Four days of being present. Then someone offered me chems.
Every instinct screamed yes.
I said no.
Not a cure. Not a perfect recovery. Just one promise kept when nobody was watching.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 35: BREAKTHROUGH
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Every instinct screamed yes.
I said no.
Not a cure. Not a perfect recovery. Just one promise kept when nobody was watching.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 35: BREAKTHROUGH
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October 31, 2026 at 8:50 PM
Four days of being present. Then someone offered me chems.
Every instinct screamed yes.
I said no.
Not a cure. Not a perfect recovery. Just one promise kept when nobody was watching.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 35: BREAKTHROUGH
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Every instinct screamed yes.
I said no.
Not a cure. Not a perfect recovery. Just one promise kept when nobody was watching.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 35: BREAKTHROUGH
members.spotify.com/to/brolapse
I returned to the place where addiction had humiliated me.
This time, I showed up. Four days present, laughing, filming, and finally feeling like myself.
Not a cure. A breakthrough.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 35: BREAKTHROUGH
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This time, I showed up. Four days present, laughing, filming, and finally feeling like myself.
Not a cure. A breakthrough.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 35: BREAKTHROUGH
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October 31, 2026 at 8:47 PM
I returned to the place where addiction had humiliated me.
This time, I showed up. Four days present, laughing, filming, and finally feeling like myself.
Not a cure. A breakthrough.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 35: BREAKTHROUGH
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This time, I showed up. Four days present, laughing, filming, and finally feeling like myself.
Not a cure. A breakthrough.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 35: BREAKTHROUGH
members.spotify.com/to/brolapse
Had major technical difficulties with Brolapse tonight, so this weeks episode with @DaddyDogDriller is gonna be a week late. I’ll be filming an AMA tomorrow to make sure you guys have an episode 🖤
October 31, 2026 at 5:11 AM
Had major technical difficulties with Brolapse tonight, so this weeks episode with @DaddyDogDriller is gonna be a week late. I’ll be filming an AMA tomorrow to make sure you guys have an episode 🖤
Fist-Book-Club pick #3 📚
Ryan James Abraham, known as @hungerff.bsky.social , has written a book about the man behind the persona: Deeper: An Anti-Memoir.
Ryan James Abraham: Creator and performer known as HungerFF, working in fetish porn since 2007. Host of the podcast Brolapse.
Ryan James Abraham, known as @hungerff.bsky.social , has written a book about the man behind the persona: Deeper: An Anti-Memoir.
Ryan James Abraham: Creator and performer known as HungerFF, working in fetish porn since 2007. Host of the podcast Brolapse.
October 30, 2026 at 4:30 PM
Fist-Book-Club pick #3 📚
Ryan James Abraham, known as @hungerff.bsky.social , has written a book about the man behind the persona: Deeper: An Anti-Memoir.
Ryan James Abraham: Creator and performer known as HungerFF, working in fetish porn since 2007. Host of the podcast Brolapse.
Ryan James Abraham, known as @hungerff.bsky.social , has written a book about the man behind the persona: Deeper: An Anti-Memoir.
Ryan James Abraham: Creator and performer known as HungerFF, working in fetish porn since 2007. Host of the podcast Brolapse.
36 years on oil rigs, early retirement at 55, and a rugby team that said: you know what you should do with that body. His Rentmen profile got its first booking before the bio was done. @daddydogdriller.bsky.social on Brolapse 111, Friday 8 PM. Full version on Spotify. 🌹🐷👊🏻
October 27, 2026 at 4:28 AM
36 years on oil rigs, early retirement at 55, and a rugby team that said: you know what you should do with that body. His Rentmen profile got its first booking before the bio was done. @daddydogdriller.bsky.social on Brolapse 111, Friday 8 PM. Full version on Spotify. 🌹🐷👊🏻
I’m releasing my full Brolapse pod interview with @hungerff.bsky.social on my JFF tomorrow for my ‘Cubby’s Lil Peaches.’ If you haven’t seen/heard this yet I am so proud of it and really enjoyed talking with my him. This is a clip of when we discussed that moment he dubbed me ‘lil bro’
October 23, 2026 at 2:16 AM
I’m releasing my full Brolapse pod interview with @hungerff.bsky.social on my JFF tomorrow for my ‘Cubby’s Lil Peaches.’ If you haven’t seen/heard this yet I am so proud of it and really enjoyed talking with my him. This is a clip of when we discussed that moment he dubbed me ‘lil bro’
“My body broke open before my heart could finish healing.”
After years of emotional chaos, March 20, 2025 changed everything.
Now I'm telling the story from the other side.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 34: BURST — LIVE NOW
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After years of emotional chaos, March 20, 2025 changed everything.
