Take the quiz here👇 https://deprogramher.com/pages/quiz She was one of 51 children born to a polygamous cult leader convicted of ordering more than 20 murders. FBI raids in the middle of the night. Dumpster diving for food. Siblings who disappeared and never came back. Anna LeBaron didn't grow up watching a crime documentary, she grew up inside one. In this episode, Anna sits down with Hiba Balfaqih to talk about growing up inside the polygamous cult led by her father, Ervil LeBaron known as the "Mormon Manson." She shares what it was like to be raised in secrecy and fear, the moment she discovered the truth about her own family, surviving the infamous "Four O'Clock Murders," and how she rebuilt her life and found forgiveness. 00:00 — Introduction 02:39 — What does "blood atoned" mean? 04:16 — 14 wives, 51 children 04:49 — Living in constant fear of the FBI and Mexican police 06:25 — Pulled out of school to become child slave labor 07:34 — Taught to lie about who their family really was 09:33 — FBI raids and being trained to say "I don't know" 11:22 — Girls married off as young as 14 12:17 — Meeting her father for the first time at age 9 16:04 — Running away at 11 — her "5K to freedom" 20:38 — Her father dies in prison 21:46 — The cult fractures into a bloodbath for power 31:16 — Finding the book that revealed the truth about her family 36:04 — The Four O'Clock Murders 1:00:08 — Finally breaking her silence in therapy 1:20:07 — Has she forgiven her father? ⚠️Content Note: This episode contains discussion of murder, child abuse, child labor, forced marriage, and religious control within a cult. Follow The Shadow Sessions: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/theshadowsessionspodcast/ Follow Anna LeBaron https://www.instagram.com/annaklebaron/ Get to know the Host: https://www.hibabalfaqih.com/​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

EVIL ancient cults that were erased from history are shrouded in mystery, hiding dark secrets that powerful forces don’t want you to uncover. In this chilling video, we dive into the hidden world of long-lost civilizations and forbidden rituals, exposing the terrifying cults that once ruled the ancient world. From bloodthirsty gods to sinister ceremonies, these forgotten cults left an unforgettable mark on history. Discover why these ancient societies were wiped from the history books and the terrifying truths that continue to haunt us today. Don't miss the shocking revelations in this deep dive into the darkest corners of human history! #cult #ancient #scary #darkhistory #evil #disturbing Subscribe!: @MostAmazingTop10 Hosted By: James Naunton: https://www.instagram.com/radikaljimmy/ Edited By: Trevor Persaud: https://www.instagram.com/treveh/ Channel Producer: Landon Dowlatsingh- https://www.instagram.com/landonproductions/ Set Manager: Chris Stiuso Most Amazing Top 10 Instagram- https://www.instagram.com/mostamazingofficial/ Time Codes: 0:00- Intro 0:10- The Cult Of Sobek 0:49- The Cult Of Cybele 1:58- Angels Landing 3:32- Church Of The Lamb Of God 4:50- Heaven's Gate Cult 6:17- Mithras 6:52- Movement for the Restoration of the Ten Commandments of God 7:56- The Cult Of Isis 8:43- Love Has Won For Business Inquiries Contact: mostamazingtop10@gmail.com

Week 17 of the trump administration–it’s not going well for Donnie boy. Still at like a 98% Military Trans ban moving forward. Logistics–they are not disarming america Tell them a drone story Single family cults, 1-1 cults, internet AA lying about leaders The difference between us and other authoritarian states They are trying to make part time and disabled labor not worth it. Budget bill got voted down, and voted by republicans Question to all the not a cult groups: why cult shaped? Go Fund Me for Culting of America: https://tr.ee/fldwYRFTJI Autographed book: https://uncultureyourself.com/pages/uncultured-autographed From Bookshop.org: https://bookshop.org/a/104058/9781250280114 Daniella’s Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/GroupBehaviorGal Daniella’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@knittingcultlady?lang=en Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/stories/daniellamyoung_/ Unamerican Videobook: https://tr.ee/ODM-qtUJaR Secret Practice Videobook: https://tr.ee/DGEY3IeQQm Diddy trial Cassie’s grueling testimony as a victim– how hard it is for victims since they have to face their accusers 1-1 cults “Why didn’t she just leave?” Does Lalich’s “bounded choice” framework apply here? Update on the Shen Yun lawsuit: This week NPR wrote about the lawsuit that was filed in NY by 2 dancers. The suit alleges child labor and the article states that “The suit was filed last month in a federal district court in New York on behalf of Sun Zan, 32, and Cheng Qing Ling, 28. In a recent interview with NPR, Sun and Cheng said they felt isolated from their families, too afraid to speak up and endured both physical and psychological harm. To this day, they said they are recovering from the physical and emotional toll of their childhood.” A comment in the Cults subreddit touches on an important issue for people leaving high demand groups: how to learn to think for yourself. The poster notes that “I am unable to think for myself, make decisions, lack critical thinking and make choices and answer simple questions.” Decade of deconstruction Lots of people are going through similar things, and the Knitting Cult Community is a great place to interact with people who are going through it too. It looks different from everyone. Germany bans 'Kingdom of Germany’ movement On May 13, 2025, the German government banned the “Kingdom of Germany” (KRD), a major faction of the far-right Reichsburger movement. The group, led by self-styled “Peter I” (Peter Fitzek), aimed to establish a counter-state with its own institutions, rejecting Germany’s legitimacy. Authorities cited the group’s antisemitic conspiracy theories and criminal economic activities as threats to the democratic order. Lifetime's 'The Thirteenth Wife' Explores Polygamous Cult Escape Lifetime's upcoming two-part movie, "The Thirteenth Wife: Escaping Polygamy," premieres on May 31 and June 1. The film stars Felicity Huffman as Rena Chynoweth, recounting her life as a former wife of manipulative polygamous cult leader Ervil LeBaron. The narrative delves into the psychological toll of her indoctrination and escape, highlighting the resilience required to break free from such oppressive situations. June Book Club: Secret practice Audiobook available on Patreon. Talk about podcasts

