partner got a new computer so i'm getting their hand-me-down, upgrading my 12 yr old PC to a 5 yr old one haha...

i'm glad i know JUST enough about computers to swap out all the parts that they needed and fix some of the parts that came loose during shipping... sometimes i'm a smart dog..

a little Star. for your consideration

training module for work that had coffee tasting and i’m the only one at my store that got tasting notes right 😤 IM GOOD AT MY JOB……

my saving grace in a lot of the commission regret is that i didn't take payment for anything i didn't finish, which i know is very bad practice LMAO but i at least had the foresight to know that i Might have a problem doing this. i've learned a lot at least, know how to approach it now...

i hate hate hate hate being “the furry that takes a year+ to do a commission” lmfao and the worst part is, like… i thought about it EVERY day. and when i would try and get stressed it’s “not good enough” i would finally draw SOMETHING else “as warmup” but feel guilty and then and then and then…

i think That is one of the biggest struggles i’ve had with commissions is like, i get in my head of needing to deliver a ✨perfect✨ thing and getting in my head that it doesn’t compare to my other work and oh god it’s BAD but they PAID for it and then i lock up and dont draw for 6+ months lol

i know this is a pretty standard experience for people but for the looooongest time, i’ve struggled with acknowledging that like… the stuff i make is good and can be enjoyed. and perfection is a stupid dumb goal that is actually unattainable, because what i make is what i make!!!

wagging excitedly…. i like makin stuff… i like when stuff i make gets attention…

not that i need to 'prove' anything but i at least Drew yesterday haha

big curry dinner helped…. full hearts

gave myself a big headache from crying so much today… i intend to remedy this by wearing a big blanket and drawing all day tomorro

i *like* teaching people, but work has basically been hiring people and skipping their training in a kind of “takes a village” situation and while i’m generally okay with that, i got a closing shift with two new people and it’s driving me a little crazy lmao

i’ve been very frustrated with myself recently. a little bit of imposter syndrome, a little but feeling like i’m going to be “replaced” or that i’m not wanted. i know a lot of it isn’t true. at least i think i do haha. idk i’ve spent all my free time at work today mad and crying and i don’t know why

awful day the second i step into work lmao. i was gonna list everything making me sad but it’s just! everything!!!!!

OH i can post all my Battle Network screenshots here haha
if you’ve ever played mmbn you’re automatically my friend

ok i mentioned it on main but if you haven't listened to the FDS pls give a listen: youtu.be/UlI8xcPDS5Q?...