Macrae
@macraemcd.bsky.social
Missing Twitter of yore and my TikTok community. Hoping I can find some safety and comfort here. Sending love to anyone else out there needing some tenderness right now.
They broke me. There’s nothing left.
June 22, 2026 at 4:38 AM
They broke me. There’s nothing left.
Some people don’t get to be okay. I think I’m one of them.
June 22, 2026 at 3:50 AM
Some people don’t get to be okay. I think I’m one of them.
No one will read these. No one will see them. No one sees me in real life, so why should this be any different?
June 22, 2026 at 3:48 AM
No one will read these. No one will see them. No one sees me in real life, so why should this be any different?
I just want to hold my cat and pretend like things are going to be okay. And I can’t. (Because my mom put her down without telling me, because she never fails to find new ways to inflict pain.)
June 22, 2026 at 3:47 AM
I just want to hold my cat and pretend like things are going to be okay. And I can’t. (Because my mom put her down without telling me, because she never fails to find new ways to inflict pain.)
I wish I had a different mom. I wish I had a different family. I wish I had a different life.
June 22, 2026 at 3:37 AM
I wish I had a different mom. I wish I had a different family. I wish I had a different life.
My family went to a baseball game tonight to celebrate his life. I wasn’t invited. They don’t love me. I’m alone.
June 22, 2026 at 3:02 AM
My family went to a baseball game tonight to celebrate his life. I wasn’t invited. They don’t love me. I’m alone.
I went to coffee with the boomerang ex. Mostly because I knew you’d have thoughts on the whole ordeal, and I just wanted to tell you all about it.
January 1, 2026 at 6:48 PM
I went to coffee with the boomerang ex. Mostly because I knew you’d have thoughts on the whole ordeal, and I just wanted to tell you all about it.
- Went no contact with my mom and lost my sisters in the process
- Was caught in an active shooter situation
- The place I was living was shot on multiple occasions
- My best friend died
I need to leave Utah, but have no where to go and see no way out.
- Was caught in an active shooter situation
- The place I was living was shot on multiple occasions
- My best friend died
I need to leave Utah, but have no where to go and see no way out.
October 30, 2025 at 12:12 PM
- Went no contact with my mom and lost my sisters in the process
- Was caught in an active shooter situation
- The place I was living was shot on multiple occasions
- My best friend died
I need to leave Utah, but have no where to go and see no way out.
- Was caught in an active shooter situation
- The place I was living was shot on multiple occasions
- My best friend died
I need to leave Utah, but have no where to go and see no way out.
- 2 wrist surgeries
- PCOS diagnosis
- hEDS diagnosis
- Underwent MS testing
- Dad diagnosed with Parkinson’s
- Was followed and cornered by road rage driver
- Left at a rest stop hours from home by my mom
- Kicked out of the house by my mom and became homeless
- PCOS diagnosis
- hEDS diagnosis
- Underwent MS testing
- Dad diagnosed with Parkinson’s
- Was followed and cornered by road rage driver
- Left at a rest stop hours from home by my mom
- Kicked out of the house by my mom and became homeless
October 30, 2025 at 12:12 PM
- 2 wrist surgeries
- PCOS diagnosis
- hEDS diagnosis
- Underwent MS testing
- Dad diagnosed with Parkinson’s
- Was followed and cornered by road rage driver
- Left at a rest stop hours from home by my mom
- Kicked out of the house by my mom and became homeless
- PCOS diagnosis
- hEDS diagnosis
- Underwent MS testing
- Dad diagnosed with Parkinson’s
- Was followed and cornered by road rage driver
- Left at a rest stop hours from home by my mom
- Kicked out of the house by my mom and became homeless
T/W: Trauma Dump (although I doubt anyone will see this anyway)
Events that have led me here (not to mention COVID, the current administration, and previous trauma):
- Had to leave NYC and go to Utah for neck surgery
- Took a job that lied to me about the role
- Was fired for the first time
Events that have led me here (not to mention COVID, the current administration, and previous trauma):
- Had to leave NYC and go to Utah for neck surgery
- Took a job that lied to me about the role
- Was fired for the first time
October 30, 2025 at 12:12 PM
T/W: Trauma Dump (although I doubt anyone will see this anyway)
Events that have led me here (not to mention COVID, the current administration, and previous trauma):
- Had to leave NYC and go to Utah for neck surgery
- Took a job that lied to me about the role
- Was fired for the first time
Events that have led me here (not to mention COVID, the current administration, and previous trauma):
- Had to leave NYC and go to Utah for neck surgery
- Took a job that lied to me about the role
- Was fired for the first time
My boomerang ex texted me again. You would be rolling your eyes so hard and wondering, as always, what the hell is wrong with him. You hated him because of how he treated me. You hated him when I wasn’t ready to. I wish you were here to mock him with me now. I hate this. I miss you.
September 3, 2025 at 7:20 PM
My boomerang ex texted me again. You would be rolling your eyes so hard and wondering, as always, what the hell is wrong with him. You hated him because of how he treated me. You hated him when I wasn’t ready to. I wish you were here to mock him with me now. I hate this. I miss you.
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August 20, 2025 at 3:38 AM
I miss you every single day.
August 20, 2025 at 2:41 AM
I miss you every single day.
I miss you so much I feel like I can’t breathe. I started playing old voice texts, and I can’t believe you aren’t here. You feel so close. But you’re gone. I hate this.
August 20, 2025 at 2:40 AM
I miss you so much I feel like I can’t breathe. I started playing old voice texts, and I can’t believe you aren’t here. You feel so close. But you’re gone. I hate this.
Feeling lost and overwhelmed.
Sitting in Starbucks.
Missing you more than anything.
Sitting in Starbucks.
Missing you more than anything.
August 4, 2025 at 8:12 PM
Feeling lost and overwhelmed.
Sitting in Starbucks.
Missing you more than anything.
Sitting in Starbucks.
Missing you more than anything.
I wanted to send you this, but you’ll never see it. Everything feels wrong. Everything is broken. You should be here.
July 23, 2025 at 4:11 AM
I wanted to send you this, but you’ll never see it. Everything feels wrong. Everything is broken. You should be here.
I started scrolling through our Instagram DMs and now I feel like I can’t breathe. I hate this. I miss you so much more than I could ever say.
July 23, 2025 at 4:08 AM
I started scrolling through our Instagram DMs and now I feel like I can’t breathe. I hate this. I miss you so much more than I could ever say.
You should still be here.
July 11, 2025 at 5:44 PM
You should still be here.
I genuinely don’t know what to do with myself. I know I need to sleep, but I can’t and don’t want to. I don’t want to go to sleep and have to wake up and remember again that you’re gone.
July 11, 2025 at 6:29 AM
I genuinely don’t know what to do with myself. I know I need to sleep, but I can’t and don’t want to. I don’t want to go to sleep and have to wake up and remember again that you’re gone.
I miss you more than I’ve ever missed anyone before.
July 11, 2025 at 5:26 AM
I miss you more than I’ve ever missed anyone before.