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• Blogger • Mental Illness & Arthritis Advocate • Chronic Pain • Writer • Schizoaffective (Bipolar Type) • PTSD • GAD • Hypothyroid • Religious Trauma • Recovering Addict • Osteoarthritis • RA • Recycler • Extra Liberal •

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Olfactory and Gustatory Hallucinations and Some Other Things…
I took a couple of weeks off. I’m sure you noticed. I just planned on taking one week off, but then I got a cold or flu of some sort and felt like garbage for about four or five days. So I had to t…
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September 23, 2026 at 8:25 PM
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If Only I Could Quit (Fawning) (Smoking) (Mistaking my Negative Symptoms for Depression)…
Again, I haven’t written anything all week. I wasn’t as busy this week – I don’t know what stopped me from writing, really. I’m still trying to quit smoking. I had an appointment with an addi…
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September 1, 2026 at 12:53 AM
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Some of my Current Paranoia and Anxiety Struggles
I haven’t talked about my hallucinations or paranoia or anything mental illness symptom wise in a couple of entries. Not because they haven’t been happening. Just because I’ve been so focused and p…
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August 22, 2026 at 4:10 PM
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Medical Issues Continued…
Oh boy it’s been a long week. It’s Friday night and I’m just getting around to starting to write. Ah, shit. That’s what I get for being busy. Monday this week I had my primary care appointment. It …
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August 17, 2026 at 6:32 PM
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My Two DVT Troubles; Sleep, Pain, Dissociating, Appointments and Medication Side Effects
So I’m still dealing with my DVT’s this week. Two of fucking them. They’re the blood clots that are in my right leg. They take weeks if not months to go away and dissolve. And even then still…
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August 3, 2026 at 2:43 PM
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A Procedure with a Twist of DVT
I had a sclerotherapy procedure on Friday afternoon last week. On my lower, right leg. Today is Saturday now (last week), and it’s going well. I’m sore, for sure. And a bit swollen. I had to limp a…
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July 25, 2026 at 8:33 PM
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I Binge Eat to Cope With my Emotions – My Emotional Relationship with Food
I meant to go to group today, it’s Tuesday. I was finishing up that Neutrality post from earlier this week, and totally lost track of time. I’m kinda mad at myself about it. At least there’s Life S…
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July 18, 2026 at 6:30 PM
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Neutrality, The Lost Middle Step on The Journey to Self Love -aka- Holding Myself in Neutrality, Because I’m Not Ready to Even Like Myself Yet
TW: a brief mention of sh, no details, one mention of ideations, no details, self loathing thoughts discussed in detail. I have actively hated myself for decades. I am talking, most of my life. Act…
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July 14, 2026 at 6:40 PM
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Opposite: A Lost Personality Post Psychotic Break, and Other Things
I had this whole different entry written up. It was about sh. I can’t even spell it out because I remembered at the end, this morning, that fb and bluesky will block me if I fucking do. But I had s…
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July 12, 2026 at 6:37 PM
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A Voices Dialogue, and Having Chronic Pain with Schizoaffective Disorder
I’ve been hearing the third floor neighbor talk about me. Again. This time it’s the voice of the new third floor neighbor, and her grandson, just agreeing with her with a random “mmm-hmm” and whatn…
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July 5, 2026 at 9:02 PM
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Hypothyroidism and Anhedonia, Along with Being “Too Much” and Losing Trust in People
I’m feeling empty. I don’t like myself, or anything really. I’m still feeling like a massive disappointment in life and like nothing matters. I just don’t really care about much but Bruce. The tv i…
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June 28, 2026 at 4:35 PM
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Chronic Pain, A Divorceiversary, and the Other End of an Episode
My left eye won’t stop twitching. It’s been about four days of off and on twitching. My heart is beating out of my chest – through the twice daily 120mg’s of extended release Propranolol.&nbs…
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June 20, 2026 at 6:02 PM
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The Pains of Chronic Illness, and, of Course, Even More Doctor Appointments
How did I sleep and injure myself? How did I hurt myself, while I was sleeping? That is seriously ridiculous. My left hip is fucking killing me. It’s radiating into my lower leg, and into my lower …
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June 13, 2026 at 6:07 PM
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More Appointments, More Anxieties and Even More Medication Acceptance
This was absolutely wild… My parents told me this last weekend that apparently I played an entire season of basketball in the 6th grade. I have zero recollection of this. I mean, not one single mem…
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June 7, 2026 at 4:21 PM
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Dealing with Anxieties and Friendship, and Accepting my Medications as Tools
It’s Monday today. And I don’t know why I can’t be happy for more than two days in a row. Three if I’m lucky. I started to get anxious again yesterday, Sunday. Had a huge panic attack. I had to tak…
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May 31, 2026 at 4:56 PM
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From the Doctors to the Banks and to the Dealerships
So, it’s Monday. It’s been a day. Up and down. It started alright, made a couple of phone calls – made an appointment with my pain management doctor for a follow up after my nano PRP injectio…
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May 24, 2026 at 8:05 PM
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Mental and Physical Symptoms are Taking Over
I’ve been hearing shit this weekend still. Just like last week, most all of the “neighbors” are back. Fml. The “third floor neighbor” voices are here again. I saw a random guy – probably the …
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May 15, 2026 at 5:24 PM
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Stress and Hallucinations
My anxiety has been out of control ever since the airbags randomly deployed in the Pilot at the end of March. I’m talking pretty much daily panic attacks. I’ve been using my TouchPoints constantly.…
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May 8, 2026 at 6:56 PM
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Everything is Stressful and Changing
I’m so fucking scared. My apartment complex just got sold. And they fired everyone who works here. I’ve been living here since I moved to Texas, for over four years, and I’m so scared as to what th…
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May 2, 2026 at 10:09 PM
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I Got Sick Sitting by Myself
I feel horrible that I couldn’t put a blog entry together last week. I wrote up some stuff, but I absolutely hated all of it. So I just didn’t post anything. I feel like I have nothing constructive…
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April 26, 2026 at 4:44 PM
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My Anxiety Caused Motion Sickness and Other Shituations…
I’m running on fumes. Emotionally, physically, financially. The whole picture is thin right now. The good thing is that I cleaned out the Pilot (on Friday afternoon last week). Got it ready for tod…
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April 12, 2026 at 4:09 PM
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Medications: Part Fourteen
I had a really good weekend. I’m feeling less anxious from the Honda’s airbags randomly deploying as the days pass. I’m noticing I’m still on edge a bit. I’m still needing my PRN anxiety medication…
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April 3, 2026 at 5:00 PM
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My Car Traumas
I’ve been stressed this week. Well, actually, I’ve been super anxious. It’s from what happened with my Honda. I didn’t really go into it last week because I wanted to cover another topic. But I’ll …
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March 28, 2026 at 3:31 PM
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How Mental Illness Affected my Ability to Think
I’m exhausted today. It’s Friday and I’ve had a helluva week. Between the Pilot’s airbags randomly deploying while I was driving home on Saturday (yeah, I know, scary, huh?) and dealing with my fin…
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March 21, 2026 at 1:34 AM
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What I’ve Learned Advocating for Myself in Healthcare (and more!)
As down on myself as I get for not being social, I have been more social the past few months. I just haven’t really made any more friends. Which is fine right now. I’m not gonna get down on myself …
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March 15, 2026 at 8:10 PM