#XiYaoMonth2020 #emhdd
it does have a happy golden ending, time and grace willing, and they all heal
but it's a rough road
but that's why we love it
that's why we need it
if you cut us we bleed
i'm looking forward to playlist day
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y20QMaR1d-g
it does have a happy golden ending, time and grace willing, and they all heal
but it's a rough road
but that's why we love it
that's why we need it
if you cut us we bleed
i'm looking forward to playlist day
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y20QMaR1d-g
November 24, 2024 at 12:01 AM
#XiYaoMonth2020 #emhdd
it does have a happy golden ending, time and grace willing, and they all heal
but it's a rough road
but that's why we love it
that's why we need it
if you cut us we bleed
i'm looking forward to playlist day
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y20QMaR1d-g
it does have a happy golden ending, time and grace willing, and they all heal
but it's a rough road
but that's why we love it
that's why we need it
if you cut us we bleed
i'm looking forward to playlist day
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y20QMaR1d-g
in old sheets, discarded leg wrappings and ribbons, a carefully gathered sachet of shed strands of hair. dropped handkerchiefs. how romantic. he'd had so much, at the end. things he'd collected, begged, even stolen.
later he'd regretted none of it, made himself a suit
#emhdd
later he'd regretted none of it, made himself a suit
#emhdd
November 23, 2024 at 11:40 PM
in old sheets, discarded leg wrappings and ribbons, a carefully gathered sachet of shed strands of hair. dropped handkerchiefs. how romantic. he'd had so much, at the end. things he'd collected, begged, even stolen.
later he'd regretted none of it, made himself a suit
#emhdd
later he'd regretted none of it, made himself a suit
#emhdd
this ends in a Day 6 #XiYaoMonth2020 #emhdd grounding beat pulsing underneath the previous days' festivals of light. it still ends there, despite all of it. we that dwell in the threat are no fools we just have deep sad and ancient eyes
he finds little silk pillows in exactly the right shape. has had a herb-stuffed and embroidered disc sewn onto the base. leaves notes under it in red and gold ink. makes sure the mouth stays flexible. #emhdd
November 23, 2024 at 11:12 PM
this ends in a Day 6 #XiYaoMonth2020 #emhdd grounding beat pulsing underneath the previous days' festivals of light. it still ends there, despite all of it. we that dwell in the threat are no fools we just have deep sad and ancient eyes
he finds little silk pillows in exactly the right shape. has had a herb-stuffed and embroidered disc sewn onto the base. leaves notes under it in red and gold ink. makes sure the mouth stays flexible. #emhdd
November 23, 2024 at 11:05 PM
he finds little silk pillows in exactly the right shape. has had a herb-stuffed and embroidered disc sewn onto the base. leaves notes under it in red and gold ink. makes sure the mouth stays flexible. #emhdd
yes, there's a head in the closet. yes, he sleeps with it sometimes. a lot. he spends time conditioning its skin with hand blended fragrant oils, combs and braids its hair over and over again, has xue yang bring him silver pins from his kills. the ones with little flowers. #emhdd
November 23, 2024 at 10:58 PM
yes, there's a head in the closet. yes, he sleeps with it sometimes. a lot. he spends time conditioning its skin with hand blended fragrant oils, combs and braids its hair over and over again, has xue yang bring him silver pins from his kills. the ones with little flowers. #emhdd
a-yao streaming this out behind him as he runs in #emhdd
When I am laid,
am laid in earth,
may my wrongs create
No trouble,
no trouble in,
in thy breast
Remember me,
remember me,
but ah
Forget my fate
When I am laid,
am laid in earth,
may my wrongs create
No trouble,
no trouble in,
in thy breast
Remember me,
remember me,
but ah
Forget my fate
November 23, 2024 at 10:37 PM
a-yao streaming this out behind him as he runs in #emhdd
When I am laid,
am laid in earth,
may my wrongs create
No trouble,
no trouble in,
in thy breast
Remember me,
remember me,
but ah
Forget my fate
When I am laid,
am laid in earth,
may my wrongs create
No trouble,
no trouble in,
in thy breast
Remember me,
remember me,
but ah
Forget my fate
early for day 7 #XiYaoMonth2020 #emhdd
lan xichen sitting on the stairs of the temple
looking down
looking forward
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnkVgKzKPt8
lan xichen sitting on the stairs of the temple
looking down
looking forward
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnkVgKzKPt8
November 23, 2024 at 10:16 PM
early for day 7 #XiYaoMonth2020 #emhdd
lan xichen sitting on the stairs of the temple
looking down
looking forward
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnkVgKzKPt8
lan xichen sitting on the stairs of the temple
looking down
looking forward
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnkVgKzKPt8
#emhdd
jgy riddled with scars, with sores.