Every cult leader believes their control is absolute — until it isn't. Join us as we count down the most shocking cases where followers finally fought back against the very leaders who manipulated and controlled them. From whistleblowers to courtroom testimony, these are the moments when the houses of cards came crashing down. Which of these cases shocked you the most? Let us know in the comments below! WatchMojo is now a multiplayer game! Wishlist Mojo Party now on Steam: https://store.steampowered.com/app/4003030/Mojo_Party Check out our Live Stream channels: LIVE - 24/7 Streaming Channel: https://wmojo.com/wm_livestream WatchMojo True Crime - 24x7 Streaming Channel: https://wmojo.com/truecrime_livestream Subscribe for more great content! https://wmojo.com/watchmojo-subscribe Visit our shop for awesome merch! https://shop.watchmojo.com/ Your trusted authority for Top 10 lists on everything from Entertainment to True Crime! #watchmojo #watchmojotruecrime #Cults #NXIVM #Rajneesh #Synanon #BikramYoga #Whistleblowers #CultLeaders #Documentary #Manipulation #TrueStory #CultSurvivors

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This episode is not just a story… it’s a reality most people wouldn’t survive. We’re diving into the terrifying world of the LeBaron polygamist cult, led by Ervil LeBaron and Joel LeBaron—where power, control, and so-called “revelation” justified manipulation, child marriage, and murder. From the doctrine of blood atonement to ordered killings, this is what happens when religion is weaponized. Inside this episode: * How Ervil took multiple wives—including other men’s wives—and reassigned families * Children being trained with weapons and raised in fear * Ervil ordered the murder of his pregnant daughter * The shocking reality of forced marriages (including a 15-year-old given to a 42-year-old man) * The assassination of Joel LeBaron—and the rise of a more dangerous leader * Life on the run, hiding from law enforcement, and cramming multiple wives and children into survival conditions * The calculated murders tied to rival polygamist groups, including orders to kill leaders for control and power * The chilling reality: disobedience meant death—even within your own family * The moment Ervil’s own son turned him in And beyond the violence—what people don’t talk about enough: Leaving. Because leaving a cult isn’t just walking away… It’s rebuilding your entire identity from scratch. We talk about: * Trauma, deprogramming, and psychological control * Learning how to make decisions for yourself for the first time * Trusting your own thoughts after years of manipulation * Why people don’t leave sooner—and why that question misses the point entirely * The long-term effects of religious extremism and cult conditioning This is a raw, unfiltered conversation about survival, control, and what it really takes to break free. Real talk—no filter. Shots of truth with no chaser.

https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ https://justprotect.org/ Celia LeBaron shares her harrowing story of growing up in the polygamist cult led by her father, Ervil LeBaron, and her journey of healing and advocacy. This conversation sheds light on the realities of cult life, trauma, and the importance of speaking out. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to Polygamy and Personal Backgrounds 03:09 Celia LeBaron's Story and the Documentary 06:00 Fear and Stigma of the LeBaron Name 09:08 Parenting and the Impact of the Past 12:00 Sibling Relationships and Family Dynamics 14:57 Education and Self-Education in a Cult 18:03 Childhood Responsibilities and Maternal Instincts 26:05 The Journey of Education in Polygamous Communities 28:02 The Impact of Leaving and Seeking Education 30:31 Financial Exploitation and Child Labor 32:50 The Law of Consecration and Its Inequalities 34:36 Breaking Free from Indoctrination 36:47 Family Dynamics and the Legacy of Dan Jordan 38:44 The Reality of Forced Labor and Survival 40:56 The Illusion of Payment and Community Support 42:03 Childhood Responsibilities and Community Expectations 44:28 Living Conditions and Resource Scarcity 50:51 Growing Up in a Polygamist Community 52:05 Backlash and Regrets Post-Documentary 53:03 The Complexity of Family Dynamics 54:31 Understanding the Impact of Upbringing 56:30 Confronting the Past and Family Legacy 01:00:08 The Need for Compassion and Understanding 01:01:33 The Journey to Authenticity 01:08:07 The Struggle for Self-Identity 01:11:10 The Importance of Education and Growth 01:14:25 Healing Through Connection and Understanding resources Daughters of the Cult (Hulu Documentary) - https://www.hulu.com/series/daughters-of-a-cult Celia LeBaron on Facebook - https://facebook.com/CKLeBaron Celia LeBaron on TikTok - https://tiktok.com/@CKLeBaron Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

