Toxie
@toxelotl.bsky.social
just a baby full of poison & lightning ⚡☠️
Artist to the inner child of a ~30yo x she/her x demi x AuDHD'er
Artist to the inner child of a ~30yo x she/her x demi x AuDHD'er
Pinned
Feel too much guilt & remorse to be a socio/psychopath
Don't care enough about what other people think of me to be a narcissist
I'm just your run-of-the-mill late diagnosed Autistic w/ C-PTSD & ADHD to boot.
I'm really not that interesting.
Just out here fighting for my life like erryone else
Don't care enough about what other people think of me to be a narcissist
I'm just your run-of-the-mill late diagnosed Autistic w/ C-PTSD & ADHD to boot.
I'm really not that interesting.
Just out here fighting for my life like erryone else
March 2, 2026 at 5:20 AM
Feel too much guilt & remorse to be a socio/psychopath
Don't care enough about what other people think of me to be a narcissist
I'm just your run-of-the-mill late diagnosed Autistic w/ C-PTSD & ADHD to boot.
I'm really not that interesting.
Just out here fighting for my life like erryone else
Don't care enough about what other people think of me to be a narcissist
I'm just your run-of-the-mill late diagnosed Autistic w/ C-PTSD & ADHD to boot.
I'm really not that interesting.
Just out here fighting for my life like erryone else
he only liked me 'cause i stroked his ego
this whole thing makes me feel physically sick 🤢
this whole thing makes me feel physically sick 🤢
March 2, 2026 at 5:02 AM
he only liked me 'cause i stroked his ego
this whole thing makes me feel physically sick 🤢
this whole thing makes me feel physically sick 🤢
listen to tokio hotel & scrreeeeeam~
March 2, 2026 at 1:56 AM
listen to tokio hotel & scrreeeeeam~
If you find that you are exercising 'benefit of the doubt' more often than not with one particular person, it may be time to assess the 'detriment of the trust'
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March 2, 2026 at 1:33 AM
If you find that you are exercising 'benefit of the doubt' more often than not with one particular person, it may be time to assess the 'detriment of the trust'
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I always stop myself from doing anything meaningful with my art, & i could never bring myself to try & be part of the artist communities bc honestly my self doubt wants me dead
I don't think I'm bad at art, i just don't think I'm very good either.
But i enjoy creating.
& i wanna be ok with that.
I don't think I'm bad at art, i just don't think I'm very good either.
But i enjoy creating.
& i wanna be ok with that.
March 2, 2026 at 1:02 AM
I always stop myself from doing anything meaningful with my art, & i could never bring myself to try & be part of the artist communities bc honestly my self doubt wants me dead
I don't think I'm bad at art, i just don't think I'm very good either.
But i enjoy creating.
& i wanna be ok with that.
I don't think I'm bad at art, i just don't think I'm very good either.
But i enjoy creating.
& i wanna be ok with that.
i thought i was a snorlax but im actually just a toxel who needs a snorlax to protect me💜
March 2, 2026 at 12:24 AM
i thought i was a snorlax but im actually just a toxel who needs a snorlax to protect me💜
I can see you trying to convince yourself & anyone who will listen that you're being the bigger person here.. and it's not working.
How embarrassing for you 😬
How embarrassing for you 😬
February 12, 2026 at 7:16 AM
I can see you trying to convince yourself & anyone who will listen that you're being the bigger person here.. and it's not working.
How embarrassing for you 😬
How embarrassing for you 😬
"sHes CrAzy!", boy- guess who drove her there
February 12, 2026 at 2:22 AM
"sHes CrAzy!", boy- guess who drove her there
I should've ignored your email
I should've ignored you following my account
I should've ignored your threats, call/dms/posts
I should've ignored your smear campaign
I should've ignored Jerett creeping on my profile
I should've ignored your lies
I should've just ignored you when you ignored me
I should've ignored you following my account
I should've ignored your threats, call/dms/posts
I should've ignored your smear campaign
I should've ignored Jerett creeping on my profile
I should've ignored your lies
I should've just ignored you when you ignored me
December 19, 2025 at 2:11 PM
I should've ignored your email
I should've ignored you following my account
I should've ignored your threats, call/dms/posts
I should've ignored your smear campaign
I should've ignored Jerett creeping on my profile
I should've ignored your lies
I should've just ignored you when you ignored me
I should've ignored you following my account
I should've ignored your threats, call/dms/posts
I should've ignored your smear campaign
I should've ignored Jerett creeping on my profile
I should've ignored your lies
I should've just ignored you when you ignored me
Mad anxiety when i decide to leave this handle bc my brain associates the last time I stopped using this account name with my ex threatening me and even though he's just done a bit of light stalking and otherwise left me alone since feb, i can't stop my body from wanting to set itself on fire.
December 19, 2025 at 5:03 AM
Mad anxiety when i decide to leave this handle bc my brain associates the last time I stopped using this account name with my ex threatening me and even though he's just done a bit of light stalking and otherwise left me alone since feb, i can't stop my body from wanting to set itself on fire.
