voiveli
@voiveli.bsky.social
posting who knows what, venting about stuff that haunts my brain..
been visiting my sister for three days, going home today. I have an unopened message from Kela waiting, my guts are stirring.. I'm so tired of being afraid
April 8, 2026 at 8:21 AM
been visiting my sister for three days, going home today. I have an unopened message from Kela waiting, my guts are stirring.. I'm so tired of being afraid
feeling jealous over people who've bought themself an apartment or are building themself a home, while we're forced to move to a small apartment after living here less than 6 months.. the new place is cheaper but with lots of restrictions about how we're allowed to decorate which is upsetting..
April 5, 2026 at 2:45 PM
feeling jealous over people who've bought themself an apartment or are building themself a home, while we're forced to move to a small apartment after living here less than 6 months.. the new place is cheaper but with lots of restrictions about how we're allowed to decorate which is upsetting..
Kiitos jollekulle joka tuli Kupliiseen kipeenä, nappasin sieltä jonku yskäräkäköhä-ruton ja oon viimeset 3pv maannu sohvan pohjalla :)
April 3, 2026 at 2:37 PM
Kiitos jollekulle joka tuli Kupliiseen kipeenä, nappasin sieltä jonku yskäräkäköhä-ruton ja oon viimeset 3pv maannu sohvan pohjalla :)
We moved 5 months ago. Now... we're moving again. It'll be a downgrade from what we have, but we can no longer afford it thanks to Kela. The new place will still be nice.. We'll make it nice. I'm just exhausted.
March 31, 2026 at 5:00 PM
We moved 5 months ago. Now... we're moving again. It'll be a downgrade from what we have, but we can no longer afford it thanks to Kela. The new place will still be nice.. We'll make it nice. I'm just exhausted.
feeling jealous of others who can do the things I want to but my health won't let me
March 10, 2026 at 11:57 AM
feeling jealous of others who can do the things I want to but my health won't let me
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i ❣️ bodily autonomy
March 1, 2026 at 9:23 PM
i ❣️ bodily autonomy
Wonderful time to start new meds, it seems like i'm getting a flu or smth :( sign of spring huh
March 6, 2026 at 9:38 AM
Wonderful time to start new meds, it seems like i'm getting a flu or smth :( sign of spring huh
got prescriped new meds again, if these won't work there's no more meds left that would work for me.. all that's left after meds is transcranial magnetic stimulation and after that either electric or ketamine treatments :) haven't had depression this severe in years so it all feels a bit much
March 5, 2026 at 9:36 AM
got prescriped new meds again, if these won't work there's no more meds left that would work for me.. all that's left after meds is transcranial magnetic stimulation and after that either electric or ketamine treatments :) haven't had depression this severe in years so it all feels a bit much
trying to be really brave today and leave the apartment and see people!! I can't mask as well as I usually do so i'm pretty sure people will notice how exhausted I am.. but oh well.. atleast i'm trying
February 19, 2026 at 12:09 PM
trying to be really brave today and leave the apartment and see people!! I can't mask as well as I usually do so i'm pretty sure people will notice how exhausted I am.. but oh well.. atleast i'm trying
Got prescriped even more new meds, this time they're meant for epilepsy but they work for anxiety disorder as well. I've been really unwell after we lost Riemu, her death really left me feeling empty and everything turned cold. I'm stuck feeling like i'm constantly being chased by someone..
February 18, 2026 at 2:35 PM
Got prescriped even more new meds, this time they're meant for epilepsy but they work for anxiety disorder as well. I've been really unwell after we lost Riemu, her death really left me feeling empty and everything turned cold. I'm stuck feeling like i'm constantly being chased by someone..
Idk if I like these meds or not, last night I had the third night in a row with barely any sleep because I felt so restless while laying in bed, bUT I have gotten shit done... I just.. don't really enjoy being alive at all. I'm turning into a robot.
January 20, 2026 at 6:00 PM
Idk if I like these meds or not, last night I had the third night in a row with barely any sleep because I felt so restless while laying in bed, bUT I have gotten shit done... I just.. don't really enjoy being alive at all. I'm turning into a robot.