Follow Celia on tic tok: https://www.tiktok.com/@cklebaron?_r=1&_t=ZP-94hdt9LRxq3 Follow Celia on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/cklebaron?igsh=MWhiNXo0aXF1bW80dg== Follow Celia on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/share/1GrKgTXwGA/?mibextid=wwXIfr Support me by subscribing on substack ❤️: https://jadenjeffs.substack.com/ On The Jaden Jeffs Podcast, Celia LeBaron, daughter of cult leader Ervil LeBaron and one of his 51 children, describes growing up in a fundamentalist Mormon commune and constantly moving between Mexico and the U.S. amid extreme poverty, welfare dependence, and child labor. She explains the Mormon-rooted doctrine of “blood atonement,” how her father used it to justify killing perceived threats and defectors, and recounts learning as an adult that her sister Rebecca—pregnant and about 18—was executed after threatening to go to police. Celia discusses FBI raids, indoctrination of children, attempted and carried-out hits including the killing of Rulon Allred by coerced teenage girls, and how life worsened under Dan Jordan’s abusive control. After a public beating and being denied education, she fled at 19 to rebuild her life, later emphasizing compassion for siblings shaped by coercion. 00:51 Meet Celia LeBaron 01:56 Blood Atonement Explained 05:54 Childhood on the Move 08:17 Obedience Training 10:03 Remembering a Prophet Father 15:53 Learning the Killings Were Real 17:32 LeBaron Split and Joel Murder 23:33 Raids and Rulon Allred Plot 29:58 Brainwashing and Alternate Reality 37:32 Purity Culture and Death Penalties 45:25 Rebecca Truth Revealed 51:03 Rulon Allred Hit and FBI Raids 57:15 Denver Slave Labor Warehouse 01:01:46 Dan Jordan Abuse 01:02:40 Keep Sweet Control 01:03:56 Prophet Arrest Fallout 01:05:54 Dad Dies in Prison 01:07:12 Back Under Dan 01:09:41 Utah Mission Tactics 01:12:08 Beaten for Disrespect 01:16:44 Mom's Role Explained 01:22:34 Planning the Escape 01:31:53 Rebuilding in Houston 01:38:32 Four O'Clock Murders 01:47:09 Misunderstood Siblings 01:53:10 Cult vs Religion 01:54:33 Vulnerable to Cults 01:57:36 Where to Follow 01:59:48 Final Thanks 👇**SHOP MERCH HERE FROM JADEN** [fromjaden.com](http://fromjaden.com) 👇 **FOLLOW + SUPPORT THE PODCAST** Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3GHUWDyJ5ZJ0QzVu8EihBH?si=hpDUxgqMR9CIkwei0Ghiew 🎧 Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-jaden-jeffs-podcast/id1795576157 ✉️ Newsletter (Substack): https://jadenjeffs.substack.com/ 👇 **MY Website** JadenJeffs.com 👇 **SOCIALS** Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/realjadenjeffs?igsh=cm9ybmY1dzk1dmNp&utm_source=qr TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jadenjeffs100?_r=1&_t=ZP-91rDt1rkLz5 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/share/1BtYdgFoS5/?mibextid=wwXIfr 👇 **WATCH NEXT** ➡️ Most Popular Videos: https://youtu.be/I-gZtaxMv9w https://youtu.be/3WIYe15Osts https://youtu.be/rNKg83fMuN4 ➡️ Podcast Playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLk3w3VkHlWzRgsNC_wNeOBxa0AEBnpsCz&si=izu5YMpxghxqO13m 👇 **BUSINESS** 📩 Contact: heyjadenjeffs@gmail.com Buy me a Coffee via Venmo ❤️ https://venmo.com/u/fitoj

