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@k0rnst4r.bsky.social
online diary from a 23 years old struggling w cptsd, addiction & eds. just here to vent & talk
i have no cash left, spend the last 50€ on ❄️ again, thanks god i have hash and weed for the whole month it's gonna be so hard
September 13, 2026 at 12:17 AM
i have no cash left, spend the last 50€ on ❄️ again, thanks god i have hash and weed for the whole month it's gonna be so hard
being an addict while still living w ur mom who knows ur past but think u r sober now feels like being held at gunpoint then getting brutally beat up and killed and it's a loop
September 12, 2026 at 8:22 PM
being an addict while still living w ur mom who knows ur past but think u r sober now feels like being held at gunpoint then getting brutally beat up and killed and it's a loop
this bender kicking my ass like crazy
September 12, 2026 at 7:09 PM
this bender kicking my ass like crazy
this relapse so fucking bad i bought more again fuck everything
September 11, 2026 at 3:17 PM
this relapse so fucking bad i bought more again fuck everything
people who are recovered or trying to recover from drugs issues please how do you do it genuinely i'm trying so hard but i always fall back how do you stay motivated please i genuinely need help
September 10, 2026 at 3:27 PM
people who are recovered or trying to recover from drugs issues please how do you do it genuinely i'm trying so hard but i always fall back how do you stay motivated please i genuinely need help
me
South Park: Cartman Says Goodbye
ALT: South Park: Cartman Says Goodbye
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September 10, 2026 at 3:23 PM
me
i bought more ❄️ i feel so guilty for being this way i wish i had the balls to end it all it would be better for everyone around me
Krill Killing Myself
ALT: Krill Killing Myself
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September 10, 2026 at 3:19 PM
i bought more ❄️ i feel so guilty for being this way i wish i had the balls to end it all it would be better for everyone around me
america crazy asf how do yall even survive there omg this is hell
September 9, 2026 at 5:12 PM
america crazy asf how do yall even survive there omg this is hell
i swear one day i will recover i'm starting therapy on september 29th after being out of it for 2 years i know it will help i know i can do this
hit 15 days clean today just for me to relapse again
Fanum Supasta21
ALT: Fanum Supasta21
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September 9, 2026 at 4:14 PM
i swear one day i will recover i'm starting therapy on september 29th after being out of it for 2 years i know it will help i know i can do this
hit 15 days clean today just for me to relapse again
Fanum Supasta21
ALT: Fanum Supasta21
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September 9, 2026 at 3:31 PM
hit 15 days clean today just for me to relapse again
I love Matt Damon so much since I was a teen I am totally sane about Ben Affleck x Matt Damon lore
August 24, 2026 at 9:35 PM
I love Matt Damon so much since I was a teen I am totally sane about Ben Affleck x Matt Damon lore
locking in not to throw up rn (impossible) #watdatmean
Alien Listening to Chromakopia
ALT: Alien Listening to Chromakopia
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August 24, 2026 at 9:27 PM
locking in not to throw up rn (impossible) #watdatmean
❄️ got me so nauseous, i'm gonna try the other one from another plug to see but damn i smoked a j that i didn't even finish because i was gonna throw up i feel like shit rn
Spiderman Mcu
ALT: Spiderman Mcu
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August 24, 2026 at 9:19 PM
❄️ got me so nauseous, i'm gonna try the other one from another plug to see but damn i smoked a j that i didn't even finish because i was gonna throw up i feel like shit rn
the ❄️ and downers fighting like this in my body
Soul Leaving Body Knockout
ALT: Soul Leaving Body Knockout
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August 24, 2026 at 9:17 PM
the ❄️ and downers fighting like this in my body
i want to open up about my ❄️ addiction to my best friend but I am so fucking scared
August 24, 2026 at 2:46 PM
i want to open up about my ❄️ addiction to my best friend but I am so fucking scared
how life feels when you finally giving up
Shine On: Colorful Sunset Painting
ALT: Shine On: Colorful Sunset Painting
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August 24, 2026 at 2:45 PM
how life feels when you finally giving up
having to ignore my cravings of getting another bag please put me down already
Caitvitwt Zaunvi
ALT: Caitvitwt Zaunvi
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August 22, 2026 at 9:08 PM
having to ignore my cravings of getting another bag please put me down already
i took a shower too and my night meds i have been born again i'm crossfaded but my nose hurts so bad it"s awful
almost done w my bag i'm gonna smoke a fat joint after and i'm really gonna try to stick to weed and try to be sober even if i don't believe i will stay sober
August 22, 2026 at 9:07 PM
i took a shower too and my night meds i have been born again i'm crossfaded but my nose hurts so bad it"s awful
almost done w my bag i'm gonna smoke a fat joint after and i'm really gonna try to stick to weed and try to be sober even if i don't believe i will stay sober
August 22, 2026 at 7:45 PM
almost done w my bag i'm gonna smoke a fat joint after and i'm really gonna try to stick to weed and try to be sober even if i don't believe i will stay sober
eating on ❄️ gotta be the worst thing ever
August 22, 2026 at 4:33 PM
eating on ❄️ gotta be the worst thing ever
i am so ashamed to be me. nothing else but a useless junkie. i can't believe i fought so hard to stop heroin, to stop every hard drugs i was doing, i was clean for months and it's been all gone ever since i fell back into ❄️. I don't even want to fight anymore I'll always lose the battle
August 22, 2026 at 3:45 PM
i am so ashamed to be me. nothing else but a useless junkie. i can't believe i fought so hard to stop heroin, to stop every hard drugs i was doing, i was clean for months and it's been all gone ever since i fell back into ❄️. I don't even want to fight anymore I'll always lose the battle
the ❄️ i bought isn't from my regular plug and i have no idea what the fuck is in it but holyfuck this shit so strong i hope it's gonna take me out i can't keep living like this
August 22, 2026 at 3:20 PM
the ❄️ i bought isn't from my regular plug and i have no idea what the fuck is in it but holyfuck this shit so strong i hope it's gonna take me out i can't keep living like this
I was clean for like 2 days and I just relapsed will this ever end I'm so tired of fighting against my own mind
Peter Griffin's Padded Room Freak Out
ALT: Peter Griffin's Padded Room Freak Out
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August 22, 2026 at 11:47 AM
I was clean for like 2 days and I just relapsed will this ever end I'm so tired of fighting against my own mind
five in the morning I'm at my second bag of snow i feel miserable
August 19, 2026 at 3:08 AM
five in the morning I'm at my second bag of snow i feel miserable