mika
@bodiless.bsky.social
hi, i’m mika
29, they/them
non-binary & bi
former vent user
(username was bodiless)
29, they/them
non-binary & bi
former vent user
(username was bodiless)
today i was photographing a bird and first a kid came up to me trying to talk to me about the bird but i just couldn’t engage i was just like yep…….. when he talked about what kind of bird it was then a tourist also asked me what bird it was and i just confirmed it and didn’t say anything else
October 19, 2026 at 12:26 AM
today i was photographing a bird and first a kid came up to me trying to talk to me about the bird but i just couldn’t engage i was just like yep…….. when he talked about what kind of bird it was then a tourist also asked me what bird it was and i just confirmed it and didn’t say anything else
i’m getting tired of people on tumblr reblogging posts about movies from me that i reblogged because i like the movie and talking about how they dislike the movie in the post. i was so close to blocking a mutual and now a random follower because it’s so annoying. like if there’s a movie i dislike
October 18, 2026 at 11:56 PM
i’m getting tired of people on tumblr reblogging posts about movies from me that i reblogged because i like the movie and talking about how they dislike the movie in the post. i was so close to blocking a mutual and now a random follower because it’s so annoying. like if there’s a movie i dislike
omg i was gonna do the dishes before going to bed (at almost 2 am) but while washing a bowl i dropped it in the sink and it made a loud noise and my neighbor/landlord’s dog started barking 😵💫 so now i feel bad and i’m being quiet and no longer doing the dishes 😵💫😵💫😵💫
October 13, 2026 at 12:12 AM
omg i was gonna do the dishes before going to bed (at almost 2 am) but while washing a bowl i dropped it in the sink and it made a loud noise and my neighbor/landlord’s dog started barking 😵💫 so now i feel bad and i’m being quiet and no longer doing the dishes 😵💫😵💫😵💫
also one really awesome way to experience life is to be a closeted trans person terrified of vulnerability so you never come out to anyone and you never get any gender affirming care. and it’s not even because you’re ashamed of being trans or something its just because you were emotionally neglected
October 5, 2026 at 4:43 PM
also one really awesome way to experience life is to be a closeted trans person terrified of vulnerability so you never come out to anyone and you never get any gender affirming care. and it’s not even because you’re ashamed of being trans or something its just because you were emotionally neglected
its so amazing how i leave every social situation feeling like shit like i don’t even have to be ruminating on the interactions or things i said or did wrong to feel like shit i just do immediately and automatically yayyyyy
October 5, 2026 at 3:49 PM
its so amazing how i leave every social situation feeling like shit like i don’t even have to be ruminating on the interactions or things i said or did wrong to feel like shit i just do immediately and automatically yayyyyy
😤 i was gonna go see camp miasma again by myself today but i’ve never gone to the cinema by myself before so that was making me anxious then a bunch of people bought tickets so i got even more anxious and now the movie starts in 5 minutes and i’m sitting at home so i’m not seeing it again today ugh
August 24, 2026 at 5:41 PM
😤 i was gonna go see camp miasma again by myself today but i’ve never gone to the cinema by myself before so that was making me anxious then a bunch of people bought tickets so i got even more anxious and now the movie starts in 5 minutes and i’m sitting at home so i’m not seeing it again today ugh
i love making myself cry when i should be sleeping at 3-4 am yaaayyyy
August 14, 2026 at 1:44 AM
i love making myself cry when i should be sleeping at 3-4 am yaaayyyy
sometimes i’m just like wait. i’m so mentally ill. shouldn’t i be in therapy or something??? it probably wouldn’t change anything though. but it’s kind of weird that i’m just chronically depressed and so terrified of other people i can’t even look at strangers’ faces when i’m in public and i’m doing
July 30, 2026 at 1:29 AM
sometimes i’m just like wait. i’m so mentally ill. shouldn’t i be in therapy or something??? it probably wouldn’t change anything though. but it’s kind of weird that i’m just chronically depressed and so terrified of other people i can’t even look at strangers’ faces when i’m in public and i’m doing