There was such a long list of circumstances keeping me from getting my meds & every time I overcame one issue a new one'd arise
I got so fed up & ready to fight, steal, whatever to get my meds
But then all of the issues solved themselves within seconds of me being at the end of my rope
Weird day
I got so fed up & ready to fight, steal, whatever to get my meds
But then all of the issues solved themselves within seconds of me being at the end of my rope
Weird day
December 17, 2025 at 7:10 AM
There was such a long list of circumstances keeping me from getting my meds & every time I overcame one issue a new one'd arise
I got so fed up & ready to fight, steal, whatever to get my meds
But then all of the issues solved themselves within seconds of me being at the end of my rope
Weird day
I got so fed up & ready to fight, steal, whatever to get my meds
But then all of the issues solved themselves within seconds of me being at the end of my rope
Weird day
One unforeseen symptom of accidentally going cold turkey off my meds is every now and then I have heart palpitations and a tiny man living inside my ears shakes his maracas
Always only twice, per palpitation 🪇
The man has rhythm.
Always only twice, per palpitation 🪇
The man has rhythm.
December 16, 2025 at 1:08 PM
One unforeseen symptom of accidentally going cold turkey off my meds is every now and then I have heart palpitations and a tiny man living inside my ears shakes his maracas
Always only twice, per palpitation 🪇
The man has rhythm.
Always only twice, per palpitation 🪇
The man has rhythm.
It's real difficult to miss someone that always kept me at arms length anyway
I feel horrible for admitting that but it's true
If you avoid plans & people all the time there's nothing to miss bc you were never really there to begin with
I feel horrible for admitting that but it's true
If you avoid plans & people all the time there's nothing to miss bc you were never really there to begin with
December 15, 2025 at 9:37 PM
It's real difficult to miss someone that always kept me at arms length anyway
I feel horrible for admitting that but it's true
If you avoid plans & people all the time there's nothing to miss bc you were never really there to begin with
I feel horrible for admitting that but it's true
If you avoid plans & people all the time there's nothing to miss bc you were never really there to begin with
'eres a gold medal for ur issues 🏅
if it makes you feel better bayy-beh 😘
(doesit, feel? bet-tah? bay-beeehh? 😔)
👂🪱 ♫ 🔁🧠 ♪ 🙂↕️🤟
if it makes you feel better bayy-beh 😘
(doesit, feel? bet-tah? bay-beeehh? 😔)
👂🪱 ♫ 🔁🧠 ♪ 🙂↕️🤟
James the Seventh - Trauma Olympics (Live Version)
YouTube video by James the Seventh
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December 15, 2025 at 12:07 PM
'eres a gold medal for ur issues 🏅
if it makes you feel better bayy-beh 😘
(doesit, feel? bet-tah? bay-beeehh? 😔)
👂🪱 ♫ 🔁🧠 ♪ 🙂↕️🤟
if it makes you feel better bayy-beh 😘
(doesit, feel? bet-tah? bay-beeehh? 😔)
👂🪱 ♫ 🔁🧠 ♪ 🙂↕️🤟
It's true, all you need *is* love.
Damn.
Damn.
December 15, 2025 at 4:43 AM
It's true, all you need *is* love.
Damn.
Damn.
When i see a lost dog on the street I always pull over & try to get it home again
I suppose some people think that's a foolish thing to do
I suppose some people think that's a foolish thing to do
December 15, 2025 at 1:13 AM
When i see a lost dog on the street I always pull over & try to get it home again
I suppose some people think that's a foolish thing to do
I suppose some people think that's a foolish thing to do
Do we think i can hold it together for another week while im off meds?
Not looking good tbh 😬
Hahahahahahahahahahaaaa...
Hah.
Fuck.
Not looking good tbh 😬
Hahahahahahahahahahaaaa...
Hah.
Fuck.
December 15, 2025 at 12:17 AM
Do we think i can hold it together for another week while im off meds?
Not looking good tbh 😬
Hahahahahahahahahahaaaa...
Hah.
Fuck.
Not looking good tbh 😬
Hahahahahahahahahahaaaa...
Hah.
Fuck.
Its only human to want your pain validated by the person who caused it
All i needed was an apology
All i needed was an apology
December 14, 2025 at 12:37 PM
Its only human to want your pain validated by the person who caused it
All i needed was an apology
All i needed was an apology
Reposted by Toxie
Flickering in and out of someone else's false reality is a fucking trip
& I didn't have time to pack a suitcase
& I didn't have time to pack a suitcase
December 12, 2025 at 12:40 PM
Flickering in and out of someone else's false reality is a fucking trip
& I didn't have time to pack a suitcase
& I didn't have time to pack a suitcase
I did finish the painting :3
Aaaaa
Aaaaa
December 12, 2025 at 1:58 AM
I did finish the painting :3
Aaaaa
Aaaaa
I *will* finish my painting today
I *will* get back on my meds (whoops)
I *will* sleep well tonight
😮💨
I *will* get back on my meds (whoops)
I *will* sleep well tonight
😮💨
December 11, 2025 at 4:47 AM
I *will* finish my painting today
I *will* get back on my meds (whoops)
I *will* sleep well tonight
😮💨
I *will* get back on my meds (whoops)
I *will* sleep well tonight
😮💨