This Heart
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Mental health survivor, writing about the love of my life to express thoughts and feelings I have supressed for many years. I'm a deep thinker, an over-thinker. Autistic. Father. Animal Lover.
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Live Moment: Why The Calmness? - https://this-heart.com/s/Z6zCRDps #thisheart
Live Moment: Why The Calmness?
I spoke in my last post of how I have been feeling so calm of late, and feeling good about myself and my feelings for Maddie.
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August 17, 2026 at 1:32 PM
Live Moment: Why The Calmness? - https://this-heart.com/s/Z6zCRDps #thisheart
Calm, Rolling Home - https://this-heart.com/s/xKcs2Fsv #thisheart
Calm, Rolling Home
I've not written in a while.
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August 9, 2026 at 6:29 AM
Calm, Rolling Home - https://this-heart.com/s/xKcs2Fsv #thisheart
After many months of thought, I’ve decided that I will move back to Melbourne. My son and I have been away from family for a long time, and we are both ready.
What that means for when Maddie returns from London, I don’t know.
I haven’t told her yet. She will understand. But it’s scary too…
What that means for when Maddie returns from London, I don’t know.
I haven’t told her yet. She will understand. But it’s scary too…
July 13, 2026 at 7:38 AM
After many months of thought, I’ve decided that I will move back to Melbourne. My son and I have been away from family for a long time, and we are both ready.
What that means for when Maddie returns from London, I don’t know.
I haven’t told her yet. She will understand. But it’s scary too…
What that means for when Maddie returns from London, I don’t know.
I haven’t told her yet. She will understand. But it’s scary too…
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Happy Father's Day 🖤
June 21, 2026 at 7:08 AM
Happy Father's Day 🖤
Look, I know I’m probably biased, but Maddie posted a new profile picture on Facebook last night - and it is fucking gorgeous. More beautiful than the day I met her all those years ago…
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June 10, 2026 at 9:34 PM
Look, I know I’m probably biased, but Maddie posted a new profile picture on Facebook last night - and it is fucking gorgeous. More beautiful than the day I met her all those years ago…
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Music Countdown: Take This Heart - https://this-heart.com/s/t297xBLy #thisheart
Music Countdown: Take This Heart
I'm going to start the 'music coundown' with probably the most obvious song I can relate to this blog.
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May 5, 2026 at 1:52 PM
Music Countdown: Take This Heart - https://this-heart.com/s/t297xBLy #thisheart
Music Countdown: Something New - https://this-heart.com/s/8pwkt3Lc #thisheart
Music Countdown: Something New
I'm going to start something new tonight.
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May 5, 2026 at 12:52 PM
Music Countdown: Something New - https://this-heart.com/s/8pwkt3Lc #thisheart
I’m sure limerence has a lot to with how I feel about Maddie.
Thing is, she still has never said or done a shitty to me, and that’s valuable, but all the others have.
It would be so much easier if she was just bitchy to me like all the others have been.
Tired of being everyone’s second choice…
Thing is, she still has never said or done a shitty to me, and that’s valuable, but all the others have.
It would be so much easier if she was just bitchy to me like all the others have been.
Tired of being everyone’s second choice…
April 9, 2026 at 6:50 AM
I’m sure limerence has a lot to with how I feel about Maddie.
Thing is, she still has never said or done a shitty to me, and that’s valuable, but all the others have.
It would be so much easier if she was just bitchy to me like all the others have been.
Tired of being everyone’s second choice…
Thing is, she still has never said or done a shitty to me, and that’s valuable, but all the others have.
It would be so much easier if she was just bitchy to me like all the others have been.
Tired of being everyone’s second choice…
So tired of this headspace…
March 22, 2026 at 9:47 AM
So tired of this headspace…
Immensely frustrated and lonely tonight…
March 21, 2026 at 7:51 AM
Immensely frustrated and lonely tonight…
Struggle Street - https://this-heart.com/s/6sgoe6pt #thisheart
Struggle Street
There is just too much distance in my life at the moment, and my head is in a lot of different places.
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March 15, 2026 at 1:32 PM
Struggle Street - https://this-heart.com/s/6sgoe6pt #thisheart
Live Moment: Calmer Waters and Red High Heels - https://this-heart.com/s/scSzPV9X #thisheart
Live Moment: Calmer Waters and Red High Heels
I have deliberately not written here for a little while, for just over two months in fact.
