K-Man Real
@kmancircle.bsky.social
Vent/Close Circle Account for @kmanvtuber.bsky.social | He/Him | 29 | Demiromantic
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I want to fucking scream about so many things but I fear upsetting others again
I don't know how I'll come across when I'm like this so I'm better off saying nothing
Still, I don't appreciate having all my worst case fears confirmed tonight. Guess I'll be crying myself to sleep tonight!!!!! Yay!!!
I don't know how I'll come across when I'm like this so I'm better off saying nothing
Still, I don't appreciate having all my worst case fears confirmed tonight. Guess I'll be crying myself to sleep tonight!!!!! Yay!!!
September 16, 2026 at 11:25 PM
I want to fucking scream about so many things but I fear upsetting others again
I don't know how I'll come across when I'm like this so I'm better off saying nothing
Still, I don't appreciate having all my worst case fears confirmed tonight. Guess I'll be crying myself to sleep tonight!!!!! Yay!!!
I don't know how I'll come across when I'm like this so I'm better off saying nothing
Still, I don't appreciate having all my worst case fears confirmed tonight. Guess I'll be crying myself to sleep tonight!!!!! Yay!!!
This was bar none my worst birthday ever, and that's saying a lot considering some shitty past birthdays
If it weren't for a VC with a few friends, there would have been nothing good about it
I'm fucking miserable
If it weren't for a VC with a few friends, there would have been nothing good about it
I'm fucking miserable
September 16, 2026 at 11:14 PM
This was bar none my worst birthday ever, and that's saying a lot considering some shitty past birthdays
If it weren't for a VC with a few friends, there would have been nothing good about it
I'm fucking miserable
If it weren't for a VC with a few friends, there would have been nothing good about it
I'm fucking miserable
and here I was thinking I could have my mood raised just a little on my birthday...
Forget that, I guess.
Forget that, I guess.
September 16, 2026 at 10:46 PM
and here I was thinking I could have my mood raised just a little on my birthday...
Forget that, I guess.
Forget that, I guess.
There was one hugely good news I received today, but mentally I'm so drained and depressed that today still fucking sucks regardless
Potentially the worst birthday I've ever had, and I only made it worse by being mentally ill on the timeline and getting everyone annoyed at me... rightfully so...
Potentially the worst birthday I've ever had, and I only made it worse by being mentally ill on the timeline and getting everyone annoyed at me... rightfully so...
September 16, 2026 at 7:36 PM
There was one hugely good news I received today, but mentally I'm so drained and depressed that today still fucking sucks regardless
Potentially the worst birthday I've ever had, and I only made it worse by being mentally ill on the timeline and getting everyone annoyed at me... rightfully so...
Potentially the worst birthday I've ever had, and I only made it worse by being mentally ill on the timeline and getting everyone annoyed at me... rightfully so...
Spent the whole day sleeping and crying in bed
This might be the worst birthday I've ever had...
I was expecting it to be bad on account of the depression, but this is a new low
This might be the worst birthday I've ever had...
I was expecting it to be bad on account of the depression, but this is a new low
September 16, 2026 at 4:43 PM
Spent the whole day sleeping and crying in bed
This might be the worst birthday I've ever had...
I was expecting it to be bad on account of the depression, but this is a new low
This might be the worst birthday I've ever had...
I was expecting it to be bad on account of the depression, but this is a new low
im doing awful ngl
been crying a lot today
been crying a lot today
September 15, 2026 at 5:25 PM
im doing awful ngl
been crying a lot today
been crying a lot today
Starting to realise I genuinely view myself as less important or valuable than those around me, and feel that I need to earn my right to have friends
At the moment, I just don't feel like I deserve to have any friends, let alone ones as great as those I have
At the moment, I just don't feel like I deserve to have any friends, let alone ones as great as those I have
September 15, 2026 at 4:25 PM
Starting to realise I genuinely view myself as less important or valuable than those around me, and feel that I need to earn my right to have friends
At the moment, I just don't feel like I deserve to have any friends, let alone ones as great as those I have
At the moment, I just don't feel like I deserve to have any friends, let alone ones as great as those I have
Idk why i bother anymore
My job is the single only good thing in my day-to-day life
I don't wanna die but I also just don't wanna exist, nor do I think I deserve to exist
I think everyone would be better off if I just disappeared anyway
My job is the single only good thing in my day-to-day life
I don't wanna die but I also just don't wanna exist, nor do I think I deserve to exist
I think everyone would be better off if I just disappeared anyway
September 14, 2026 at 9:53 PM