Book Club! Come join us while we talk about Ruth Wariners book The Sound of Gravel. We will talk about some of the things we noticed. Come chat about what you found interesting too. https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this conversation, the hosts reflect on a transformative book that explores themes of childhood trauma, family dynamics, and the struggles of growing up in a closed community. They share personal anecdotes and insights, discussing the emotional weight of the book and its impact on their lives. The conversation delves into the complexities of abuse, the role of mothers, and the challenges faced by children in such environments. Overall, it highlights the importance of healing and understanding one's past to foster personal growth. This conversation delves into the complexities of growing up in a polygamous family, exploring themes of abuse, maternal relationships, and the struggle for personal identity amidst community expectations. The speakers reflect on the emotional weight of family secrets, the impact of trauma, and the journey towards healing and resilience. Through personal anecdotes and shared experiences, they highlight the challenges faced by individuals in such environments and the strength required to break free from cycles of abuse and shame. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Book Overview 02:22 Personal Reflections on the Book 06:50 The Impact of Childhood Responsibilities 10:34 The Struggles of Growing Up in a Closed Community 14:32 Abuse and Its Consequences 19:17 Family Dynamics and Communication Issues 23:28 The Role of Mothers in Abusive Situations 28:00 Community Responses to Abuse 31:11 The Weight of Family Secrets 34:33 Navigating Abuse and Community Dynamics 38:48 The Struggles of Growing Up in Polygamy 43:49 The Complexity of Maternal Relationships 46:45 Loss and Grief in a Polygamous Family 52:55 Faith and Accountability in the Face of Tragedy 01:00:07 Triumph Over Trauma and the Path to Healing Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this conversation, the speakers discuss their personal journeys of healing and growth after leaving a cult. They explore the complexities of family dynamics, the importance of support systems, and the role of writing as a therapeutic outlet. The conversation highlights the ongoing challenges of navigating relationships with siblings and the impact of childhood experiences on personal development. Through sharing their stories, they emphasize the significance of understanding and communication in fostering healing and connection. In this conversation, Ruth shares her journey of understanding her family history and the impact of her upbringing on her personal healing. She discusses the importance of conveying her mother's story to her siblings, the trauma of food insecurity, and the dynamics of sibling relationships shaped by shared experiences. Ruth reflects on her mother's influences, the challenges of addressing abuse within their community, and the complexities of relationships formed in such environments. The conversation highlights the struggle for self-esteem and the lasting effects of childhood trauma. In this conversation, Ruth and her host explore the complexities of trauma, healing, and the dynamics of mother-daughter relationships within the context of polygamy. They discuss the physical manifestations of trauma, the importance of storytelling in healing, and the challenges faced by those in foster care. The conversation also touches on the impact of media representations of polygamy and the significance of community outreach and public speaking in raising awareness and supporting others. Chapters 00:00 Navigating Technical Challenges in Live Streaming 02:59 The Impact of Healing and Personal Growth 05:57 Family Dynamics and Relationships Post-Cult 09:10 The Journey of Healing and Support Systems 11:54 The Complexity of Sibling Relationships 14:56 Parenting and PTSD: Reflections on Childhood 18:02 The Motivation Behind Writing a Memoir 24:47 Understanding Family History and Personal Healing 30:12 The Impact of Food Insecurity and Trauma 31:52 Sibling Relationships and Shared Trauma 33:09 Exploring Maternal Influences and Self-Esteem 39:16 Addressing Abuse and Community Silence 44:07 Reflections on Relationships and Legacy 49:06 Coping with Trauma and Body Responses 51:02 Mother-Daughter Dynamics and Competition 53:24 The Impact of Storytelling on Healing 54:12 Public Speaking and Community Outreach 56:30 The Challenges of Supporting Foster Children 57:55 Polygamy: Legal Perspectives and Community Dynamics 01:00:10 Media Representation of Polygamy 01:02:12 The Importance of Sharing Stories for Healing Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

Book Club! Come join us while we talk about Ruth Wariners book The Sound of Gravel. We will talk about some of the things we noticed. Come chat about what you found interesting too. https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this book club discussion, the participants delve into the heavy themes presented in 'The Sound of Gravel,' exploring the complexities of family dynamics, trauma, and the impact of neglect on children. They reflect on their own experiences and the importance of healing and forgiveness, while also addressing the broader societal issues of abuse within closed communities. The conversation emphasizes the need for open communication and the lifelong journey of healing from childhood trauma. This conversation delves into the complexities of healing from a polygamous upbringing, exploring themes of gratitude, family dynamics, mental health, and the impact of silence on personal growth. The speakers reflect on their experiences with sibling relationships, the burden of familial expectations, and the challenges of navigating career aspirations within a restrictive environment. They also discuss the cycle of abuse and the importance of forgiveness, emphasizing the need for support among survivors. The conversation delves into the complexities of family dynamics, grief, and the struggle for identity within a polygamous context. It explores the impact of loss on relationships, the burden of responsibilities, and the challenges of forgiveness. The speakers reflect on their experiences with maternal relationships, the silence surrounding abuse, and the journey towards healing and self-advocacy. The discussion emphasizes the importance of speaking out against injustices and the need for compassion in confronting difficult topics. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to the Book Club Discussion 06:03 Reflections on Family Dynamics and Trauma 11:56 Navigating Healing and Forgiveness 18:00 The Role of Parenting and Community Support 24:08 The Struggles of Growing Up in a Cult 29:51 The Role of Authority and Trust in Family 35:55 The Importance of Open Communication 46:56 Gratitude Over Resentment 53:18 The Impact of Mental Health 56:10 Siblings and Relationships in Polygamy 01:00:31 The Burden of Silence 01:04:49 Career Aspirations and Gender Roles 01:09:29 Confronting Family Issues 01:13:30 The Cycle of Abuse and Forgiveness 01:31:27 Navigating Family Dynamics and Responsibilities 01:32:48 The Impact of Loss on Family Relationships 01:34:07 Understanding Grief and Sibling Bonds 01:36:07 Doctrine vs. Dignity in Family Care 01:37:26 The Complexity of Forgiveness 01:39:18 The Burden of Responsibility in Family Dynamics 01:40:40 The Struggle for Authenticity in Family Life 01:42:49 Fear and Control in Community Dynamics 01:44:09 The Weight of Expectations and Promises 01:45:51 The Reality of Polygamous Living Arrangements 01:48:55 The Consequences of Abuse and Silence 01:50:45 Desperation and the Need for Healing 01:52:38 The Struggle with Self-Image and Shame 01:54:34 The Afterlife and Gender Dynamics in Beliefs 01:56:23 The Complexity of Family Loyalty and Protection 01:58:02 The Challenge of Speaking Out Against Abuse 02:00:08 The Pain of Maternal Betrayal 02:02:02 The Burden of Forgiveness and Acceptance 02:04:16 The Journey of Healing and Awareness 02:06:54 The Importance of Speaking Out for Change 02:09:10 Preparing for Public Advocacy 02:12:03 Confronting Difficult Topics with Compassion Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