I haven't updated about my current med situation - but.. I am now going through a MANIC EPISODE! Idk what to tell you, my body is exhausted but my brain refuses to chill. I keep moving like someone is poking my ass with a pitch fork. I don't feel like myself at ALL! Great pills doc.
January 19, 2026 at 2:34 PM
I haven't updated about my current med situation - but.. I am now going through a MANIC EPISODE! Idk what to tell you, my body is exhausted but my brain refuses to chill. I keep moving like someone is poking my ass with a pitch fork. I don't feel like myself at ALL! Great pills doc.
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January 12, 2026 at 8:03 PM
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I upped my new meds dosage yesterday, and I actually slept. Had dreams, not nightmares.. but.. I am barely awake despite getting up three hours ago.. I'm dissociating real bad, I was insanely grumpy when I forced myself to get out of bed, and was fuming with rage. Now, I can't feel a thing.
January 10, 2026 at 12:10 PM
I upped my new meds dosage yesterday, and I actually slept. Had dreams, not nightmares.. but.. I am barely awake despite getting up three hours ago.. I'm dissociating real bad, I was insanely grumpy when I forced myself to get out of bed, and was fuming with rage. Now, I can't feel a thing.
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This night I had dreams again, one was a nightmare but the second one was just me walking the dogs during summer near a lake. So I did actually sleep more, waking up less. Huh. That's pretty cool I guess.
January 9, 2026 at 8:10 AM
This night I had dreams again, one was a nightmare but the second one was just me walking the dogs during summer near a lake. So I did actually sleep more, waking up less. Huh. That's pretty cool I guess.
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First night with the new meds, I don't even know how to describe it.. it felt like I didn't sleep, it felt like I was just laying in bed the whole night while hearing voices coming from around my room.. like, walking, talking, sudden screams.. idk what to think of it🧍♂️
January 8, 2026 at 8:10 AM
First night with the new meds, I don't even know how to describe it.. it felt like I didn't sleep, it felt like I was just laying in bed the whole night while hearing voices coming from around my room.. like, walking, talking, sudden screams.. idk what to think of it🧍♂️
They switched my meds again, and now i'm forced to stop multiple previous meds as well as the ones they prescribed me last time😐 Well.. we'll see how the new ones treat my brain!
January 7, 2026 at 6:26 PM
They switched my meds again, and now i'm forced to stop multiple previous meds as well as the ones they prescribed me last time😐 Well.. we'll see how the new ones treat my brain!
Feels like i'm starting to get numb to nightmares, they've been going on for over a month now.. Last night I drowned in a tar pit, in another night I had to watch my granma die again, third one had a massive thunder storm that caused humanity to regress hundreds of years and I was burned alive :)👍
January 7, 2026 at 9:14 AM
Feels like i'm starting to get numb to nightmares, they've been going on for over a month now.. Last night I drowned in a tar pit, in another night I had to watch my granma die again, third one had a massive thunder storm that caused humanity to regress hundreds of years and I was burned alive :)👍
I still haven't slept one full night. Last night I woke up four times, to my heart pounding so loud I thought I was having a heart attack. It scared me so bad I was afraid to fall back asleep..💀 Meeting with the acute healthcare tomorrow, we'll see what they think of my "progress" ...
January 6, 2026 at 7:46 PM
I still haven't slept one full night. Last night I woke up four times, to my heart pounding so loud I thought I was having a heart attack. It scared me so bad I was afraid to fall back asleep..💀 Meeting with the acute healthcare tomorrow, we'll see what they think of my "progress" ...
I woke up with the worst brain fog i've ever had, nothing feels real, i'm looking at myself from a distance, every movement I make lags, my vision keeps unfocusing and I feel i'm loosing my mind.. not sure if this new medication is working for me🙂
January 3, 2026 at 11:38 AM
I woke up with the worst brain fog i've ever had, nothing feels real, i'm looking at myself from a distance, every movement I make lags, my vision keeps unfocusing and I feel i'm loosing my mind.. not sure if this new medication is working for me🙂