watching it essays with friend at the Airbnb holding back the urge to just bite their arm i need to chew on someone so bad bro

Realise the irony of this after the ssri post, but all they did for me was stop me from feeling anything but minor sadness. A higher dosage would maybe get me to a complete numbess at best. They were were being used as a long term fix by a broken health system.

and then my headphones got caught in my hair and my friend tugged on it and it was a sensory night mare and I'm suddenly extremely aware of how my clothes feel awful on my skin and a h ah aaa

and then we were walking slow and they kept bumping i to me and then everyone was an idiot and decided to wander into the fucking bus lane and I'm crying and I can't stop crying I hate being this way

I've had this desire since like 2007 let me live