Book Club! Come join us while we talk about Ruth Wariners book The Sound of Gravel. We will talk about some of the things we noticed. Come chat about what you found interesting too. https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this conversation, the hosts delve into the complexities of trauma, healing, and the impact of generational patterns on personal growth. They discuss their experiences with abuse, the importance of open communication in parenting, and the challenges of navigating difficult conversations about sensitive topics. The discussion also touches on the role of charismatic leadership in communities and the need for accountability in the face of victimhood. Through personal anecdotes and reflections, the hosts emphasize the significance of starting one's healing journey and the importance of breaking the cycle of trauma for future generations. This conversation delves into the complexities of family dynamics within a cult, exploring themes of fear, trauma, and the search for authenticity. The speakers reflect on their experiences growing up in a polygamous environment, discussing the challenges of motherhood, the impact of instability on childhood, and the struggle to seek help outside of traditional beliefs. They also touch on the influence of fear in parenting and the weight of expectations placed on individuals within such communities. This conversation delves into the complexities of growing up in a polygamous family, exploring themes of childhood safety, parental dynamics, and the impact of abuse. The speakers reflect on their experiences of feeling neglected and the struggles of navigating relationships with their parents. They discuss the challenges of questioning their realities as victims and the importance of healing and breaking generational cycles of trauma. The conversation emphasizes the need for transparency and truth in discussing these experiences, as well as the empowerment that comes from storytelling and sharing their journeys. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and New Beginnings 06:14 Intense Book Discussions 07:32 Personal Reflections on Trauma 10:51 The Importance of Healing 12:56 Navigating Difficult Conversations 16:12 Parenting and Communication 19:01 The Complexity of Victimhood 22:38 Righteous Anger and Accountability 25:02 Generational Patterns and Choices 28:20 Finding Stability in Chaos 31:34 The Role of Grandparents 35:22 Charismatic Leadership and Community Dynamics 38:05 Understanding the Past 41:47 Reflections on Healing and Growth 43:43 The Complexity of Family Dynamics 46:05 Navigating Fear and Faith 48:02 Abuse and the Cycle of Trauma 50:51 Seeking Help and Breaking Stigmas 54:09 Creating Moments of Joy Amidst Chaos 57:10 The Struggles of Motherhood in a Cult 59:52 The Weight of Beliefs and Expectations 01:03:07 The Impact of Instability on Childhood 01:06:13 The Role of Pride and Responsibility 01:09:09 The Influence of Fear in Parenting 01:12:02 Understanding Family History and Legacy 01:14:59 The Consequences of Cult Leadership 01:18:07 The Complexity of Relationships in Polygamy 01:20:58 The Struggle for Truth and Authenticity 01:23:46 The Complexity of Childhood Safety 01:26:12 Navigating Parental Dynamics in Polygamous Families 01:29:27 The Impact of Abuse and Silence 01:34:03 Questioning Reality: Victimhood and Skepticism 01:39:30 Healing and Breaking Generational Cycles 01:46:48 The Struggle for Transparency and Truth 01:51:21 Reflections on Family Legacy and Abuse 01:56:22 Empowerment Through Storytelling and Healing Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