a special waterproof makeup recipe from meng shi.
the brothel, jgs, nies, the wens and the war, and jgs again. they all left scars.
lxc the only one who did not.
lxc the only one who ever saw CLOSE to all of them at the same time.
jgy riddled with scars, with sores.
a special waterproof makeup recipe from meng shi.
the brothel, jgs, nies, the wens and the war, and jgs again. they all left scars.
lxc the only one who did not.
lxc the only one who ever saw CLOSE to all of them at the same time.
November 23, 2024 at 9:49 PM
#emhdd
jgy riddled with scars, with sores.
a special waterproof makeup recipe from meng shi.
the brothel, jgs, nies, the wens and the war, and jgs again. they all left scars.
lxc the only one who did not.
lxc the only one who ever saw CLOSE to all of them at the same time.
jgy riddled with scars, with sores.
a special waterproof makeup recipe from meng shi.
the brothel, jgs, nies, the wens and the war, and jgs again. they all left scars.
lxc the only one who did not.
lxc the only one who ever saw CLOSE to all of them at the same time.
i ship him w jiang cheng bc uncles arguing over tuition while drinking, competing w gifts and experiences for attention, being insecure ans defensive; leveraging of power (and some loneliness); it easily happens.
i ship him w any junior who DARES (#emhdd perhaps), near the end.
i ship him w any junior who DARES (#emhdd perhaps), near the end.
November 23, 2024 at 9:41 PM
i ship him w jiang cheng bc uncles arguing over tuition while drinking, competing w gifts and experiences for attention, being insecure ans defensive; leveraging of power (and some loneliness); it easily happens.
i ship him w any junior who DARES (#emhdd perhaps), near the end.
i ship him w any junior who DARES (#emhdd perhaps), near the end.
#emhdd
nie huaisang always had a deeper and more sophisticated taste for noblemen’s pursuits than a-yao ever did. ever could, even in his tower.
how could such an arriviste ever truly understand the arts, aptitudes and history of such men as the nie?
nie huaisang always had a deeper and more sophisticated taste for noblemen’s pursuits than a-yao ever did. ever could, even in his tower.
how could such an arriviste ever truly understand the arts, aptitudes and history of such men as the nie?
November 23, 2024 at 9:41 PM
#emhdd
nie huaisang always had a deeper and more sophisticated taste for noblemen’s pursuits than a-yao ever did. ever could, even in his tower.
how could such an arriviste ever truly understand the arts, aptitudes and history of such men as the nie?
nie huaisang always had a deeper and more sophisticated taste for noblemen’s pursuits than a-yao ever did. ever could, even in his tower.
how could such an arriviste ever truly understand the arts, aptitudes and history of such men as the nie?
spits into his hand, rudely, and pulls himself to sleep with it every night.
it will be so much better, even, than the temple.
it will light up the very room.
they might all of them go blind with it.
huaisang only with pleasure.
#emhdd
it will be so much better, even, than the temple.
it will light up the very room.
they might all of them go blind with it.
huaisang only with pleasure.
#emhdd
November 23, 2024 at 9:33 PM
spits into his hand, rudely, and pulls himself to sleep with it every night.
it will be so much better, even, than the temple.
it will light up the very room.
they might all of them go blind with it.
huaisang only with pleasure.
#emhdd
it will be so much better, even, than the temple.
it will light up the very room.
they might all of them go blind with it.
huaisang only with pleasure.
#emhdd
them (#emhdd) to achieve his aims of destroying them both. i do see him as having worked like his mother did, and as having had no real choice at jinlintai during any of his visits there. he endured; he triumphed.
i ship him w xue yang bc they can relax together with it ALL out,
i ship him w xue yang bc they can relax together with it ALL out,
November 23, 2024 at 9:26 PM
them (#emhdd) to achieve his aims of destroying them both. i do see him as having worked like his mother did, and as having had no real choice at jinlintai during any of his visits there. he endured; he triumphed.
i ship him w xue yang bc they can relax together with it ALL out,
i ship him w xue yang bc they can relax together with it ALL out,
whatever percentage of the silver mines goes to the nie, whatever hills they give over will be of no import.
he’ll give anything.
nhs dreams of that moment, the unveiling of the cage, after the sale.
