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July 11, 2025 at 7:26 PM
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Navigating Trust and Friendships with Schizoaffective Disorder
I’m feeling off this week. Socially, emotionally, off. I feel like there’s a part missing in my life. And it’s the social part. I want to be social. But I also completely dread it and don’t want to…
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November 30, 2025 at 9:40 PM
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ADHD and Medication Changes
I’ve been feeling a bit better in my lumbar ablation recovery. Walking good and eating less. Trying to at least. This week has been decent with those types of things. Could be better. But it also c…
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February 15, 2025 at 12:56 AM
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Pain
I’ve been having some more aches and pains lately. Not that they ever, ever go away. But some days and weeks are better than others. And this week has been more painful than the last couple. Especi…
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January 5, 2026 at 12:30 AM
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Medications: Part Fourteen
I had a really good weekend. I’m feeling less anxious from the Honda’s airbags randomly deploying as the days pass. I’m noticing I’m still on edge a bit. I’m still needing my PRN anxiety medication…
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April 3, 2026 at 5:00 PM
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Olfactory and Gustatory Hallucinations and Some Other Things…
I took a couple of weeks off. I’m sure you noticed. I just planned on taking one week off, but then I got a cold or flu of some sort and felt like garbage for about four or five days. So I had to t…
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September 23, 2026 at 8:25 PM
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I Binge Eat to Cope With my Emotions – My Emotional Relationship with Food
I meant to go to group today, it’s Tuesday. I was finishing up that Neutrality post from earlier this week, and totally lost track of time. I’m kinda mad at myself about it. At least there’s Life S…
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July 18, 2026 at 6:30 PM
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A Voices Dialogue, and Having Chronic Pain with Schizoaffective Disorder
I’ve been hearing the third floor neighbor talk about me. Again. This time it’s the voice of the new third floor neighbor, and her grandson, just agreeing with her with a random “mmm-hmm” and whatn…
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July 5, 2026 at 9:02 PM
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EMDR Work and a Nutritionist Appointment
I’ve been doing EMDR therapy with my one on one therapist for a while now. She’s been having me write down my triggers throughout the weeks. And I’ve noticed that as we go on, I’m getting triggered…
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November 25, 2025 at 12:36 AM
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Dealing with Anxieties and Friendship, and Accepting my Medications as Tools
It’s Monday today. And I don’t know why I can’t be happy for more than two days in a row. Three if I’m lucky. I started to get anxious again yesterday, Sunday. Had a huge panic attack. I had to tak…
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May 31, 2026 at 4:56 PM
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My Therapy Journey
I can’t even tell you how many therapists I’ve seen in my life. Dozens, easy. I used to think therapy was useless. What good does it do to talk to a stranger (who you’re paying) about my stupid lif…
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April 12, 2025 at 8:28 PM
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Nano PRP and Group Therapy
It’s been a decent week. I got my nano PRP injections today (it’s Friday). The stem cells from umbilical cords. My knees feel cushioned this afternoon. So does my left big toe. My knees have been i…
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January 12, 2026 at 6:34 PM
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Neutrality
So, I have a really, really tough time trying to “love” myself. This isn’t a new thing either. It’s not like I woke up this morning and realized this. I’ve hated myself for so many decades that the…
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December 9, 2025 at 1:28 AM
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My Eating is an Addiction
My eating is an addiction. I want that immediate pleasure from food. I want that instant satisfaction. And I wanted it yesterday. And every day I wake up telling myself that today is going to be th…
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February 1, 2025 at 6:36 PM
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Mental and Physical Symptoms are Taking Over
I’ve been hearing shit this weekend still. Just like last week, most all of the “neighbors” are back. Fml. The “third floor neighbor” voices are here again. I saw a random guy – probably the …
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May 15, 2026 at 5:24 PM
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I’m Feeling Like Isolating
I saw this meme quote thing the other day. It said something to the extent that trauma can make someone feel that they need to isolate. And I’ve been thinking about that a lot this week. I even tal…
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May 24, 2025 at 5:38 PM
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My Anxiety Caused Motion Sickness and Other Shituations…
I’m running on fumes. Emotionally, physically, financially. The whole picture is thin right now. The good thing is that I cleaned out the Pilot (on Friday afternoon last week). Got it ready for tod…
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April 12, 2026 at 4:09 PM
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I Forgot That I Remembered It Wrong
My brain feels shriveled after that psychotic episode this last week. I’m just now resurfacing. It’s Saturday and I still can’t think properly. My body is fucking killing me. I mean, I’ve been walk…
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March 10, 2025 at 11:00 PM
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More Appointments, More Anxieties and Even More Medication Acceptance
This was absolutely wild… My parents told me this last weekend that apparently I played an entire season of basketball in the 6th grade. I have zero recollection of this. I mean, not one single mem…
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June 7, 2026 at 4:21 PM
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Weight and Sweat
I just noticed I’ve been avoiding taking my picture again lately. I know I hate how heavy I am again. I’ve gained what feels like a ton of weight back after losing 100lbs. It’s not a ton, but I hav…
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January 3, 2025 at 7:38 PM
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Medications:Part Twelve

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Medications: Part Twelve
I’m coming off of my Buspirone this weekend. Fuck that shit. I’m sick of it. It doesn’t work. I’m sick of the medication fillers that puff my body up. That makes my vision blurry. That makes my bod…
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December 15, 2024 at 11:21 PM
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Voices and Even More Appointments
I had a couple following me the other day. I smelled a thick fog of weed smoke as I was walking Bruce, at the front of the apartment complex. As I smelled it, and Bruce smelled the ground, the coup…
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November 17, 2025 at 9:53 PM
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My Rheumatologist Appointment Went Terribly…
It is my birthday week. I had a good time besides a shitty appointment with my rheumatologist, who will no longer be my doctor now. I’ll get into it. Number one his office is a little over 40 minut…
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March 8, 2026 at 6:35 PM
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I Did DNA Testing and Holy S#!t
I’ve still been having minimal symptoms again this week. I heard some music – the “radio DJ” I call it, the other week while at my parents house. But since then, I’ve just been listening to t…
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March 1, 2026 at 8:41 PM
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I’m Not Who I Once Was
I used to freak the fuck out. Over react to everything. Screaming. Yelling. Texting people nonstop about my random issues and problems. I answered the phone today when I shouldn’t have. I was frust…
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August 2, 2025 at 2:26 PM