad at me for saying I don't want them to use the mug my boyfriend got me as a pot for their plants. Like

Is that so hard to believe??? It's my damn mug, and it's special

Sister was calling me a pussy and saying I'm being autistic for not wanting them to use it

I told
November 5, 2025 at 5:39 AM
Boyfriend is feeling a lot better, we talked and then spent some time together, I feel bad, he goes through it every once in a while. I don't blame him, he's had it rough. HAS it rough.
November 5, 2025 at 5:36 AM
My boyfriend talked to me, he's feeling stressed by life, he feels alone and feels like I'm the only person he has. He didn't word it exactly like that, he didn't diminish my presence at all, but he feels alone, and I don't blame him. I want to meet him in-person as soon as possible
November 3, 2025 at 11:53 AM
My boyfriend has been really distant the past few days

Feels like ever since our anniversary

I worry I did something that made him feel unloved

I had to take Smeanoker to the vet that day but I talked to him the whole time I was waiting

And he went to work that day so that wasn't my fault
November 3, 2025 at 1:40 AM
I need to call for pet insurance tomorrow, they don't give you a quote online for exotics

Annoying
November 3, 2025 at 1:33 AM
I shut my alarm off in my sleep I was supposed to wake up to give the meds their meds and Smeanoker is already wheezing from the missed dose I'm pretty pissed

I gave it late but damn it all

I hope she's recovered by the end of the course, got 6 days left
November 3, 2025 at 12:30 AM
I feel too yucky to go teick or treating, boo, I'm sad, I love trick or treating
November 1, 2025 at 2:22 AM
Had another migraine my God, my sister gave me one of her muscle relaxers and I feel better, hopefully it stays away!!! Fuck me, man!
November 1, 2025 at 2:22 AM
Doing that helped, she was able to take them and keep them down. Phew! She's feeling better today. Such a relief. She needs surgery though to prevent this from happening again. Uughh. The way things work here is so fucked, why is there only a specific time youre allowed to receive insurance?!
I cut my mom's antibiotics in half and rounded the edges, I'm going to wrap them in bread and feed them to her like a dog lmao she said the taste is what made her puke so I figured if I made them smaller and wrap them in bread they'll go down easier and she won't vomit

Poor woman
November 1, 2025 at 2:18 AM
I cut my mom's antibiotics in half and rounded the edges, I'm going to wrap them in bread and feed them to her like a dog lmao she said the taste is what made her puke so I figured if I made them smaller and wrap them in bread they'll go down easier and she won't vomit

Poor woman
October 31, 2025 at 9:52 AM
Migrainnneee

I had to take more pain killers

Probably stress

I'm taking them with omeprazole right off the bat to reduce chances of my stomach getting all fucked
October 31, 2025 at 9:50 AM