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March 5, 2026 at 12:52 PM
Live Moment: Calmer Waters and Red High Heels - https://this-heart.com/s/scSzPV9X #thisheart
I’ve been thinking about moving back to Victoria for a while. My company says they wouldn’t have a problem with me relocating to the Melbourne office.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
February 7, 2026 at 7:34 AM
I’ve been thinking about moving back to Victoria for a while. My company says they wouldn’t have a problem with me relocating to the Melbourne office.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
I think I’m going to do it. Just need to sleep on it a bit before I ultimately decide.
It’ll be nice to be close to family again.
I’m on the way home on a train, and there’s a girl a few rows in front of me who looks so much like Maddie. She’s wearing sunglasses, but otherwise could be her twin.
Hard to see.
Hard to see.
January 15, 2026 at 5:40 AM
I’m on the way home on a train, and there’s a girl a few rows in front of me who looks so much like Maddie. She’s wearing sunglasses, but otherwise could be her twin.
Hard to see.
Hard to see.
Comfortable Places - https://this-heart.com/s/m3Myf0Qx #thisheart
Comfortable Places
Christmas 2025 has been an interesting vibe in my head.
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December 29, 2025 at 11:12 AM
Comfortable Places - https://this-heart.com/s/m3Myf0Qx #thisheart
Struggling with the universe today. And I don’t like hot days. Moving home to Melbourne has its appeal.
December 4, 2025 at 11:46 PM
Struggling with the universe today. And I don’t like hot days. Moving home to Melbourne has its appeal.
Live Moment: Silent Heart - https://this-heart.com/s/NWsdhlr0 #thisheart
Live Moment: Silent Heart
It has been some weeks since I have written.
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December 3, 2025 at 11:52 AM
Live Moment: Silent Heart - https://this-heart.com/s/NWsdhlr0 #thisheart
Oceans Truly Apart - https://this-heart.com/s/4TsJtrxs #thisheart
Oceans Truly Apart
I've spoken previously about how Richard Marx's Right Here Waiting is one of the two main songs in my heart for Maddie, and how I felt it related to us.
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October 25, 2025 at 10:32 AM
Oceans Truly Apart - https://this-heart.com/s/4TsJtrxs #thisheart
A Limerent Question - https://this-heart.com/s/zs3licGR #thisheart
A Limerent Question
It has been a little while since I have written, but I am in a place right now where I need to look inwards toward myself.
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September 27, 2025 at 12:12 PM
A Limerent Question - https://this-heart.com/s/zs3licGR #thisheart
Emotional Dilemma - https://this-heart.com/s/LfwRhm9H #thisheart
Emotional Dilemma
I've been wondering the last couple of weeks whether or not it would be a good idea to just take some time off work, jump on a plane to London and surprise Maddie for her birthday next month.
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August 29, 2025 at 11:22 AM
Emotional Dilemma - https://this-heart.com/s/LfwRhm9H #thisheart
Seriously considering taking some time off work to fly to London to visit Maddie for her birthday next month.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
August 21, 2025 at 1:41 PM
Seriously considering taking some time off work to fly to London to visit Maddie for her birthday next month.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Romantic? Sure.
Good idea? Doubt it.
But I’m still thinking about it.
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes - https://this-heart.com/s/D5gg7Awz #thisheart
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes
As I write this live moment tonight, I'm starting to feel a little better about things.
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August 13, 2025 at 12:02 PM
Live Moment: Those Blue Eyes - https://this-heart.com/s/D5gg7Awz #thisheart
I’m in a really shitty space this morning. Deeply craving a little bit of intimacy. It’s all too hard at the moment.
August 5, 2025 at 9:28 PM
I’m in a really shitty space this morning. Deeply craving a little bit of intimacy. It’s all too hard at the moment.
Lost In Conversation - https://this-heart.com/s/N99av5Tn #thisheart
Lost In Conversation
It has just gone 8pm in Eastern Australia, and just past 11am in London.
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August 3, 2025 at 10:52 AM
Lost In Conversation - https://this-heart.com/s/N99av5Tn #thisheart