one unexpected part of starting this account is realizing i actually like having somewhere that nobody already knows me.

i've spent more time planning for this little side project than i expected.

the funny part is i'm actually having fun with it.

it's kind of funny how quickly something that felt really uncomfortable to post about is starting to feel normal.

apparently i just needed somewhere to actually talk about it.

i'm realizing i picked a pretty weird time in my life to start being more comfortable with my body.

better late than never i guess.

i bought something online at 11pm last night and apparently daytime me is just going to have to deal with whatever nighttime me thought was necessary.

i swear september showed up out of nowhere.

i'm not complaining though. fall is easily the best time of year.

i'm realizing that documenting the "before" probably shouldn't just mean surgery updates and serious posts.

i've only got this version of my body for so long. might as well have a little fun with it while it's still mine 👀

One thing I've been thinking about a lot is how strange it feels knowing this version of my body has an expiration date.

I've spent so much time thinking about what comes next that I don't think I've stopped to appreciate what I have now.

Maybe documenting this will change that a little.

I keep thinking about how strange it's going to be to look back at this version of me a year from now.

I don't really know what this is going to turn into yet, but I think that's part of why I wanted to document it.

I've been thinking about documenting this for a while, and I finally decided to just go for it.

A lot is going to change over the next year. Some of it I've been waiting a very long time for, and some of it I'm still trying to wrap my head around.

So I'm starting here, before any of it happens.