Book Club! Come join us while we talk about Ruth Wariners book The Sound of Gravel. We will talk about some of the things we noticed. Come chat about what you found interesting too. https://holdingouthelp.org/get-involved/ In this engaging book club discussion, the hosts delve into their personal connections to the book, exploring themes of polygamy, childhood experiences, and the impact of trauma. They reflect on their upbringing in polygamous communities, discussing the dynamics of marriage, family responsibilities, and the heavy realities of poverty. The conversation also touches on religious beliefs and the psychological effects of growing up in such environments, providing a heartfelt and insightful exploration of their pasts. This conversation delves into the complexities of growing up in a polygamous community, exploring themes of poverty, disappointment, and the emotional toll of childhood responsibilities. It highlights the roles of stepfathers, the impact of mental health on family dynamics, and the significance of nurturing moments amidst chaos. The discussion also touches on cultural beliefs surrounding Christmas and the grooming process in abusive relationships, ultimately revealing the contradictions within the community's values regarding family and faith. This conversation delves into the complexities of family dynamics within polygamous relationships, exploring themes of emotional abuse, transactional marriages, and the illusion of choice faced by women. The speakers share personal experiences and insights, highlighting the emotional toll of growing up in such environments and the challenges of seeking freedom from oppressive structures. The discussion also touches on the fear of government intervention and the control exerted by polygamous communities. Chapters 00:00 Introduction to the Book Club Discussion 02:47 Personal Connections to the Book 06:14 Background on Polygamous Communities 08:57 Childhood Experiences in Polygamy 11:58 Marriage and Family Dynamics 14:50 Life Skills and Responsibilities 18:04 Religious Beliefs and Revelations 20:47 Reflections on Poverty and Upbringing 24:09 The Impact of Trauma 27:04 Community and Family Relationships 30:10 The Role of Women in Polygamous Families 33:07 Conclusions and Final Thoughts 43:05 Navigating Borders and Identity 46:45 Poverty and Perception 49:55 Disappointment and Resilience 52:47 The Role of Stepfathers in Polygamous Families 56:06 Childhood Responsibilities and Abuse 01:01:06 Mental Health and Family Dynamics 01:06:50 Christmas Memories and Cultural Beliefs 01:09:00 Grooming and Abuse in Secret Societies 01:15:32 Nurturing Moments and Family Dynamics 01:18:19 Faith, Fear, and Community Dynamics 01:20:26 Discovering Sisterhood in School 01:24:47 The Complexity of Family Dynamics in Polygamy 01:27:10 The Emotional Toll of Polygamous Relationships 01:30:49 Transactional Marriages and Emotional Abuse 01:32:29 The Cycle of Abuse and Control 01:39:54 The Illusion of Choice in Polygamous Marriages 01:45:51 The Impact of Childhood Experiences on Adult Relationships 01:51:38 Seeking Freedom: The Journey Out of Polygamy 02:01:03 The Fear of Government and Control in Polygamous Communities Buy Me A Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/Notestoself444 Follow us on our social media: Instagram @ https://www.instagram.com/notestoself444?igsh=MWYwMWh4ajVnZ3k4&utm_source=qr TikTok https://www.tiktok.com/@notestoself444?_t=8sHjRGapQr8&_r=1 Facebook https://www.facebook.com/share/1Bf27CAJoy/?mibextid=wwXIfr Spotify https://anchor.fm/s/ee26903c/podcast/rss Any topics you would like us to cover please reach out to us by email: notestoself444@gmail.com Our affiliate link for our podcast platform. https://riverside.cello.so/CoiSG42zi2f #notestoself #444 #polygamy #sisterwives #AUB #FLDS #mormon #exmo #cultsurvivor #sisterwivestalk #sisterwivestok #kodybrown #meribrown #janellebrown #christinebrown #robynbrown #season19 #season20

Join Amanda and Kelsey as they  explore books that highlight themes of poverty, resilience, and systemic inequalities. From personal memoirs to stories of activism and struggle, they delve into narratives that reveal the harsh realities faced by many. Make sure to share with us your own recs for Poverty Awareness Month!00:00 Welcome to Lit Vibes00:21 Follow Us on Social Media02:35 Our Current Reads06:59 All About Poverty Awareness Month08:51 Heir by Sabaa Tahir16:54 Finding Me by Viola Davis24:02 Making a Difference: My Fight for Native Rights by Ada Deer31:51 The Sound of Gravel by Ruth Wariner38:13 Conclusion and Social Media PlugsSend us a textFollow us on TikTok & Youtube @litvibesonlypodcast and on Instagram @litvibesonly_podcast. You can also email us at litvibesonlypodcast@gmail.com We'd love to hear from you!See you on Mondays!

#eastidahonews #courtroominsider #polygamous Tonight on "Courtroom Insider," Nate Eaton has the latest on Bryan Kohberger, Lori Vallow Daybell, the missing FLDS kids from eastern Idaho and Anna LeBaron, author of "The Polygamist's Daughter" joins Nate for a candid conversation. Let us know where you're watching from and if you have any questions.

The Lebaron group fled the US after being excommunicated from the Mormon church for still practicing polygamy. While in Mexico, the group split and Ervilite side started implementing bl*od atonement in an attempt to wipe out the other. Pamela Jones grew up in fear that the Ervilites would come for them any moment. To escape the extreme ab*se, she got married at 15, not realizing she was entering into the Ervilite family. Her husband went on to marry 5 other women while keeping her and her family in forced poverty, even restricting water. Today we speak with two of Pamela's daughters who give us their perspective on the cult and fleeing to the US to start a new life. Watch part 1 of Pamela’s interview: https://youtu.be/BSaOV12BC1M?si=JBuFbXCCpeQenHw7 Watch part 2 of Pamela’s interview: https://youtu.be/nvK5L8Qsrcs?si=b_k3JYRCCg01S_qx Find Pamela! Pamela’s website: www.Pamelaspeaks.live Pamela’s book: The Dirt Beneath Our Door https://www.pamelaspeaks.live/book Pamela’s Podcast: Wicked Confessions Uncensored https://www.wickedconfessionsuncensored.com/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page: https://trovatrip.com/trip/north-america/mexico/mexico-with-shelise-sola-oct-2025 Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! https://www.youtube.com/@CultstoConsciousnessClips Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! https://cults-to-consciousness-shop.fourthwall.com/en-usd Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness https://www.instagram.com/cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann https://www.instagram.com/sheliseann/ Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ https://www.instagram.com/jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness https://www.tiktok.com/@cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon https://twitter.com/cultstocon