#emhdd
he’ll give anything.
nhs dreams of that moment, the unveiling of the cage, after the sale.
#emhdd
November 23, 2024 at 9:26 PM
whatever percentage of the silver mines goes to the nie, whatever hills they give over will be of no import.
he’ll give anything.
nhs dreams of that moment, the unveiling of the cage, after the sale.
#emhdd
he’ll give anything.
nhs dreams of that moment, the unveiling of the cage, after the sale.
#emhdd
except to cut, stitch, wash, heal, and keep clean. and groom.
#emhdd
lan xichen knows nothing.
when he hears that he survived, has been healed and cared for, that it was only kept secret so as to not hurt his heart in case of failure, no matter how furious this makes him,
#emhdd
lan xichen knows nothing.
when he hears that he survived, has been healed and cared for, that it was only kept secret so as to not hurt his heart in case of failure, no matter how furious this makes him,
November 23, 2024 at 9:19 PM
except to cut, stitch, wash, heal, and keep clean. and groom.
#emhdd
lan xichen knows nothing.
when he hears that he survived, has been healed and cared for, that it was only kept secret so as to not hurt his heart in case of failure, no matter how furious this makes him,
#emhdd
lan xichen knows nothing.
when he hears that he survived, has been healed and cared for, that it was only kept secret so as to not hurt his heart in case of failure, no matter how furious this makes him,
#emhdd
there are so many things to atone for,
and his body is so small.
it takes a long time to be done.
the important things are still there, still work,
and his face is still pretty.
and his hair so well brushed.
no one has touched him, throughout,
there are so many things to atone for,
and his body is so small.
it takes a long time to be done.
the important things are still there, still work,
and his face is still pretty.
and his hair so well brushed.
no one has touched him, throughout,
November 23, 2024 at 9:13 PM
#emhdd
there are so many things to atone for,
and his body is so small.
it takes a long time to be done.
the important things are still there, still work,
and his face is still pretty.
and his hair so well brushed.
no one has touched him, throughout,
there are so many things to atone for,
and his body is so small.
it takes a long time to be done.
the important things are still there, still work,
and his face is still pretty.
and his hair so well brushed.
no one has touched him, throughout,
#emhdd
for each thing he took from the world, each life, each future
nhs takes a piece.
(lxc convinces him he has to--should--give up that piece.)
and eventually he does.
let him take.
each one.
some of them aren’t big at all.
for each thing he took from the world, each life, each future
nhs takes a piece.
(lxc convinces him he has to--should--give up that piece.)
and eventually he does.
let him take.
each one.
some of them aren’t big at all.
November 23, 2024 at 9:06 PM
#emhdd
for each thing he took from the world, each life, each future
nhs takes a piece.
(lxc convinces him he has to--should--give up that piece.)
and eventually he does.
let him take.
each one.
some of them aren’t big at all.
for each thing he took from the world, each life, each future
nhs takes a piece.
(lxc convinces him he has to--should--give up that piece.)
and eventually he does.
let him take.
each one.
some of them aren’t big at all.
he’s there at all. erasing himself completely. this nie room is hung in silks from jin storehouses, only the known around a-yao, only his own hell.
jin perfumes, lan incense. never a breath of fresh air.
and the gist of it is
#emhdd
he has to accede to each piece taken.
jin perfumes, lan incense. never a breath of fresh air.
and the gist of it is
#emhdd
he has to accede to each piece taken.