i should go for a walk but i don’t want to move my body or be hot or be around people. and i ate too much dinner so i feel sluggish… 🐌… lol…
why am i so tired all the time :( i guess last night i slept very badly i kept waking up every couple of hours so that’s a reason why i’m tired today but… in
why am i so tired all the time :( i guess last night i slept very badly i kept waking up every couple of hours so that’s a reason why i’m tired today but… in
July 22, 2026 at 6:30 PM
i should go for a walk but i don’t want to move my body or be hot or be around people. and i ate too much dinner so i feel sluggish… 🐌… lol…
why am i so tired all the time :( i guess last night i slept very badly i kept waking up every couple of hours so that’s a reason why i’m tired today but… in
why am i so tired all the time :( i guess last night i slept very badly i kept waking up every couple of hours so that’s a reason why i’m tired today but… in
sometimes my brother talks to me about how he looks and it’s so obvious that he has body dysmorphia and i just can’t respond in any other way than. this literally does not matter. and it’s probably not very helpful but i just can’t entertain it at all
July 20, 2026 at 3:07 PM
sometimes my brother talks to me about how he looks and it’s so obvious that he has body dysmorphia and i just can’t respond in any other way than. this literally does not matter. and it’s probably not very helpful but i just can’t entertain it at all
i wanna go swimming really badly but i don’t wanna wear a regular bathing suit. and my bathing suit is at my parents’ house. and the only places i can go swimming are really public. and if i decided to go swimming when visiting my parents i wouldn’t want to just wear my bathing suit around them
July 16, 2026 at 2:44 PM
i wanna go swimming really badly but i don’t wanna wear a regular bathing suit. and my bathing suit is at my parents’ house. and the only places i can go swimming are really public. and if i decided to go swimming when visiting my parents i wouldn’t want to just wear my bathing suit around them
i wanna see a psychologist like the one i saw in 2018 but i know it’s probably impossible to find someone like that and if i tried i’d just be seeing a bunch of people who make me feel uncomfortable and unsafe instead then i’d feel even worse than i already do 🤩
July 16, 2026 at 8:54 AM
i wanna see a psychologist like the one i saw in 2018 but i know it’s probably impossible to find someone like that and if i tried i’d just be seeing a bunch of people who make me feel uncomfortable and unsafe instead then i’d feel even worse than i already do 🤩
i feel like i’ve stopped feeling lonely and i’ve completely stopped wanting relationships. i just like my own company. and i really like not feeling anxious. but i feel like it’s wrong. and sad. like i should want to be around people and socialize. but i just don’t
July 15, 2026 at 9:34 PM
i feel like i’ve stopped feeling lonely and i’ve completely stopped wanting relationships. i just like my own company. and i really like not feeling anxious. but i feel like it’s wrong. and sad. like i should want to be around people and socialize. but i just don’t
i’m so sick of summer i couldn’t sleep last night because i was too hot and when i go outside there’s people everywhere and i can’t go on long walks because i get too hot and exhausted :[
July 10, 2026 at 11:33 AM
i’m so sick of summer i couldn’t sleep last night because i was too hot and when i go outside there’s people everywhere and i can’t go on long walks because i get too hot and exhausted :[
i love living on street level in a touristy area i love when tourists press themselves up my window to take a photo into my apartment right where i’m sitting and when they steal decorations i have outside -_- first thing just happened and the second thing happened last summer
July 10, 2026 at 11:15 AM
i love living on street level in a touristy area i love when tourists press themselves up my window to take a photo into my apartment right where i’m sitting and when they steal decorations i have outside -_- first thing just happened and the second thing happened last summer
i finally started playing death stranding 2 and i wanted to check how much i’ve played but it won’t show an accurate number and it’s not showing up on my psn profile either because i’m using a physical copy of the game…… i hate you for this sony…..………….