The actress talks to “GMA” about her role in “The Thirteenth Wife: Escaping Polygamy,” a two-part Lifetime movie. SUBSCRIBE to GMA on YouTube: https://bit.ly/2Zq0dU5 SIGN UP to get the daily GMA Wake-Up Newsletter: https://tinyurl.com/yc34mz6t VISIT GMA: https://www.goodmorningamerica.com FOLLOW: TikTok: https://tiktok.com/@gma Instagram: https://instagram.com/GoodMorningAmerica Facebook: https://facebook.com/GoodMorningAmerica Threads: https://www.threads.net/@goodmorningamerica X: https://twitter.com/gma

In this episode of The Voice of Influence Podcast, Andrea Wenburg and Rosanne Moore take a deeper dive into the prior interview with Anna LeBaron, who discussed her experiences escaping a violent polygamist cult. They reflect on cult dynamics and the importance of personal agency, referencing historical and contemporary examples, both religious and secular. They also discuss themes like empathy, respect, and the psychological manipulation that sustains cult-like environments. The conversation emphasizes the moral courage required to break free from coercive control and the critical need for self-examination in personal beliefs. 00:00 Introduction and Episode Recap 01:23 Revisiting Anna and Ruth's Story 03:18 Introducing Roseanne Moore 03:28 Understanding Cult Dynamics 11:23 Anna's Memoir: The Polygamist Daughter 23:23 Ervil LeBaron: The Mormon Manson 28:43 Acknowledging Manipulative Tendencies 29:55 Character and Charisma 32:10 The Daughters of the Cult Docuseries 36:05 Empathy and Compassion 39:59 Respect and Human Dignity 49:09 Blood Atonement and Fundamentalism 55:03 Concluding Thoughts and Next Episode Preview Get our free course "Deep Impact Method" to learn how to give and receive feedback that makes a difference. Register here: https://andreajoywenburg.lpages.co/de...

In this special Remix episode of the Voice of Influence Podcast, we revisit and remix episodes 7 and 8 with Anna LeBaron and Ruth Warner, two cousins who escaped violent polygamous cults founded by their fathers. The episode delves into their harrowing experiences, the bond they formed upon discovering their connection, and the healing journey that followed. They discuss their impactful memoirs, The Polygamist Daughter and The Sound of Gravel, and reflect on the challenges and triumphs of telling their stories. Highlighting themes of courage, healing, and finding your voice, this episode aims to inspire and empower listeners to overcome their own struggles. Mentioned In this Episode: The Polygamist Daughter  The Sound of Gravel Set Up for Success at Work 00:00 Introduction and Special Episode Announcement 00:09 Background of Anna and Ruth's Family 01:11 The Violent History of the Polygamous Cult 02:01 Anna and Ruth's Escape and Reconnection 02:54 The Impact of Their Memoirs 04:57 Revisiting the 2017 Interview 05:35 The 2017 Interview Begins 06:37 Anna and Ruth's Personal Stories 08:20 The Emotional First Meeting 16:35 Healing Through Connection] 37:02 Challenges of Sharing Their Stories 45:57 A Desperate Escape 46:47 Crossing the Border 48:26 Life After the Escape 49:05 Family Resistance and Social Media 50:21 Questioning the Past 50:45 Impact of Community and Family Reactions 51:23 Struggles with Self-Worth 52:12 Intuition and Abuse 53:31 Mother's Influence and Writing the Book 54:57 Challenges of Sharing the Story 55:48 Emotional Manipulation and Silence 57:05 Reading the Book to Her Mother 58:43 Conflicting Feelings About Family 01:04:56 Therapy and Healing 01:10:16 Finding Freedom and Voice 01:17:25 Advice for Those Feeling Trapped 01:24:13 The Power of Stories and Books 01:25:25 Mission and Message 01:28:59 Closing Remarks and Contact Information Get our free course "Deep Impact Method" to learn how to give and receive feedback that makes a difference. Register here: https://andreajoywenburg.lpages.co/de...

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In Big Love Season 2, Episodes 5-8, things take a dramatic turn as Bill secretly courts a potential fourth wife behind his other wives’ backs—because honesty in polygamy is apparently optional! 😳 But that’s not all—this stretch of the show also introduces a new polygamous group that feels eerily similar to the real-life LeBaron cult, known for its extreme beliefs and violent history. Join us as we break down Bill’s shady decisions, the terrifying new group, and how these storylines connect to actual fundamentalist history. Is Big Love more realistic than we thought? Let’s talk about it! 🔔 Don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more deep dives into polygamy in pop culture! #BigLove #Polygamy #TVReaction #ExMormon #Fundamentalism #TrueCrime #CultTalk Chapters: 00:00:00 Bill's Secret Courtship and New Polygamist Group 00:03:06 Bill's Polygamy Dilemma: The Fourth Wife Controversy 00:06:05 Navigating Polygamy: The Challenges of a Fourth Wife 00:09:06 The Role of a Bishop and Mormon Teachings on Marriage 00:12:22 The Challenge of Polygamy and Relationships 00:15:37 Father-Son Bonding in Mormonism 00:18:39 Capture of Warren Jeffs and FLDS Ties 00:22:00 Power Struggles and Leadership in Juniper Creek 00:25:18 Analyzing Rhonda's Controversial Survival Strategies 00:28:30 Brief Conclusion Join our NEW Patreon HERE: https://patreon.com/growingupinpolygamy If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy New website is now up! www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com ✅SUBSCRIBE NOW : https://shorturl.at/inqrE #like #comment #post #share and #encourage other to #subscribe to the channel.