November 23, 2024 at 8:57 PM
he’s there at all. erasing himself completely. this nie room is hung in silks from jin storehouses, only the known around a-yao, only his own hell.
jin perfumes, lan incense. never a breath of fresh air.
and the gist of it is
#emhdd
he has to accede to each piece taken.
jin perfumes, lan incense. never a breath of fresh air.
and the gist of it is
#emhdd
he has to accede to each piece taken.
the inner robes only for the ones that touch his skin, all those golds, whites, and blues
#emhdd
--to later SELL him to lxc--
and summoning an image of lxc doing it, a mask, a hallucination
over and over again so he thinks they’re working together
or never letting him know
#emhdd
--to later SELL him to lxc--
and summoning an image of lxc doing it, a mask, a hallucination
over and over again so he thinks they’re working together
or never letting him know
November 23, 2024 at 8:50 PM
the inner robes only for the ones that touch his skin, all those golds, whites, and blues
#emhdd
--to later SELL him to lxc--
and summoning an image of lxc doing it, a mask, a hallucination
over and over again so he thinks they’re working together
or never letting him know
#emhdd
--to later SELL him to lxc--
and summoning an image of lxc doing it, a mask, a hallucination
over and over again so he thinks they’re working together
or never letting him know
of ‘but lxc keeps him’ did to my nerves including the other one i’m working on
#emhdd
this is happening.
nie huaisang slowly, slowly taking pieces of him,
keeping him in an enormous golden birdcage
in a nest of special cushions made from his old wardrobe
#emhdd
this is happening.
nie huaisang slowly, slowly taking pieces of him,
keeping him in an enormous golden birdcage
in a nest of special cushions made from his old wardrobe
November 23, 2024 at 8:43 PM
of ‘but lxc keeps him’ did to my nerves including the other one i’m working on
#emhdd
this is happening.
nie huaisang slowly, slowly taking pieces of him,
keeping him in an enormous golden birdcage
in a nest of special cushions made from his old wardrobe
#emhdd
this is happening.
nie huaisang slowly, slowly taking pieces of him,
keeping him in an enormous golden birdcage
in a nest of special cushions made from his old wardrobe
#emhdd (i guess this is my #mdzsff but it’s only spiritually so)
tw // disability, amputation, captivity
btwn a few specific illos, my own heavily disability and ptsd influenced issues (this is not a flippant idea to me), the dangerousness of sangyao, and what every iteration
tw // disability, amputation, captivity
btwn a few specific illos, my own heavily disability and ptsd influenced issues (this is not a flippant idea to me), the dangerousness of sangyao, and what every iteration
November 23, 2024 at 8:29 PM
i'm going to do a couple timezone bumps of this little golden bb
jincest, objectification, jin guangshan was probably hot or he wouldn't have gotten away w half of what he did bc $ isn't enough for that shit, + look at jgy, #emhdd, complete. still no caps
⭐️ t h e h a t ⭐️
jincest, objectification, jin guangshan was probably hot or he wouldn't have gotten away w half of what he did bc $ isn't enough for that shit, + look at jgy, #emhdd, complete. still no caps
⭐️ t h e h a t ⭐️
i finished my filth from #mdzsff friday. it's not a kinkmeme fill but...if you've been reading those...
the name, the crown, the title
or How Jin Guangyao Got His Hat
jgs/jgy, jincest, dead dove
first jades-verse, 2267 words, complete
https://archiveofourown.org/works/26577331
the name, the crown, the title
or How Jin Guangyao Got His Hat
jgs/jgy, jincest, dead dove
first jades-verse, 2267 words, complete
https://archiveofourown.org/works/26577331
the name, the crown, the title - annular_eye - 魔...
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization ...
archiveofourown.org
November 23, 2024 at 12:51 PM
i'm going to do a couple timezone bumps of this little golden bb
jincest, objectification, jin guangshan was probably hot or he wouldn't have gotten away w half of what he did bc $ isn't enough for that shit, + look at jgy, #emhdd, complete. still no caps
⭐️ t h e h a t ⭐️
jincest, objectification, jin guangshan was probably hot or he wouldn't have gotten away w half of what he did bc $ isn't enough for that shit, + look at jgy, #emhdd, complete. still no caps
⭐️ t h e h a t ⭐️
this is not a poem or anything
this is just me yelling but i am asking
myself does jgy jerk off? (mb #emhdd )
and of fucking course he does, he has to
i am so tired of him not being able to feel
this is just me yelling but i am asking
myself does jgy jerk off? (mb #emhdd )
and of fucking course he does, he has to
i am so tired of him not being able to feel
November 23, 2024 at 11:09 AM
this is not a poem or anything
this is just me yelling but i am asking
myself does jgy jerk off? (mb #emhdd )
and of fucking course he does, he has to
i am so tired of him not being able to feel
this is just me yelling but i am asking
myself does jgy jerk off? (mb #emhdd )
and of fucking course he does, he has to
i am so tired of him not being able to feel