Now I'm telling the story from the other side.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 34: BURST — LIVE NOW
Premium: FREE 7-day trial.
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October 22, 2026 at 3:08 AM
“My body broke open before my heart could finish healing.”
After years of emotional chaos, March 20, 2025 changed everything.
Now I'm telling the story from the other side.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 34: BURST — LIVE NOW
Premium: FREE 7-day trial.
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After years of emotional chaos, March 20, 2025 changed everything.
Now I'm telling the story from the other side.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 34: BURST — LIVE NOW
Premium: FREE 7-day trial.
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March 20, 2025: My colon perforated. I woke up with a colostomy bag, convinced my career was over.
Now, after a successful reversal, I'm telling the story.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 34: BURST — LIVE NOW
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Now, after a successful reversal, I'm telling the story.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 34: BURST — LIVE NOW
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October 22, 2026 at 3:28 AM
March 20, 2025: My colon perforated. I woke up with a colostomy bag, convinced my career was over.
Now, after a successful reversal, I'm telling the story.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 34: BURST — LIVE NOW
🎁 Premium: FREE 7-day trial!
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Now, after a successful reversal, I'm telling the story.
💥 DEEPER Ch. 34: BURST — LIVE NOW
🎁 Premium: FREE 7-day trial!
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Two weeks post-op, no pain, and one piece of advice: be honest with your surgeon about your play life. If I hadn’t been, he’d have taken three feet of my colon. Ep 109 of Brolapse is out now. Dr. Elie Schochet, South Florida Colorectal Institute, 954-573-1499 🌹🐷👊🏻
October 17, 2026 at 2:58 AM
Two weeks post-op, no pain, and one piece of advice: be honest with your surgeon about your play life. If I hadn’t been, he’d have taken three feet of my colon. Ep 109 of Brolapse is out now. Dr. Elie Schochet, South Florida Colorectal Institute, 954-573-1499 🌹🐷👊🏻
My colon came back to life and I felt it. Electricity, pressure, and noises I can’t repeat. My surgeon says the two ends start fusing before the surgery’s even done. Ep 109 of Brolapse drops tonight. Dr. Elie Schochet, South Florida Colorectal Institute, 954-573-1499 🌹🐷👊🏻
October 16, 2026 at 10:10 PM
My colon came back to life and I felt it. Electricity, pressure, and noises I can’t repeat. My surgeon says the two ends start fusing before the surgery’s even done. Ep 109 of Brolapse drops tonight. Dr. Elie Schochet, South Florida Colorectal Institute, 954-573-1499 🌹🐷👊🏻
Woke up from surgery to hear “virtually no scar tissue.” Three feet inside of me, and I still can’t figure out how I did that to myself. Healthy future confirmed. Ep 109 of Brolapse drops tonight. My surgeon: Dr. Elie Schochet, South Florida Colorectal Institute, 954-573-1499 🌹🐷👊🏻
October 16, 2026 at 10:02 PM
Woke up from surgery to hear “virtually no scar tissue.” Three feet inside of me, and I still can’t figure out how I did that to myself. Healthy future confirmed. Ep 109 of Brolapse drops tonight. My surgeon: Dr. Elie Schochet, South Florida Colorectal Institute, 954-573-1499 🌹🐷👊🏻
Two weeks post-op and back in one piece. Ep 109 of Brolapse drops tonight: gas pain that had me screaming, my colon coming back online like a power grid, and the first fart in two years. Uncensored on Spotify. My surgeon: Dr. Elie Schochet, South Florida Colorectal Institute, 954-573-1499 🌹🐷👊🏻
October 16, 2026 at 9:47 PM
Two weeks post-op and back in one piece. Ep 109 of Brolapse drops tonight: gas pain that had me screaming, my colon coming back online like a power grid, and the first fart in two years. Uncensored on Spotify. My surgeon: Dr. Elie Schochet, South Florida Colorectal Institute, 954-573-1499 🌹🐷👊🏻
Brolapse goes live during Florida Leather Week. 🎙️
Wed, Nov 11
6:30 PM Brolapse Live @ the Eagle Wilton Manors
8 PM Red Hanky Social @ the Eagle
10 PM Afterparty @ 321 Slammer
Cohosted by NYC's Alotta McGriddles, @wreckeditralph.bsky.social, closing the show with a live drag set. Guests soon!
🌹🐷👊🏻
Wed, Nov 11
6:30 PM Brolapse Live @ the Eagle Wilton Manors
8 PM Red Hanky Social @ the Eagle
10 PM Afterparty @ 321 Slammer
Cohosted by NYC's Alotta McGriddles, @wreckeditralph.bsky.social, closing the show with a live drag set. Guests soon!
