Artists are especially good at torturing themselves. What's funny is when that torture is manifested from seemingly enjoyable, maladaptive daydreaming.

On a more positive note, I'm seeing a lot of synchronicities. I just love them. The weirdness, joy, and disbelief of their occurence is good enough on their own. They always manage to surprise me with novelty.

After a lot of backtracking and just overall messiness, I finished one bracelet. I might need better thread. It's a gnarly, slightly unraveling, little thing.. which I guess is an accurate reflection of me. Hopefully I can make a better one for its counterpart. 🥲

I feel like both me and my partner need better social connections. I might be feeling it more. Our plans with friends always get cancelled, and they are unresponsive to most texts. I'm just so tired of trying. It's always been like this.

My partner keeps bringing up how much they don't want me to bring in a 'third person'. It came up out of the blue recently without any implication on my part. They said they had a nightmare about it. Meanwhile, I'm having positive dreams about the same thing. It's like they picked up on the vibe. 💀

It is so hard to stop thinking about a sigil or outcome. Even if it's something silly and inconsequential. Maybe I should look into magick that works with adhd.

I have friends, I have a partner.. but someone is missing from my life, and I'm struggling to navigate how to broach the subject or even beging to seek them out.

Spent a lot of time prepping everything for my first spell, being an anxious perfectionist. Then I pulled a tarot card before I started, The Hanged Man. So I'm not moving forward right now. Everything seems to be telling me to hold off.

My profile picture glitched when uploaded. I'm just going to accept that.