I wonder if my mom just didn’t want a heavy religious influence on our lives, but also my dad wasn’t religious at all.

Religion in my life is not all that prominent really but present. Some people here have a heavier religious upbringing than I. For me I feel like maybe a generation removed from that…

Guess they like traffic

I got myself in snag, that’s for sure. Not going to say that living with roosters or other things were bad, but they were also loud, and broke my heart into pieces in the end. Maybe I should have just let them die the day my mom threw them out here.

“Stranger Springs.”

Folks adding a new mtn bike trail but no dang bus.

My grandma is nice. And good.

Adamantly against being ruled and consumed by this place. Some will think I am crazy. I must go!

Ah yeah this is good

I understand better than random people do, so… yeah.

Same with driving. Major dentist feeling. Except I like the dentist kind of.

But I also see a trajectory of healing. I don’t have a full understanding of it. Maybe my lack of seeking a better understanding through professionals (mostly of the mental health kind) is kind of rugged, but I also see it like some would see going to the dentist. I don’t like it.

What caused this? I mean, maybe he always been of an anxious, depressive mind… but in the past handful of years I see myself as someone who has experienced some negative developments… one thing leads to another…

Still feel kind of messed up from 1.5 - 2 years ago and I yeah, I mean I wasn’t in the right mind before then really I guess, but days go by and I’ll randomly be like… guess I need therapy or something.