Idk why i bother anymore
My job is the single only good thing in my day-to-day life
I don't wanna die but I also just don't wanna exist, nor do I think I deserve to exist
I think everyone would be better off if I just disappeared anyway
My job is the single only good thing in my day-to-day life
I don't wanna die but I also just don't wanna exist, nor do I think I deserve to exist
I think everyone would be better off if I just disappeared anyway
I feel so alone
I don't know what to do
I'm just so so alone
I don't know what to do
I'm just so so alone
September 14, 2026 at 7:22 PM
I feel so alone
I don't know what to do
I'm just so so alone
I don't know what to do
I'm just so so alone
My birthday's coming up but I think fhis is bound to be the most depressing birthdays ever ngl
I'm just sad about so many things and hate myself so much
I'm just sad about so many things and hate myself so much
September 14, 2026 at 5:01 PM
My birthday's coming up but I think fhis is bound to be the most depressing birthdays ever ngl
I'm just sad about so many things and hate myself so much
I'm just sad about so many things and hate myself so much
I'll never find love and I don't deserve it
I should accept the fact that I am going to live and die alone
I should accept the fact that I am going to live and die alone
September 14, 2026 at 3:43 PM
I'll never find love and I don't deserve it
I should accept the fact that I am going to live and die alone
I should accept the fact that I am going to live and die alone
Spent this whole day so far cleaning up my room and stuff and like damn yeah it does feel good to do a deep clean after all this time
I wish my brain just worked sometimes and motivated me to do this more often
I wish my brain just worked sometimes and motivated me to do this more often
September 12, 2026 at 2:52 PM
Spent this whole day so far cleaning up my room and stuff and like damn yeah it does feel good to do a deep clean after all this time
I wish my brain just worked sometimes and motivated me to do this more often
I wish my brain just worked sometimes and motivated me to do this more often
I gotta stop posting depressed thoughts at nearly 2am...
I just wish i knew what to do when I need to seriously vent? I either suffer in silence or post stuff i regret and delete anyway, so idk what to do at this point
I just wish i knew what to do when I need to seriously vent? I either suffer in silence or post stuff i regret and delete anyway, so idk what to do at this point
September 12, 2026 at 12:56 AM
I gotta stop posting depressed thoughts at nearly 2am...
I just wish i knew what to do when I need to seriously vent? I either suffer in silence or post stuff i regret and delete anyway, so idk what to do at this point
I just wish i knew what to do when I need to seriously vent? I either suffer in silence or post stuff i regret and delete anyway, so idk what to do at this point
I didn't eat at all today
I'm starting to think starving myself is my subconscious means of self-harm when I'm down... I really have to stop that
I'm starting to think starving myself is my subconscious means of self-harm when I'm down... I really have to stop that
September 10, 2026 at 10:00 PM
I didn't eat at all today
I'm starting to think starving myself is my subconscious means of self-harm when I'm down... I really have to stop that
I'm starting to think starving myself is my subconscious means of self-harm when I'm down... I really have to stop that
Why do I have to be me?
I hate me.
I hate me.
September 10, 2026 at 9:12 PM
Why do I have to be me?
I hate me.
I hate me.
doing fucking awful tonight ngl can I get a hug
September 10, 2026 at 8:26 PM
doing fucking awful tonight ngl can I get a hug
I really wish I had someone to just physically drag me to social things that I want to go to but am too anxious to bring myself to do
But ig if that were the case it'd be too easy and maybe I'd never really change as a person
I guess I just have to take the leap and try getting involved in things
But ig if that were the case it'd be too easy and maybe I'd never really change as a person
I guess I just have to take the leap and try getting involved in things
September 9, 2026 at 8:29 PM
I really wish I had someone to just physically drag me to social things that I want to go to but am too anxious to bring myself to do
But ig if that were the case it'd be too easy and maybe I'd never really change as a person
I guess I just have to take the leap and try getting involved in things
But ig if that were the case it'd be too easy and maybe I'd never really change as a person
I guess I just have to take the leap and try getting involved in things
You ever see like multiple different VCs you really want to join in but social anxiety kills you so you just don't join any of them because you feel like you wouldn't be wanted or that your presence would be intrusive???
Yep!!! Me!!! All day!!!!!
Yep!!! Me!!! All day!!!!!
September 9, 2026 at 6:38 PM
You ever see like multiple different VCs you really want to join in but social anxiety kills you so you just don't join any of them because you feel like you wouldn't be wanted or that your presence would be intrusive???
Yep!!! Me!!! All day!!!!!