🌹🐷👊🏻
October 15, 2026 at 10:36 PM
Brolapse goes live during Florida Leather Week. 🎙️
Wed, Nov 11
6:30 PM Brolapse Live @ the Eagle Wilton Manors
8 PM Red Hanky Social @ the Eagle
10 PM Afterparty @ 321 Slammer
Cohosted by NYC's Alotta McGriddles, @wreckeditralph.bsky.social, closing the show with a live drag set. Guests soon!
🌹🐷👊🏻
Wed, Nov 11
6:30 PM Brolapse Live @ the Eagle Wilton Manors
8 PM Red Hanky Social @ the Eagle
10 PM Afterparty @ 321 Slammer
Cohosted by NYC's Alotta McGriddles, @wreckeditralph.bsky.social, closing the show with a live drag set. Guests soon!
🌹🐷👊🏻
Teagan hit 10K followers and celebrated with the biggest size they make. Then admitted it's not even the go-to anymore. This week on Brolapse, Friday at 8 PM EST. Full uncensored episode on Spotify.
creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
🌹🐷👊🏻
creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
🌹🐷👊🏻
October 9, 2026 at 2:34 AM
Teagan hit 10K followers and celebrated with the biggest size they make. Then admitted it's not even the go-to anymore. This week on Brolapse, Friday at 8 PM EST. Full uncensored episode on Spotify.
creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
🌹🐷👊🏻
creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
🌹🐷👊🏻
Brolapse Ep 106 is live with @loganbell.bsky.social: the meat tenderizer origin story and how he built Hand Ball in Chicago. Free Radio Edit on every platform, full uncensored ep for Spotify subscribers: open.spotify.com/episode/2KiI... 🌹🐷👊🏻
September 26, 2026 at 7:05 PM
Brolapse Ep 106 is live with @loganbell.bsky.social: the meat tenderizer origin story and how he built Hand Ball in Chicago. Free Radio Edit on every platform, full uncensored ep for Spotify subscribers: open.spotify.com/episode/2KiI... 🌹🐷👊🏻
@loganbell.bsky.social built HandBall from a couple of borrowed slings into a room of 100+ people. 19 parties, 20 months, never a loss. We get into all of it, plus the Oxballs retweet that named him. Brolapse Ep 106, Friday 8 PM EST. Full uncensored ep on Spotify creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
September 26, 2026 at 12:26 AM
@loganbell.bsky.social built HandBall from a couple of borrowed slings into a room of 100+ people. 19 parties, 20 months, never a loss. We get into all of it, plus the Oxballs retweet that named him. Brolapse Ep 106, Friday 8 PM EST. Full uncensored ep on Spotify creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
@loganbell.bsky.social gave women, trans, and non-binary players two hours of their own at Hand Ball. Most of them stayed all night. Brolapse Ep 106, Friday 8 PM EST. Full uncensored ep on Spotify: creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro... 🌹🐷👊🏻
September 24, 2026 at 7:51 PM
@loganbell.bsky.social gave women, trans, and non-binary players two hours of their own at Hand Ball. Most of them stayed all night. Brolapse Ep 106, Friday 8 PM EST. Full uncensored ep on Spotify: creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro... 🌹🐷👊🏻
@loganbell.bsky.social always knew it was for him. Then bottom shame took the wheel for most of his twenties. Here's how he got it back. Brolapse Ep 106, Friday 8 PM EST. Full uncensored ep on Spotify: creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro... 🌹🐷👊🏻
September 24, 2026 at 12:22 AM
@loganbell.bsky.social always knew it was for him. Then bottom shame took the wheel for most of his twenties. Here's how he got it back. Brolapse Ep 106, Friday 8 PM EST. Full uncensored ep on Spotify: creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro... 🌹🐷👊🏻
I’m not proud of this chapter. But it belongs to me.
Because the only thing worse than being seen at your lowest is pretending it never happened.
📹 DEEPER: The Audiobook
CHAPTER 29 — EXPOSED
🎧 Listen now & subscribe to Brolapse on Spotify:
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Because the only thing worse than being seen at your lowest is pretending it never happened.
📹 DEEPER: The Audiobook
CHAPTER 29 — EXPOSED
🎧 Listen now & subscribe to Brolapse on Spotify:
creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
September 15, 2026 at 8:58 PM
I’m not proud of this chapter. But it belongs to me.
Because the only thing worse than being seen at your lowest is pretending it never happened.
📹 DEEPER: The Audiobook
CHAPTER 29 — EXPOSED
🎧 Listen now & subscribe to Brolapse on Spotify:
creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
Because the only thing worse than being seen at your lowest is pretending it never happened.
📹 DEEPER: The Audiobook
CHAPTER 29 — EXPOSED
🎧 Listen now & subscribe to Brolapse on Spotify:
creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Bro...