July 8, 2026 at 3:40 PM
i finally started playing death stranding 2 and i wanted to check how much i’ve played but it won’t show an accurate number and it’s not showing up on my psn profile either because i’m using a physical copy of the game…… i hate you for this sony…..………….
where do
i go when i
want to see the
sunrise but i’m
too dead inside
too dead inside
too dead inside
i go when i
want to see the
sunrise but i’m
too dead inside
too dead inside
too dead inside
July 1, 2026 at 12:20 AM
where do
i go when i
want to see the
sunrise but i’m
too dead inside
too dead inside
too dead inside
i go when i
want to see the
sunrise but i’m
too dead inside
too dead inside
too dead inside
i wanna go to the movies but they’re not showing any of the movies i wanna watch -_-
at least i loved obsession….. i wanna watch it again if they’re still showing it……. but going to the cinema alone seems scary…… and i won’t even be here most of this week so it doesn’t matter i guess
at least i loved obsession….. i wanna watch it again if they’re still showing it……. but going to the cinema alone seems scary…… and i won’t even be here most of this week so it doesn’t matter i guess
June 30, 2026 at 11:52 PM
i wanna go to the movies but they’re not showing any of the movies i wanna watch -_-
at least i loved obsession….. i wanna watch it again if they’re still showing it……. but going to the cinema alone seems scary…… and i won’t even be here most of this week so it doesn’t matter i guess
at least i loved obsession….. i wanna watch it again if they’re still showing it……. but going to the cinema alone seems scary…… and i won’t even be here most of this week so it doesn’t matter i guess
i love being anxious and too tired to do anything and chewing on the skin around my fingernails until it bleeds and crying for no good reason i feel great today :-)
June 21, 2026 at 6:54 PM
i love being anxious and too tired to do anything and chewing on the skin around my fingernails until it bleeds and crying for no good reason i feel great today :-)
mom is so annoying when she’s passive aggressive <3
June 20, 2026 at 2:27 PM
mom is so annoying when she’s passive aggressive <3
i feel so bad about myself i feel so inadequate every time i talk to someone or just spend any amount of time around people. i feel so inept. and i feel like people i meet or talk to also think i’m inept and they’re judging me for it. or they’re just noticing it. and both things make me feel bad
June 17, 2026 at 11:31 AM
i feel so bad about myself i feel so inadequate every time i talk to someone or just spend any amount of time around people. i feel so inept. and i feel like people i meet or talk to also think i’m inept and they’re judging me for it. or they’re just noticing it. and both things make me feel bad
i feel really bad it might be because i slept for like 6 hours 🤩 i woke up early just to buy concert tickets but i ended up not getting them…….. and just now i checked the other city i was considering getting tickets to and they were way cheaper. so i regret not trying to buy those instead :/
June 10, 2026 at 8:05 PM
i feel really bad it might be because i slept for like 6 hours 🤩 i woke up early just to buy concert tickets but i ended up not getting them…….. and just now i checked the other city i was considering getting tickets to and they were way cheaper. so i regret not trying to buy those instead :/
i’m kind of tired of my life being so empty and boring but not really i guess cause i don’t want to do anything to make it less empty and boring
June 9, 2026 at 12:46 AM
i’m kind of tired of my life being so empty and boring but not really i guess cause i don’t want to do anything to make it less empty and boring
i saw two of my old teachers at the concert i went to today x-x they’re married i think? but one of them was my teacher when i was 13-15 and the other when i was 18-21
anyway it made me kinda sad. and part of me wanted to talk to them but i know they most likely don’t even remember me
anyway it made me kinda sad. and part of me wanted to talk to them but i know they most likely don’t even remember me
May 31, 2026 at 12:29 AM
i saw two of my old teachers at the concert i went to today x-x they’re married i think? but one of them was my teacher when i was 13-15 and the other when i was 18-21
anyway it made me kinda sad. and part of me wanted to talk to them but i know they most likely don’t even remember me
anyway it made me kinda sad. and part of me wanted to talk to them but i know they most likely don’t even remember me