Yep!!! Me!!! All day!!!!!
not doing good today
September 7, 2026 at 5:24 PM
not doing good today
I know I said I was "soft-returning" to the internet, and I do mean that, but it moreso applies to social media than discord
I imagine I'll be online overall even less once stuff IRL start getting more active for me, but until then I need all the social interaction I can get tbh
I imagine I'll be online overall even less once stuff IRL start getting more active for me, but until then I need all the social interaction I can get tbh
September 7, 2026 at 3:48 PM
I know I said I was "soft-returning" to the internet, and I do mean that, but it moreso applies to social media than discord
I imagine I'll be online overall even less once stuff IRL start getting more active for me, but until then I need all the social interaction I can get tbh
I imagine I'll be online overall even less once stuff IRL start getting more active for me, but until then I need all the social interaction I can get tbh
man im just
im just not doing good
I really don't wanna sound like an incel or anything like that, but every day that goes by makes me more upset that I've never been in a relationship or had any romantic/sexual experiences
I just feel like I'm failing at life and my 20s have been wasted...
im just not doing good
I really don't wanna sound like an incel or anything like that, but every day that goes by makes me more upset that I've never been in a relationship or had any romantic/sexual experiences
I just feel like I'm failing at life and my 20s have been wasted...
September 6, 2026 at 1:27 PM
man im just
im just not doing good
I really don't wanna sound like an incel or anything like that, but every day that goes by makes me more upset that I've never been in a relationship or had any romantic/sexual experiences
I just feel like I'm failing at life and my 20s have been wasted...
im just not doing good
I really don't wanna sound like an incel or anything like that, but every day that goes by makes me more upset that I've never been in a relationship or had any romantic/sexual experiences
I just feel like I'm failing at life and my 20s have been wasted...
The first step for me is to start being active in the FGC discords, that way it'll be easier to make friends at the local
In an ideal world, I'd find a Bristol meet up group for JRPG fans but its not a thing, so fighting games make the most sense realistically
God this socialising thing is hard...
In an ideal world, I'd find a Bristol meet up group for JRPG fans but its not a thing, so fighting games make the most sense realistically
God this socialising thing is hard...
September 4, 2026 at 11:27 PM
The first step for me is to start being active in the FGC discords, that way it'll be easier to make friends at the local
In an ideal world, I'd find a Bristol meet up group for JRPG fans but its not a thing, so fighting games make the most sense realistically
God this socialising thing is hard...
In an ideal world, I'd find a Bristol meet up group for JRPG fans but its not a thing, so fighting games make the most sense realistically
God this socialising thing is hard...
God my mental state is so weird cause last night I was incredibly depressed and today I'm genuinely beyond happy for no reason
the antidepressant life sure is a weird one 🚬
the antidepressant life sure is a weird one 🚬
September 4, 2026 at 12:20 PM
God my mental state is so weird cause last night I was incredibly depressed and today I'm genuinely beyond happy for no reason
the antidepressant life sure is a weird one 🚬
the antidepressant life sure is a weird one 🚬
I'll be honest
Whenever I'm feeling especially depressed these days its one of two things
Either I'm depressed about my loneliness (no IRL social life + no romantic/sexual life)
Or I'm depressed about them and all this below
Currently... I'm really feeling both...
Whenever I'm feeling especially depressed these days its one of two things
Either I'm depressed about my loneliness (no IRL social life + no romantic/sexual life)
Or I'm depressed about them and all this below
Currently... I'm really feeling both...
I blocked them everywhere
I hate them
I hate what they did to me
I hate the trauma they gave me
I hated how jealous they were of me
I hate that I can't make new friends cause they're active in so many servers
I hate that do many oomfs are still friends with them
I hate them
I hate them
I hate what they did to me
I hate the trauma they gave me
I hated how jealous they were of me
I hate that I can't make new friends cause they're active in so many servers
I hate that do many oomfs are still friends with them
I hate them
September 2, 2026 at 8:56 PM
I'll be honest
Whenever I'm feeling especially depressed these days its one of two things
Either I'm depressed about my loneliness (no IRL social life + no romantic/sexual life)
Or I'm depressed about them and all this below
Currently... I'm really feeling both...
Whenever I'm feeling especially depressed these days its one of two things
Either I'm depressed about my loneliness (no IRL social life + no romantic/sexual life)
Or I'm depressed about them and all this below
Currently... I'm really feeling both...
Man idk why but depression suddenly hit insanely hard tonight
I've had so many nights feeling better but its like there's an awful sad feeling in the pit of my stomach
Gonna try and not vent about it for now but like... I'm just really sad and don't know what to do about it
I've had so many nights feeling better but its like there's an awful sad feeling in the pit of my stomach
Gonna try and not vent about it for now but like... I'm just really sad and don't know what to do about it
September 2, 2026 at 7:16 PM
Man idk why but depression suddenly hit insanely hard tonight
I've had so many nights feeling better but its like there's an awful sad feeling in the pit of my stomach
Gonna try and not vent about it for now but like... I'm just really sad and don't know what to do about it
I've had so many nights feeling better but its like there's an awful sad feeling in the pit of my stomach
Gonna try and not vent about it for now but like... I'm just really sad and don't know what to do about it