Join Kristen and Laura at the crack of dawn as they dive into the chilling documentary 'Daughters of the Cult'. This episode explores the sinister life of Ervil LeBaron, the self-proclaimed prophet and leader of a fundamentalist Mormon cult. Ervil's journey from jealousy and manipulation to orchestrating murders within his own family highlights the depths of his delusions and control. Discover how his teachings, rooted in the macabre doctrine of blood atonement, led to a series of gruesome events, including the murder of his own brother and influential figures like Rulan Allred. This is part one of a two-part series that intertwines with the complex history of the LeBaron family and its connections to modern polygamist communities, including 'Sister Wives'. Stay tuned for part two to uncover more about the distressing experiences of Ervil's children and their quest for redemption. 00:00 Welcome and Early Morning Banter 00:57 Movie Talk and Caffeine Preferences 03:38 Introduction to Daughters of the Cult 04:18 Ervil LeBaron and His Notorious Legacy 09:09 The LeBaron Family Dynamics 14:15 Ervil's Rivalry with Joel 17:30 Ervil's New Sect and Dark Preachings 19:09 Unveiling the Cult's Dark Secrets 19:44 Ervil's Manipulative Tactics 21:25 The Isolated Community 22:24 Ervil's Family Dynamics 27:00 The Murder of Joel 31:08 The Plot Against Rulan 38:07 The Aftermath and Conclusion For more bonus episodes, hot takes, & trash, join us over on our Patreon: patreon.com/The_Reality_Rewind_Podcast Join our Facebook group Reality Rewind Podcast here: https://www.facebook.com/share/g/1YoKF8tiET/?mibextid=K35XfP Follow Reality Rewind Podcast on Instagram @realityrewindpod! Email us at realityrewindpodcast3@gmail.com!

In this gripping episode, we uncover the chilling stories behind three infamous cults that pushed the boundaries of belief and control, from Roch Thériault's Anthill Kids, where followers endured unthinkable torture in the name of salvation, to Amy Carlson’s Love Has Won, a modern-day New Age cult with a disturbing end. We also dive deep into the Church of the Lamb of God, led by the murderous prophet Ervil LeBaron, who turned religious doctrine into a deadly hit list.Discover the twisted timelines, conspiracies, and the lasting impact of these groups on society—both then and now. Prepare for a shocking exploration into the minds of cult leaders and their followers, as well as the public’s reaction to these disturbing chapters of history.

What happens when faith becomes a weapon of fear? The Lamb of God cult, led by the ruthless Ervil LeBaron, left a trail of terror, manipulation, and violence that spanned decades. From orchestrating murders in the name of “divine justice” to forcing loyalty through fear and bloodshed, this cult stands as one of history’s most chilling examples of religious extremism gone wrong. In this deep dive, we uncover the dark truth behind the Lamb of God cult: Ervil’s rise to power, the psychological tactics he used to control his followers, and the heartbreaking stories of those who escaped his grip. How could one man turn devotion into destruction—and what lessons can we learn from this harrowing tale? Watch now as we unravel the shocking truth about the Lamb of God cult, and don’t forget to share your thoughts in the comments. Trigger warning: This video discusses violence, ab*se, and religious extremism. DISCLAIMER: This video is for entertainment purposes only. It is not meant to malign anyone from any group, person, entity or organization. Erin presents many opinions, so please do your own opinions. Viewer discretion is advised.

TRIGGER WARNING: Please be aware that this video will contain discussions of CSA, ince**, and DV. Viewer discretion is advised. It's the video that I feel like you have all been waiting for. Finally, I go over the six memoirs about the Church of the Firstborn of the Fulness of Time and its rival Church of the Lamb of God, and how the latter becomes vicious under the leadership of Ervil LeBaron. Within this world of insanity, women grow up, are married off, and raise children in these polygamist cults that seems to only serve the men around them. Timestamps: Introduction: 00:00 - 00:58 Shattered Dreams: 00:59 - 4:09 Daughters of Zion: A Family's Conversion to Polygamy: 4:10 - 7:21 Favorite Wife: 7:21- 12:41 The Sounds of Gravel: 12:42-17:13 The Polygamist's Daughter: 17:14-21:16 Dad Scares Me God Scares Me: 21:16 Books Referenced - LeBaron, Anna. The Polygamist's Daughter. (2017). Tyndale House Publishers. LaRee, Vera. Dad Scares Me God Scares Me. (2020). Watermark Publishing Ray, Susan. His Favorite Wife. (2009). Kassidy Lane Pub Llc Spencer, Irene. Shattered Dreams: My Life as a Polygamist's Wife. (2007). Center Street Taylor, Kim. Daughters of Zion: A Family's Conversion to Polygamy. (2008). Rogue Hill Publishing LLC Wariner, Ruth. The Sounds of Gravel. (2016). Flatiron Books